1Hermione Diary entree
Dear Diary,
I can't believe it I really can't. Here I thought Ron had grown up and finally matured and he goes and acusses me of fratranizing with the enemy at the Yule Ball. Here I am all dressed up trying to enjoy my self with Viktor Krum and all I can think about is Ron. I couldn't help but wish it were him I was dancing with and not Viktor. Yes I know that sounds bad but it really isn't I promise I mean this year I have relized how much Ron has come to mean to me, more then just a mate. I really don't know how to say it, I feel for him like I know I shouldn't feel for a mate but yet I do. There are times I think he feels the same but then we get in these huge arguments and I begin to doubt.
Viktor and I are just friends I know that and Viktor knows that but Ron can't seem to accept that, I don't know what it is. Maybe its just a guy thing but it is getting on my nerves. Ever time I try to enjoy my self Ron goes and ruins things for me.
We got in a heated argument not to long ago in the common room. I told him that next time there is a ball that he better ask me next time before someone else does. And not as a last resort. I really don't know what made me say it but I did. I pretty much just told him that I want to go to the ball with him. I wonder if he will ever get the hint. Probably not this is after all Ron we are talking about.
Well I better go
Love
Hermione
Dear Diary,
Ron and I are in yet another argument I really don't understand it. But this time I am the one that started it or rather we both did. He might not have done it intetionalyy but he did none the less. I guess it started when, well when he snogged Lavender and they started dating.
I guess its mostly beause I am jealouse but all these years I have been attempting to get Ron's attention and to tell him without really telling him how I feel about him. But he is just so daft that I swear things goin in and out the same ear. Lavender has no righ, no right what so ever snogging Ron, my Ron.( Don't tell anyone I said that.) I mean usually she totally ignors his and is googly eyes over Harry because he is after all the boy who lived. But no Ron's not good enough for her that is until he wins a quidick match and then she off and snogs him.
Ahh she just has no right to do that. I have known him so much longer then her and I have loved him longer (once again don't tell anyone). Besides she probably doesn't do anything except snogg him anyways. She never does. Every single one of her boyfriends ends up dumping her because all she wants to do is snog all the time.
Why? Why for once couldn't I be her? I would do just about anything to beable to actually live up to my house and tell Ron how I feel and yet there is something holding me back. I don't know what it is. But I would love to have it be my lips he is carressing, my hair his finders are running threw and my hand he is holding. Needless to say it all boils down to, I am jelouse. I love Ron and if I can't be with him. No one can.
Okay I'm sorry Ron deserves happiness even if it isn't with me.
Gota go
Hermione