Note: Bleach isn't mine. Kubo Title owns it. The text in italics are Rukias thoughts. Excuse me for any English mistakes. I'm not a native speaker. Now enjoy!

Rukia didn't understand that. The only solution to this situation was that Ichigo was a damn cold bastard. And a pervert at that. Not caring about anything. She didn't recognize him. This wasn't the Ichigo she loved. No... the orange boy she knew would never do that. Take her into a corner and grope her.

She liked that he finally showed some attention, but... not when he was dating Inoue.

"Why so complicated? Rukia... what's wrong with you?" he asked, his voice upset, as he petted her black hair. She only turned her gaze away from his face.

"Nothing. Really. I'm grateful." she said it with hollow voice and Ichigo didn't believe her.

Deep inside she was asking herself these questions again and again.

'Why?' 'Would you like to be with me?' 'When I don't fucking love you?' 'When I don't fucking care about you?'

"When I fucking want you to roll into a corner and die?" she asked, not knowing that she said it out loud. She was thinking this for umpteenth time. It really didn't matter if the orange haired boy knew or not.

Ichigo was stunned. Did that... little midget meant what she said? By her tone she said she was grateful for his attention, he knew that she wasn't. But... did she really hate him?

He held her by her arms, and she continued her trance spilling out thoughts that she got enough of.

"Yet. You care about me. 'Maybe you love me." she said, her voice hopeful, but her face indifferent.

He didn't know what to say. Was she aware of the things she said? Did she really... want to be with him? He got confused at the next statement that left her lips.

"But forget it. You must definitely forget it. It won't be fair towards her. Your girlfriend." she said, a hint of regret in her voice. 'My best friend for life. Or... is Orihime really my friend? She stole the guy I loved as soon as I said it. Heh... I don't know anymore. But that doesn't give Ichigo the right to cheat on her with me!'

"So... stop it. ….Forget me." she said, her voice with an emotion Ichigo couldn't distinguish in his astonishment.

'And never come back from that fucking trip.' Rukia added, in her thoughts. In one week, Ichigo and Orihime would be gone with the rest of their class to a trip to Onikawa. Rukia hadn't the money to go with them.

As much as she loved the orange haired and mocha eyed man, she hated him at the same time. She couldn't really explain it. Their current relationship was... twisted.

Unknowingly to her... Ichigo actually never came back from that trip. He went missing one night when the meteors were falling in the sky.

THE END?

(A/N: Hi. This is my first Bleach fanfic that I dare to publish. My other bleach fanfics are too bad to post them here. And I've been out of the fandom for the past year. For me Bleach ended at chapter 423, and I abandoned the anime... long ago. Nonetheless I hope you enjoy this fic. One day at deutsch lesson I was bored so I wrote some sentences and now I felt like they are fitting well to the Ichiruki pairing. [Shizaya as well but that's another thing] I might post another part of this... someday but not really. So let this be completed for now. Please review if you read this. Excuse me if Ichigo seemed too OOC, or too badassy for your taste or whatever. I have a weird mood lately. So... thanks for reading and Feedback is greatly loved and keeping me alive xD)