Author's Note: Feeling angsty and came up with this. It's probably awful but thanks for reading it anyways.
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Убийца.
The Russian term for murderer.
That's what her captor had carved into her back today. She didn't have to see it to be familiar with the way it felt on her skin. She had wrote it on her wrists with a blade many a time before but not as deep as he was carving it right now. It joined the large collection he had started there the first day of her capture. Some of them were fresher than others but all of them brought pain. The current one was perhaps the most painful but they were all true.
Шлюха, slut.
Лгун, liar.
Яд, poison.
Монстр, monster.
The exact opposite of what she was trying to become but these words were her truth. They were her past, present, and future. There was no escaping the ocean of red that was her ledger. No amount of crime fighting with the Avengers will be enough to redeem her from who she was. She knew this.
Now there was no hiding this fact from anyone else either. There were labels outlining every terrible aspect that she was.
The first ever carving the man had given her first day in captivity stood the most prominent in the middle of her back. It would appear to most to be a simple sequence of numbers - 7337666-627 - only Natasha would know what they really meant. It was the identification code that the Red Room had given her. When converted into letters, it reads, "Red Room, NAV."
Red Room, Natalia Alianova Romanova.
Because no matter how hard she tried to hide behind the persona of Natasha Romanov, Avenger. She would always be Natalia, the ruthless killer. The innocent girl trained to be a deadly woman. The woman responsible for the death of hundreds of innocent lives.
Natalia, the slut.
Natalia, the liar.
Natalia, pure poison.
Natalia, the monster.
There was no redemption. She knew this. Now they would too.
A/N: So, I'm not even sure if that made any sense and any reassuring feedback would be greatly appreciated. In other words, PLEASE REVIEW! Sorry if the Russian is off, I used Google Translate.
I love all of you, Sydney