Going through her mind was nothing but the unsure feelings her present actions were radiating. She stumbled up to the apartment door and gave three timid knocks. The few seconds wait was agonizing and she was just turning away when the door opened. Was this what she wanted? Did she want him to be there?

"Neela?", Ray said in what was barely a greeting, the way they treated each other earlier was nothing short of the third World War. But he looked into her eyes and saw what he had saw the first time he laid eyes on her and the first time they had shook hands and agreed to be roommates. Which was really what got this all started in the first place. "Do you want to come in?", Ray asked without much force, he really didn't know if that was her intention.

Neela walked into the dark room; overwhelmed by the memories of her past and the feelings of how much she missed it there. Ray walked across the room separating himself from her, though not really sure why. It was early in the morning, really early. It was almost three. Disoriented, Neela scanned the room for Ray. She spotted him and all of the sudden felt very silly standing in the middle of the home and the person she abandoned.

"I don't know why I came, but this was the only place I knew how to get to and I am really sorry for waking you up. I should go," Neela turned around and headed for the door. Her face turned white when she felt his hand on her shoulder.

"Neela, why did you come?", Ray questioned as he looked into the eyes of his lost roommate.

Tears welling up in her eyes began to spell out her concerns.

"I didn't feel like taking the El and where would I be taking it to anyway? Home? What home? Abby and Luka and the baby, I can't go back there. I've been at the hospital for the past thirty-six hours and I can't take it anymore. Why would I stay there anyway?"

He stood stunned. He had no idea of what to say. The room was still dark and though he was closer to her now, he still could not make out the features of her face. He didn't know what he should be doing. He feared that if he said something it would be the wrong thing, and if he didn't say anything at all she would think that she made the wrong choice and that was the last thing Ray wanted Neela to think. With nothing to loose, Ray offered Neela a place to stay.

"The couch is a little ruined and I only have one blanket anyway. So, I guess that you can share the bed with me. The sheets are clean, I swear," Ray looked up and waited for the reaction to what he had just offered to her.

"I don't think that I should. I will just sleep at the hospital, " Neela said with almost no hesitation. She tried to pull herself together but from sheer exhaustion she found herself complying.

Ray awkwardly got into bed and scrunched himself as close to the wall as he could. Neela followed and with the pillow Ray had given her, she put it in between them. A guard rail to protect her from everything that could happen. Ray offered her the blanket.

"I don't want it," Neela said and turned herself away from Ray.

"It's going to get cold and you'll need it."

"I said I was fine." At the side of the bed Neela feared she would fall off into the sea of pizza boxes and beer cans. What had happened to Ray since she left? Her mind wandered and before she knew it, it was almost five in the dead of winter; she was cold. Neela looked over at Ray and found he was sleeping with the blanket tightly wrapped around him with only a tail she would even have a chance of moving. She grabbed the divider and placed it beneath her head. She froze. She was surprised at how much her attitude had changed since a few hours before. She was still wary of what she was doing and was the opposite of lucid. She pulled the blanket a few inches and rested her head on Ray's shoulder. A few second's later he woke up.

Ray had a surprised expression on his face. Neela could barely see in the room which was still black. She got up and dangled her feet over the side of the bed.

"I'm so sorry, I was cold; you were right, I did need that blanket. It was just, you had it all wrapped around you and-," she was crying and Ray took her hand and pulled her in close. The feeling of Ray against her was indescribable and a feeling that she had wanted to feel so many times before, but never got the chance to. She was able to calm back down with Ray's arms around her. She looked into his eyes and said thank you. For a moment she thought something was going to happen. Their faces so close together and knowing that they both had the same feelings in their hearts. She backed away and now only her head remained touching Ray's shoulder. She paused only a few seconds and then sat up and kissed Ray. A sweet kiss-very short. She then resumed her original position. She was close to Ray. She knew that he had received the kiss when he took his arms and placed them around her and held her tighter. She closed her eyes, and she was asleep.

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This is my first fan fiction. I hope that it isn't too terribly bad. I think that it starts out kind of okay and then gets worse. Well I hope you like it and tell me what you think! Even if it is the worst story you have ever read. I want to know!

Thanks for reading!