Doubt or Trust, a d.gray-man fanfic

Hello! This is my second poem of DGM! CHEERS! Well, read and review pleaseee :D.. THANK YOUUU!

As I walked down this corridor,

Many things haunted my mind,

Questions came in,

But they were left unanswered.

Will I live through this?

Will we win the war?

Will peace finally come?

No one answered my questions.

As I recalled the fun times,

My heart would jump with joy,

Ah, how I wish those days were still here,

Where happiness and fun existed.

As my responsibilities become greater,

I desperately seek for the warmth that was once there,

Oh, the God I hate so much,

Please grant me my desperate wishes.

Sad and lonely I am,

I can't help plastering a fake smile on myself,

Which everyone seemed to believe in,

The real 'me' sealed deep inside me.

As I smiled outside,

I cried inside,

For the love and care I never had,

A lonely boy who never knew his parents.

Ah, how I wish this was all just a dream,

After which I'll wake up in warmth,

Alas, no matter how many times I pinch myself,

The pain was excruciating.

When harsh and rude words were directed towards me,

It didn't hurt at all,

When my companions turned their backs on me,

Strangely, my heart felt like it was bleeding dry.

I am trapped here,

In a place I once called my home,

I am still walking like I promised,

Somehow, it seems like the road I'm walking on is ending soon.

Tears hidden from the world flow freely,

As I was betrayed,

By those I called my family,

Ah, I feel like I'm sinking into a bottomless abyss.

I had never thought,

That the darkness could be my emergency exit,

I never knew,

That the light would shine the way for me.

Should I tell you more?

About this boy,

Whose life is full of lies,

Maybe, the boy itself is a lie.

If someone told me,

'I love you'

Should I believe it?

Or should I dismiss it?

Dear reader,

Why don't you tell me?

I wasn't given my right to choose,

I didn't have any choice for anything.

This world is unfair,

Someday, maybe,

This war will end,

And then will I be able to learn what love is?

Forgive me, dear reader,

For making you read these dark thoughts of mine,

As I write this down on a paper,

I can't help hoping that you will understand my thoughts.

I am thinking of escaping,

To a place where no church or exorcist exist,

Is it bad to dream for this?

Am I not allowed to dream?

There is still one question haunting me,

I don't have the answer,

So will you give the answer to me, dear reader?

Who should I doubt or trust?

How was it? Do you like it? :D