Okay this is my first Vampire Diaries fanfic so please be nice. This will be a Damon/ Elena story as well. They will both seem a bit OOC to begin with but this is how I see Damon! There will be some changes here and if you don't like them well that's your problem!

Decisions

Dear diary

I love Stefan I truly do but Damon has this mysterious allure about him. It seems that the more I fight it, the more I want it. I know he's dangerous and powerful and drinks fucking human blood but that's his nature. I bet Stefan's done all of these things at some point. I can remember when I was first changed into a vampire and I thought I loved Damon it seemed so right, I feel like a bitch writing this but what would have happened if Damon didn't stop me and I did kill Stefan. Would I have gave into Damon sooner or would it have made me hate him so much I couldn't love him I could never fall for him?

Love Elena

I wish she loved me. Both of them have fell for Stefan. They only like me as their mystery man, the bad guy who cares only for himself. For once I wish I was the brother the girl I wanted dreamed about. Why should I my attitude for someone who probably doesn't exist? I want Elena even if she loves my brother. I only stopped her killing him so she could be happy and she might not hate me.

Damon

I lied on my bed, I had gotten Bonnie to let me in when she had been going through some of my things, and thought.

Okay I know three vampires. Thankfully one of them is dead. I knew that extra lapis lazuli stone would come in handy and the bitch didn't find it so she went puff while I was fine.

Back to the point both of the Salvatore brothers are invited into my, well sort of mine, house. I'm dating Stefan since I called off the engagement because 'too much had happened' AKA I wanted his brother instead. Thinking of Damon, I can feel him coming. The knock on my window came shortly.

"Come in Damon," I thought. He came through the window and was lying next to me in a flash.

"I would say that you shouldn't be here but who am I to comment? Though I am curious, why are you here?" he asked.

"To think and to collect some of the smaller items that won't be missed."

"What are you thinking about?"

"You and Stefan," there was no point lying.

"What about me? That I'm a fuckable mysterious vampire and you would ditch Stefan for me in a minute?" Damon chuckled.

"Only the mysterious vampire part," I replied.

"Damn," he muttered good naturedly.

"How old are you in human years?"

"I believe I was 19. I know that I had just dropped out of university because I couldn't be bothered with it all. Why?"

"I just wondered. That would make Stefan 17 then. Why don't you like Stefan?" I asked.

"Yes it would. I don't like Stefan because any girl I'm serious about he takes." He laughed humorlessly. "Why didn't you burn?"

"Because I had another piece of lapis lazuli on me that the thick bitch didn't find." I explained.

"Oh Elena what would I do without you," Damon mused.

"Torment Stefan," I giggled.

"Elena. I love you. I know you're in love with Stefan and probably only see me as a brother and all that shit. Just know that I love you and I care for you and I always will Sweet Elena." With that declaration he vanished out of the window.

Well fuck they both love me

And I love both of them

Double Fuck!

Okay please tell me what you think!!!!