AUTHOR'S NOTE:
Ah, okay, so here we are with another Hamilton fic, where I am just trying my best. Doing the best that I can, with what I have going for me...it isn't much, let's be real...
Look, I addressed most of this in the other AN on my other Hamilton fic, so I'm just gunna copy and post all of the important stuff, because it is important to note, but if you don't care, I 100% get that so real quick here's the trigger warnings for ay and then I'll let you make ya choices:
Character death, violent death, suicide, thoughts of suicide, Benjamin Franklin not taking anyone's bullshit, homophobic slurs and comments, swearing out the wazoo, ghost sex, ghost!Laurens (sorry John, I swear you're my favorite), psychological torture, manipulation, pagans being strong enough to tell a demon to fuck off with it's bullshit without needing to get the catholic church involved, rape, demonic possession, the gaaaaays, self harm, religious damnation of queer expressions and sex, Ouija boards and other occult paraphernalia being used and NOT mishandled, the death of characters BECAUSE they are gay, and Peggy.
Okay, so first things first, I'm like a 30 year old geezer now, and as much as I can enjoy writing for writing's sake, I am very much aware that it is not my greatest passion. Now, I put a lot of work and effort into my fics, and there is a lot that I write that never sees the internet, but if you take a peruse through what I have posted here you'll quickly notice that I tend to follow a certain little trend.
I start writing chapter stories that I never finish.
I am the worse. I literally don't deserve to have readers. I will start you on some of the best fucking fanfiction this side of the Mississippi that you've read in a while, and right as shit seems to be getting good I will stop and just ghost you all. And I always do the same shit, I always start a new project and I say, "Oh, ho, ho! Not THIS time! It's different THIS time! I'm gunna actually finish this story THIS time!"
NO. NO, WE ARE NOT DOING THAT THIS TIME. I AM A CRONIC CLIFFHANGER-WRITER WHO GHOSTS OUT ON HER READERS ALL THE TIME AND YOU DESERVE BETTER, YOU DESERVE SOMEONE WHO WILL WRITE YOU GOOD STORIES FROM START TO FINISH AND WON'T LEAVE YOU WITH BROKEN PROMISES AND LIIIIIEEEESSSSS! DO NOT BELIEVE YOUNGER ME, SHE IS A LIAR AND A FLAKE AND YOU COULD READ LITERALLY DOZENS OF BETTER FICS COLLECTED IN HER FAVORITES SECTION, WRITTEN BY READERS WHO ARE SWEET AND GOOD AND WORTHY OF YOUR REVIEWS AND FOLLOWS AND FAVORITES! SLDSKLASJFKSDFJKFJ!
::long drawn out sigh:: Look, I'm just...OLD, okay? Life kinda has these things called priorities and, believe it or not, I do not consider myself an "actual" writer. Like, I like to write fanfiction, it's fun, but fanfiction is about the only creative writing I do. And I'm not trying to say that if you write fanfiction you aren't a "real" writer, on the contrary there are a LOT of you that are amazeballs and so much better at this then me. I mean, take a look at my other stories, look at how many projects I's started and then just dropped and haven't finished. Take a look at how often I post. SERIOUSLY.
I.
AM NOT.
A WRITER.
I am just a person who writes the kind of fuckery she wants to see in the fanfiction realm for her own amusements and literally nothing else. I do it because it amuses me for a while and when the amusement is done, I just move on to whatever else I want to be amused by. I have a lot of other hobbies that I like to pick at or indulge in, and while I wish I would start a writing project and see it through to it's completion like I used to when I was a teen, at this point in my life I think it's just easier to be open and honest with my readers and say:
I just feel like you should know that this story might not have an ending that will satisfy you.
I'm just starting something that I'm gunna see how far it goes before I drop off the face of the world again. Once that happens, wherever we are, however far we get, I'm sorry if it's not the end-end. I can say right now that I want to write this story out fully and see it through til it's end, and I mean that honestly, but wither or not I actually will will be decided as time goes by. And I just can't make any more promises that I won't keep. So that's it really, my intention here is to just do all the work that I feel like doing, put forth my best efforts and take it as far as it'll go. If nothing else please just let me be an inspiration to you, a challenge to you, to always better yourself in your own writings or your creative passions, even if it's not something you think you'll dedicate your life too. Just get better at what you like to do. I don't expect you to take everything seriously and be the best at everything, but always strive to be better then you were last time.
That all being said, let's get on with the fic!
~Child of the Dragon