I know that I should be focusing on "Memories of the Past" but I still can't think of what to write for the other characters nor am I 100% sure on how to write out the request chapters. Well I heard this song and something about it just screamed Freddie.
The song is "Everything you ever wanted" by Hawk Nelson.
There are things Freddie does not talk about.
His father is one of them.
I walk the line
Leave it all behind
I've been waiting forever
Lets go back in time
When I could read your mind
Still I've been waiting
He remembers clearly his father waking out the door promising to be home later.
It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault
For the longest time he wondered if he did something wrong.
If his father left because of something he did.
I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
He tried so hard in everything, foolishly clinging to the hope that if he was perfect that his father would return.
Its been so long
Since you've been home
I used to wait up forever
I used to say a prayer
Wishing you were there
And I'm still waiting
When he was younger he would pray for his father to come home.
You told me once
You'd show up
But I fell for that
Before I fell to pieces
Then I woke up
To no one,
Just a picture of Jesus
And a house left in pieces
Nothing is the same.
His mom has become extra protective and paranoid.
It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault
At 10 finally realizes that he is to blame for his father abandoning them.
I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
There are moments when he sees fathers and sons together and wonders….
If his father would of come home, if he was more like him.
I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you
I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you
When he was younger he desperately wanted his father return.
I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
tried to be everything but you
He is not his father.
I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
He won't abandon his family.
I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you
He is glad that he didn't try to become like his father.