I still remember the very first time I saw her. Her deep red hair caught my eye from the other side of the room. All I remember thinking was how beautiful she was and that I would do anything to get to know her, to be close to her, to be with her. I knew from the first time I saw her that I would fall deeply and madly in love with this girl. There was only one problem, she was already with someone and that someone was my best friend Kyle.
So I guess I better introduce myself, my name is April Rose I'm 16 and I'm a love-sick Lesbian who is in love with my best friends girl, Beth. I know you might read this and think that it's so typical and that I should just get over it. Well the truth is, I don't think that's possible. It's like she has this hold over me, every time I see her in class I catch myself staring and daydreaming about how our life would be together. Yes, yes I know you probably think its wrong. I agree but I just can't seem to get her off my mind. Maybe if I told you a little bit about her you might understand.
Her name is Beth, and she is truly the most amazing girl I have ever met. Not a day goes by that she isn't the only thing I think about. She is the only thing that is constant in my head, the rest is just a jumble of mismatched things. I cant get enough of her. I think about how things could be if her and I were together and boy, just thinking about it make me so damn happy. When I see her and Kyle together I am hit with an instant pang of jealousy. Its like the song Jesse's Girl is constantly playing over and over in my head. Ugh I just want her, why cant I have her? Why can't she be mine? Oh yeah, it's because she is with my best friend… that's right.
Each and everyday I have to sit there and watch them together, it kills me inside.
Today is different for some reason. Today she looks like she would rather be anywhere else but stuck there listening to his guy shit. She looks like she would rather have needles stuck in her eyes (pretty gross mental image huh?) I look away and when I look back she looks over at me at the same time, she has these pleading eyes as if she wants me to get her out of there. I smile knowingly and walk over to them.
"Kyle, buddy how about you talk about something other than your video games for once huh?" I tease him
"Aw come on A! It can't be that bad!" He responds
"Actually Kyle…" Beth starts
"See? I told you man, the girl wants something else!" I direct at him
Just as he goes to say something the bell for class rings out.
"See you later guys" He says as his goodbye and walks off to his next class
When will that guy learn some manners and treat his girl right? Man, if she were mine I would tell her everyday how beautiful I think she is and at the least walk her to class so I know she is ok. But no he ran off and just left her here. I can tell by the look on her face that she is thinking the same as me right now.
"We have class together now right?" I ask. Her reply is a shy nod.
"Wanna walk together?" I ask jutting out my elbow for her to hook her arm through mine. She smiles and accepts the invitation. If Kyle isn't going to treat her like a lady then I guess I'll have to be the one to do it. Not that I'm complaining.
Later that night after I got all my homework out of that way I log onto my Skype account. Looking through who is online I come across Beth. And the little tick beside her name is green. Bingo. I click on her name and decide what I should say. Hello? No that is way too formal… Hi? No that seems like I don't even care and don't want to be talking to her… I end up settling for a Hey. Plain and simple but it's a least a little bit personal. It lets her know that I actually want to be talking to her. As I see her start to type at the bottom of my screen my stomach does a back flip with excitement. Jeez, the hold this girl has on me is ridiculous. Once again, I am definitely not complaining. Finally after what felt like an eternity she finally replies with a "Hey, how are you?"
That was the start of a conversation that lasted all night. It ranged from talking about school and classes we have together to me finding out so many things about her. I now know her favourite colour; red, her favourite animal; a Cat.
Places she wants to travel; Through Europe, but mainly to Italy. I never thought I could like talking to someone so much. Even after hours upon hours of talking we never ran out of things to talk about. I happened to glance at the time and it was 2:30 in the morning and I have to be up at 6. Shit, I'm going to have to say goodbye… On one hand I never want to stop talking to her but on the other I feel bad for keeping her up so late. I tell her that it's late and that I have to go she sends me a sad face making it so much harder. I tell her I'll see her tomorrow and sign off, but not before I see a heart come through from her along with a "Sweet dreams" fuck can she be any more perfect? I reply with "Same to you, goodnight 3" and close my laptop. Needless to say I went to sleep with the biggest cheesiest grin on my face.