Pairing: 6918, slight 6927

Rate: T

Warning: AU, confusing idea(maybe), flash back, OOC

Note: This fic is the English version of my Indonesian fic, but I have improve some. The timeline is TYL. Sorry for the grammar m(_ _)m Ah! For TehSpookyWaffle, I really thanks for your great help! XD

Disclaimer: KHR and its characters belongs to Amano Akira, so it's not mine!

Did You Realize It?

1st Shard: My Existence?

-Even if I wish to seek for you hand, your voice and your vestige-

"Can I go now?"

"Bu-but, Kyouya…"

The blue haired man couldn't restrain the man in front of him any longer. He was becoming irritated with Mukuro's actions that were trying to force him to speak. Mukuro didn't have any choice; he let Hibari go and walked away from him. The illusionist sighed, feeling disappointed. Leaning against the wall behind him, he stared at the sky before covering his view with a gloved hand.

"Why….? Why must this happen…?"

"Ne, thanks for accompanying me today, Mukuro!" Tsuna said with happy tone. There was no doubt about what the reason was that made him feel so happy.

"Yeah, wherever you want to go, Tsuna," Mukuro answered lightly.

"It's strange…."

"What?"

"Are you thinking of something?"

Mukuro stopped his steps. Tsuna stopped too, and watched Mukuro with an upset face.

"Am I wrong?" Tsuna asked, feeling nervous while he watched Mukuro's reaction.

"No, I'm fine," Mukuro formed his usual smirk, "continue our walk."

Tsuna still watched the man while both of them were walking, and sighed silently. Maybe, inviting Mukuro to visit that place was a bad idea. It was Namimori Junior High School. And the Vongola Decimo quickly realized his deed.

"I have to say if I'm fine, right?" Mukuro's voice succeeded to voice Tsuna's thoughts.

"Umm… If you say so..." Tsuna answered while smiling sheepishly.

Hibari Kyouya. Cloud Guardian of the Tenth Generation Vongola Boss. Ex-Leader of Namimori Junior's Disciplinary Committee. He was a well known man because of his power; the past and present were not different. He had been lost since a month ago and there were no clues about where he had gone. The only things they could find in his house were just the pair of tonfas that he always carried, A Cloud Box, and his little yellow pet -called Hibird later-, who was mute. Tsuna and the rest of the Guardians –this includes Mukuro- and the other Vongola Famiglia's members tried hard to find him. The result was nothing. Strange. Too strange.

"Kyouya is gone," Mukuro said, "It's not your fault."

"I know," Tsuna nodded, "but…I felt rather strange seeing his expression, no, his eyes… As if he would go soon, and then, the words that he said on our last meeting…"

Mukuro turned his face to the shorter male, "Words?"

"Yeah, deep meaningful words that seemed unlike the usual Hibari-san. And his eyes… Their light was dim; I can't forget them."

"What did he say?"

He breathed deeply and blew it out. Tsuna always felt pain when he remembered Hibari's words. "He said it like this…"

Mukuro nodded his head.

"I'm sorry, Tsunayoshi, I failed."

Mukuro widened his eyes.

"I said, "Why? Hibari-san is an amazing Guardian; you always complete every mission with perfect results. Why do you say that you've failed? Then…"

"Then?"

"He shook his head when he said 'It's not about the Guardians, but me; it's me who failed.' And then, and then…"

Tsuna wiped his tears that appeared from the corner of his eyes, "and then, he smiled, the-the last words I e-ever heard from him…."

"What were they?" Mukuro felt uncomfortable.

"I always make an effort to keep, I keep something precious for me. However, that thing was gone in the end. Not by itself. I was too weak so that thing has gone easily from me. Isn't this a sign that I have failed?" Tsuna continued with sobs, "and he went without turning his face to me. At first, I didn't understand those sentences. I would be really surprised if they had a connection with his condition now…"

Mukuro's finger wiped Tsuna's flowing tears. He knew that Tsuna couldn't prove it.

"Thank you," Tsuna responded, smiling sheepishly.

"He is strong. I promise he is okay now. I guarantee it." Mukuro entertained him. But, it was only on the surface.

"You are worried about him too, aren't you? Don't lie to yourself."

"Oya oya? Hyper Intuition is really unbeatable!" he teased, "I believe, very much, that Kyouya is okay!"

The wind blew harshly, entering the room. Hibari didn't care about the cold. Or perhaps, he didn't care about anything…

"Kyouya, did you open the shoji widely!? The wind is starting to enter the house!" Mukuro said, half screaming when he entered the room where Hibari sat.

No answer. Mukuro scratched his head. He saw Hibari who sat leaning against the side of wall. He faced the yard in front of his shoji. Mukuro didn't have any idea about the sitting man's expression.

"Kyouya, if you settle down like that, you will get ill! Then-"

"Shut up."

"But Kyou-"

"Don't get any closer."

"The doctor said that your immune system is weaker than before. So I-"

"Leave me alone or I'll bite you to death."

Folding his arms, Mukuro became annoyed with Hibari's carefree attitude. His sentences were always cut by those rough words. Although, he was really worried about his health.

"I'm worried about your health, you know!? At least, care about it! If you get ill-" his words were cut off once more. Not by words like before, but by a metal object. This object was launched quickly towards him. The Mist Guardian evaded skillfully, though his cheek was scratched by it.

DUAKK!!

A tonfa hit the wall behind Mukuro, followed by the sound of it falling.

"That's dangerous, Kyouya!" Mukuro's eyes widened because of his fear.

"Will I get ill?" Hibari turned slightly. Even though Mukuro saw his grey eyes often, he felt horrible. Those cold, sharp, grey eyes. The glare was different from usual.

"This body is mine. So, why do you worry about it? If I get ill, what will you do? Cure me? Bring me to the doctor once more? Stop it. It's useless."

Mukuro was surprised because of what he heard. His face was depressed. Hibari speaking with a cold tone is common. But, now…

"If you say so, I'm sorry…" Mukuro said as he left the room.

"You think I don't know? Stupid Pineapple."

"Kyouya?"

"What's wrong, Mukuro?" Tsuna asked.

The blue haired illusionist's eyes widened as he saw the person who passed them, "Kyou…ya?"

"Do-do you mean Hibari-san?" Tsuna couldn't believe what he had just heard, "Where is he?"

Not wasting time, Mukuro ran to chase the man. Hibari's strides were fast enough so that the distance between them was very far. Curiousity, nervousness, and worry mixed in Mukuro's chest. He had to determine it by himself.

"Mu-Mukuro! Wait for me!" Tsuna screamed. He panted while he chased Mukuro, who had disappeared from Tsuna's sight. It was uncertain if Mukuro had seen Hibari just now.

"Mukuro…."

Those mismatched eyes glanced at a building. A café which had just been opened by the employees. Maybe an hour ago.

"So, you are here?" he whispered.

And his eyes caught that presence. Hibari sat near the window of café. Mukuro believed he was Hibari. He walked up to the café and entered it.

"Irrasshaimase!" an employee greeted him when the little bell at the entrance rang. Mukuro searched for Hibari again. Successful with his search, he approached him. The black suited man was sipping his order of coffee.

"Kyouya…?"

He realized he was being watched by someone, and turned to stare, upset, at Mukuro. "Hm? Yes?"

Mukuro's face became pale, "Kyo-Kyouya? You're Kyouya…."

"Sumimasen, have we meet somewhere before? I think it's impolite if you speak to me without my surname at our first meeting," Hibari answered innocently.

His face became paler. His lips trembled, and he didn't know what he should say.

"Err… After all, how did you know my name?" the black haired man asked.

He could feel heat in his eyes. Couldn't believe, didn't want to believe what he had just heard. The words slid from Hibari's mouth.

"Kyouya!" Mukuro shook Hibari's body. He was swallowed up by his own emotion. An emotion called sorrow.

"A-ano…" an upset expression showed on Hibari's face.

"Kyouya!! Stop it, stop all of your nonsense! I beg you, stop it!" the shaking became harsher.

Even though there were only a few customers at the café, Mukuro ignored his loud voice. They just watched from their seats. Hibari felt uncomfortable from the glances of people while Mukuro still shouted at him. Mukuro couldn't prove it, and he didn't want to accept Hibari's statement. What he wanted to accept was only the truth.

Hibari was reaching his limit of patience. A man who he just met begged him to stop an unknown thing. He stood up from his seat and paid the cashier by throwing his money at him. Hibari said 'Thank you' before reaching the exit, ignoring the pineapple headed man behind him.

"I won't let you do it again!" Mukuro mumbled.

Mukuro didn't stay at the cafe. He chased after Hibari again. The annoyed Cloud Guardian was grumbling by himself on the road. Without warning, Mukuro pushed the body in front of him and pinned it down. His hands held both of Hibari's wrists until Hibari couldn't move. His body was totally restrained by Mukuro. He could only struggle as hard as he could.

"Kyouya…" Mukuro spoke, "don't you remember….me?"

"I really don't know you!" Hibari replied, half screaming.

"Don't lie to me."

"I am not."

"You are," The illusionist continued, "I am Rokudou Mukuro, the person you want to bite to death the most. That's impossible if you forget about it, Kyouya."

"Rokudou….Mukuro?" Hibari asked.

Mukuro nodded.

"Hold on…. I remember I had a partner named Rokudou..."

"Who is he?" Mukuro raised his eyebrow.

"It was a long time ago. I don't remember his face anymore because he disappeared mysteriously. At least, he was more polite than you."

Now, Mukuro's arms trembled. There were no lies in his words. It made things more confusing.

"And I'm new in this town. Are you satisfied?"

Silence was his answer. Hibari sighed.

"Can I go now?"

"Mukuro, are you okay?" Tsuna finally found his Mist Guardian.

Mukuro sat leaning against the wall and just nodded. His hand still covered his view. Everything was too hard to be understood. He knew Hibari. Most. However, Hibari himself didn't know him. Or was that the truth?

"Where is Hibari-san?"

I really don't know you!

A/N:

Kanashimi no wa kasanete

Anata no te anata no koe
Anata no zanzou (omokage) wo motometemo
Tooi tobira (DOA) wa hiraku koto naku
Toikaketa inochi no imi
Munashiku ano sora ni kodamashite hibiku dake

Eien no Yume

Me wo samasu sono shunkan
Futatabi ugokidasu yuugi kara
Nogareru koto yurusareta nara
Tada hitori yume ni mayoi
Darenimo aisarezu yami no naka kuchiru dake sore wa rakuen?

Nagareyuku toki wo koete
Ikudo to naku tsurugi majiete mo
Nozomu asa wa kuruno deshouka?
Kaserareta inochi no imi
Mizukara no sonzai soredake ga akashi nano

Utsurou wa utsusemi no kage

The lyric above is from Utsusemi no Kage, Rozen Maiden Ouverture ED. I don't know why, this part of lyric inspired me to write this fic.

Glossary:

- Shoji: A Japanese's traditional slide door.

- Irrashaimase: A Japanese's welcome greet at restaurant or cafe.

- Sumimasen: Sorry. You can mean it as 'I'm sorry' too, like 'gomenasai'.