Title: I Remember The Days You Loved Me.

Author: Matt Mochizuki (I know, I know. I have two surnames instead of 1 surname and one family name, but that's all my parents fault! Or my family for that matter)

Summary: Matt feels lonely and he is doubting if he wants to continue his quest against the Dark Masters. Although Puppetmon is still the Digidestined mean concern, Matt wanders lonely through the night until he meets Tai. Well, this story is rated PG13 I think. Expect romantic moments between Tai and Matt, that's all! Because they make a very cute couple

Proclaimer: I don't owe Digimon or any characters. Although I still owe my own name and blond strands hehehehehe! Anyway. Digimon is copyrighted by Fox Kids and Toei Inc.

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CHAPTER ONE

"I hate this place. I want to be alone for a sec. I really hate this place!"

The moon was standing high that night and a thousand stars were inhabiting the sky, painting a soft glow around the contours of the young, blond boy's body that was standing on the beach, facing the enormous mountain that laid ahead of him. Matt gazed to the black waves who slowly flooded the beach and washed away the footprints his shoes had made, only seconds ago.

His hand slowly caught a tear that was flowing down his cheek. But the gesture was so automatically that Matt didn't even noticed he was crying. His thoughts were controlling him, ever since the day he came back to Digiworld and had to leave his father alone. So much was changed, and the many changes had made the young boy unsure and scared. His future didn't look bright for some reason, although Matt believed that no one can predict the future, even a distanced one. But now, when he was standing all alone on the deserted beach his emotions weren't controllable anymore and memories of past and present were mixed together into some sort of icy wind that ran over his spin and pinned him against the wall of time; letting him experience feelings that normally staid hidden within the human heart.

But his heart was leaking and the liquid it was secreting flowed down his veins and was pitch black. as black as the night. as black as his hate towards Tai. Or wasn't it hate? The last few days Matt had felt so many emotions that he couldn't separate the true and the false ones. He knew that half of the feelings were fake ones, made by his own greed and insecurity and flavoured by self-denial. And the fact he was telling himself day after day that he had an unfortunate youth had poisoned him. The fire in his beautiful blue eyes was long gone and his mind was totally mixed up. Meanwhile the atmosphere between the Digidestined was tensed and one wrong word could cause a terrible fight which would have consequences for their quest that laid ahead of them. But most important it could destroy the world where the Destined belonged.

Matt had reached the end of the beach. His eyes were red from the tears he had been crying, but somehow he felt a satisfaction. He didn't know where it came from. His troubles weren't solved and he couldn't relay on his feelings to guide him. Perhaps it was the sight of the end of the beach and the beginning of the endlessly black ocean in front of him. A cool breeze was playing with his blond strands and the salty sea air was filling his nostrils. This night, Digiworld looked nice for a change and although the blue light of the moon was the only source that lighted the beach, Matt felt like he was standing on a sunny field not far from "Heighten View Terrace". But something was missing and suddenly he began worrying again. Matt didn't know who was missing, but he was sure that it wasn't T.K! The thought that he was safely sleeping with the others a couple of miles further down the beach was relaxing him for a second, but he couldn't deny the acing feeling of someone who is missing. It drove him nuts and tears were flowing again over his cheeks, dropping down in the white sand underneath his shoes.

Suddenly Matt heard footsteps. First they were very far away and they seamed like echoes of a long forgotten past. But they became louder and Matt could distinguish a shadow approaching him rapidly. For the first time that night he was scared that someone would caught him unaware. He could feel the warm rivers of tears that flew over his cheek and he quickly grabbed a tissue that was hidden deep in the pockets of his blue jeans.

"Hey, Matt, what are you doing up here all alone?"

Tai's voice was echoing over the beach and was bouncing against the big, gray rocks that marked the frontier between land and water. Matt slowly turned and smiled vaguely to his friend who was trying to evade a large pool of water that was forming a barrier between the two friends. "How the hell did you get there without wet feet?": Tai asked, breathing heavily as he had to jump regularly to keep his own pare of shoes dry. Matt slowly moved his toes and groaned as he felt his wet socks who were sticking to his feet.

Finally Tai reached his friend. He smiled and knocked his friend on the shoulders. "So what's up Matt?" he asked, almost whispering. The blond boy sighed and slowly replied: "I want to be alone Tai." The other boy grinned and removed a strand of hair that was hanging in front of his eyes. "OK, Matt, I understand.!" "Well, I will stay here with you so we can be alone together!" Matt looked in the brown eyes of his friend, feeling the urgent need to pull the boy away or drown him in the ocean.

"Look Tai, no offence, but I really want to be alone for a second. Is that too much to ask for?" "Matt, please, you are terribly quiet the last few days and the guys were wondering, well I was wondering if there are any problems?" Tai's voice sounded sweet, with a twist of anxiety. He slowly took Matt's hand and warmed it with his own hands. The feeling of his soft flesh made Matt shiver. "I'm so confused Tai. I don't know who I am." Tai laughed and slowly pinched Matt's hand. A couple of seagulls were flying above the boys' head and a shooting star was slowly dying in the black sky, as a lonely stranger it was making his last voyage through space to find a place where he could rest and become a phantom of the past; a name that is erased out of the world's memory. "Well I know who you are Matt." Tai finally answered. Deep wrinkles appeared on the brown boys smooth forehead. Matt smiled as he saw that familiar characteristic. "You are one of my best friends and there is nothing to be worried about. I will guide you safely through this episode of life. Trust me buddy, I know that everything seems confusing, but you must go on with your life. The only thing we all can relay on is friendship. Don't let that waste away Matt." Matt couldn't believe that Tai actually said something useful. He always had considered him as a big baby, and that's why he was so unsure if he could accept Tai's leadership. "But I have still a question that's bugging me for ages now": Tai continued, suppressing a small giggle. "I always have wondered how Digimon have sex!" Matt started to laugh out loud. He looked to his friend who was grinning devilish. " I mean, have you ever looked between your Digimon's legs, I mean, there is nothing there!" Matt nodded his head and pulled his hand away from Tai's. A cold wind stroke his hand for a second and Matt finally felt how cold it actually was. Meanwhile Tai popped himself down and looked towards the big mountain.

"I know that our future is unclear Matt, but just try to look at the bright side of it all. I'm happy because I have the guys around me to support me. And I'm over with joy because you are here to have fun with." Tai grinned.

Matt dropped himself next to his friend. He slowly grabbed some sand and let it fly on the wind. He was cold and felt wet. But somehow there was this heat inside him he could not describe. Perhaps he didn't hated Tai at all and were the feeling he had for the boy stronger than he had ever imagined. The thrill he felt when he was sitting next to him was not new. He was eagerly searching in his memories to find any resemblances of the past. Meanwhile Tai gazed into the sky. It was awfully quiet beside the waves who were splashing against the rocks. His hand slowly scanned the sand below his body. Suddenly it bumped against Matt's. Only seconds later the two hands' fingers were tangled in each other.

Matt finally recalled the moment he was searching for. He had felt that same emotion when they had to face Venom Myotesmon when they were ready to be hit by the other Digimon's beams. They had took each other's hand and stood there, waiting for something unknown, perhaps dangerous. But the fact that Matt was somehow connected with Tai made all the difference. Without his friend's hand in his he would have run away, or at least have cried. But the warmth that was pouring out of Tai's pores had enchanted him and frozen his legs. He felt like a powerful crystal that was charged again with the sweetness of great power, he had felt like he could face the world without troubling about the future, for the moment was unforgettable and was burned in his heart and had healed for one minute the wounds that had carved his heart. And now, sitting here on the moonlit beach he felt that same warmth flowing through his veins. He was probably blushing.

"I'm cold." Matt finally said, his voice trembling and husky. Only seconds later he felt Tai's arm around his shoulders. All his feelings suddenly overwhelmed the young boy and he burst out in tears. As he felt Tai's warm hands wiping his cheeks he looked with a troubled view to his friend. "I didn't mean to cry. It's just that I'm." "Hey, don't say another word. I understand you completely Matt."

Matt slowly laid his head on Tai's shoulder. Big tears were wetting Tai's blue shirt and the orange star on the right side of his sleeve. He slowly bended over and pressed a kiss in Matt's blond hair. The hair smelled like Cherry Blossom perfume and Tai wondered how Matt could keep up with his need for hygiene. Meanwhile the other boy was breathing heavily. His warm breath was bouncing against Tai's body and was tickling his white, sensitive skin. Tai felt like he was in a place where magic truly existed.

"I think we should go back." Matt finally said. "Before the guys will be worried and go on a tragic search." "Perhaps they'll be glad they get rid of us." Tai joked but Matt couldn't laugh. Again he felt uncertain and a thousand questions were buzzing inside his head. Was this love he was feeling? How did Tai feel towards him? How could he ever cope with this new feeling?

Tai crawled up and reached out to help his friend up. Matt slowly took Tai's hand and tensed his muscles. Suddenly Tai pulled very harshly and the blond boy couldn't keep his balance and crushed onto his friend. They both tumbled down again and rolled over the beach. "Woaw, be careful Matt": Tai laughed as they finally stopped just in time to avoid the big pool of water. Tai was laying on top of the blond boy and for a moment they laid quietly on the beach. Tai could feel Matt's chest going up and down each time he was breathing in and out. It was a pleasant feeling that reminded him at his father. When he was little his father always took him to the Ueno Park at the other side of the city. They had to take the subway to get there and Tai always felt like he was travelling to a whole other world. They would play underneath the cherry blossom trees and buy rice crackers when they were tired. But after Cari was born they never visited that place again, but Tai still remembered the days when he and his dad were laying on the green grass, looking at the crème-white clouds that slowly floated by in every possible shape. It was a strange experience that he felt this same feeling of security and peace laying on top of his friend. His hands slowly glided over the sand to find a hold on to get up again, but the treacherous sand slipped below his fingers the moment he wanted to stand on both feet and he fell over again, his cheek against Matt's cheek. "Uhm sorry": tai blushed. "It's kind of slippery here." He looked into Matt's blue eyes and was stroke by the beauty of them. He gazed his own reflection in the natural, sapphire, mirrors in front of him. Then he slowly closed his eyes and his pink lips suddenly stirred Matt's. Matt laid frozen for a second, but after a while he also closed his eyes and surrendered himself to Tai's greed.

The world was spinning when they finally broke their kiss. The sea was still flooding the beach, but the cold was gone and was replaced by an enjoyable warmth. The two Digidestined-kids walked together over the ivory- white sand. Hand in hand they strolled along the shoreline until they finally reached the fire the kids had been making an hour or two ago. Matt smiled as he saw T.K, sleeping close to Sora and Patamon. Joe and Mimi had laid themselves close to the fire and Izzy had grabbed his computer tightly. The rest of the Digimon were laying all together on a sort of heap close to a tree. Let's get ready to sleep": Matt whispered. "But I'm not sleepy yet!" Tai yelled in Matt's ear. "Keep your voice down Tai! Damn, do you want to wake everyone up!" Matt whispered angry. Tai made a face like he was being surprised by ten Myotesmon's and Matt already felt guilty for being so pissed off. "I'm sorry Tai" He said and laid an arms around Tai's waist and kissed him passionately. Tai eagerly replied his kiss and stroke Matt's hair. He could feel Matt's hand on his back, making itself a way down his spine until it rested on his ass. Tai embraced Matt closely and then yawned. "Perhaps you are right! Going to sleep is a good idea." ; he smiled and ran in the bushed to take a piss. After he returned he took a blanket out his backpack and saw that Matt already laid close to the fire, his face staring at Tai's pants. "You really ought to learn aiming better when you urinate." He laughed secretly. "You have all wet spots on your pants." Tai looked with an annoyed face as his thoughts were running through his mind. Finally he had found a good reply. "I can aim you know. The spots are made by the long grass over there who is still wet from the rain." "Yeah sure" Matt laughed and closed his eyes. "How would you know Matt." Tai replied his friend and jumped on him and tickled him. Surprised by this sudden attack Matt couldn't prepare a counterattack and a couple of minutes he was winding underneath Tai". "Please stop it Tai!" he screamed hysterically. "Hey, be quiet Matt, or you'll wake up all the others!" Tai joked and continued his task.

After awhile both friends laid on their backs, breathing and sweating heavily because of their huge efforts. The hours past and Tai had taken his little blanket and the two boys were crawled underneath it, laying in each others arms they fell asleep, their cheeks sticking together by the white sand. Another shooting star was lightning the sky. and everything seemed bright and without evil. Though a couple of red eyes were gazing at Tai and Matt from out of a treetop and a high, diabolical laughter filled the early morning sky!

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Notes from the author:

Well, that's the end of Chapter one! I apologise for any mistakes; English isn't my native tongue or even my second languages. (To be more exactly it's my fourth language.! -O-) Anyway I hope you enjoyed the first chapter and please review me. tell me if it isn't too boring or poetical! (perhaps side effects of me reading too many Japanese traditional books! Waaaaaaaaaaah Yukio Mishima-san is great!!!!! He is superb!). Anyway this is my first fan fic I ever published on the internet. I hope you like it!