My Beloved
Okay, so I was just re-reading Breaking Dawn. I just finished the 9th chapter and read the first sentence of the 10th when I just couldn't read anymore because a most fantastic idea had just entered my head. What if Bella had actually accepted to have a baby with Jacob? Maybe she would still stay with Edward or maybe she would sway to just Jacob. I don't know; I haven't made up my mind on that part yet. But I just can't take that Jacob and Bella didn't end up together. I mean, I knew that it would always be Edward and Bella in the series, but I just love Jacob so much. When I read about Jacob and Bella being together, I imagine me and Jacob being together. I just couldn't stand for Jacob to imprint on someone else, especially a baby. I mean, what's the big deal about Renesme? Sure, I'm just crazy jealous, but I think she's just like those forbidden children. Sure, she's really cute and just a baby. Sure, I don't think any unnecessary harm should come to her. But she can't take my man! So, without further ado, here I go with another fanfic about my beloved Jacob Black.
Chapter 1
(Jacob's POV)
Walking towards the leeches' front door I try to compose myself. I mean, am I really going to do this? Am I really going to ask Bella to do something like that? Sure, I'm crazy about her. Sure, I want to be with her. I've fantasized about her for so long. But, Bella deserves more than that. She deserves to be with one man, to have a real life; not bounced back and forth as something almost like a prostitute. I mean, sure I'm not exactly a man. Neither is that blo- Edward. But that thing. That thing is going to tear her apart from the inside out. I need to do this. The blood- Edward is right on this. We need to work together just this once to save her. Not that we haven't worked together before. I sigh. I hope this isn't some ongoing thing that'll turn into a friendship even. I'm not Seth.
A plan quickly forms in my head as I walk back into the leeches' living room to go to Bella. Distantly, I hear the front door close and I guess the bloodsucker has shut the front door. Weak and fragile, there's zombie Bella trying to sit up for us. I can't believe she's trying to act like nothing's wrong. But then I can, that's classic Bella for you. Her eyes light up when she sees me. I don't understand why she's always so happy to see me when apparently she's got it hard for the bloodsucker. She was going to become one of them for him anyway. She married him. She…got pregnant with him. I put a smile on for her.
"Hey Bells," I try to sound nonchalant.
She smiles back, "What did you and Edward talk about?"
"Oh nothing, he's just bringing me up to date," I shrug.
Her smile stays but protectiveness glints in her eyes, "And?"
"And what?" I ask.
"And what do you have to say?" she responds.
"Well," I start, "don't overreact okay but I think you're being a little stupid."
She starts to cry but I see that they're angry tears. Oh great, pregnant people always cry don't they? Then again, Bella always cries when she's angry.
"I thought maybe you'd understand. Why do you want to hurt my little nudger?"
I inwardly cringe. She has a pet name for it?
"No. I don't," I try to make something up fast, "Bells, can't you see? Nudger here is already strong enough to live on its own. Nudger'll be just fine if we get it out of you now, but you won't be fine if we don't. Bella please listen. We're just trying to help you. Plus, maybe Nudger would be more comfortable if it were out of you. You don't have much room left in you and you couldn't possibly nourish it anymore. If you do, you'll die. And don't give me any of that crap that you know you'll die or you're strong enough. If anything bad happens to you, it'll hurt Nudger too."
I use her name for it, trying to convince her. She ponders a moment. Maybe it would be better off outside of her. But no, the leeches better kill the thing as soon as we get it out of Bella's sight. I want to look to see Edward's reaction to that thought, but I know if I look over at him Bella would think we planned this, and to an extent, we sort of did.
Finally, Bella looks over at Carlisle and I already see what's going to happen. She's going to ask him what would be better for the thing because he's on whatever side Esme's on.
"Carlisle," she asks, "what would be better for my baby? Would it be better for him or her to stay inside me and grow more? Or would it be better to do what Jacob said?"
Carlisle seems to think for a moment. This is it. If he just says that it would be better for the thing to be taken out then we've got her.
"If the baby was a purely human baby," Carlisle starts in his doctor tone, "it would be horrible to take the baby out now. The baby would be born immaturely and would most likely die. But, the baby is most definitely not human. It may be part human, but how can we know? We do know that you are getting weaker every hour, and it is true when Jacob said that if you are hurt, the baby is also hurt. With you in this condition it is most likely that we will lose you, and along with you, the baby."
I turn my attention back to Bella, relieved that Carlisle said the right thing. Saying that, he probably convinced Bella that he's actually thinking about the thing.
"So, it would be better for the baby if we took it out now? Are you sure? Rose? What do you think?" Bella looks to Blondie and I have no idea what she'll say.
She seems to consider, looking Bella over, and I think that she comes to the conclusion that if the baby were to be hurt if Bella were hurt, the baby is already hurt. Edward said that all Blondie cares about is the thing.
"Get it out of you. I think Carlisle's right. If you get hurt, the baby will be hurt. If the baby is part vampire, it'll be fine," Blondie says.
YES!! Now all we have to worry about is Blondie getting in the way when we kill the thing.
"Okay, I'll do it. For Nudger," Bella gives a small smile, "Rose, will you stay with me when we do it?"
"Sure Bella," Blondie agrees, and I'm thinking she's going to leave as soon as the thing's out of her.
Blondie goes where the creature goes. We're going to have to find a way of getting Blondie out of the way. Bella looks over at Edward, so I guess it's safe for me to look at him too. He seems a little relieved. Not so much the man at the stake, but it seems as though he's still suffering.
"Me and Jacob are going to have a talk again love," Edward says.
"Why? What do you need to talk about?" Bella asks, a little skeptical.
"Oh don't worry. I just wanted to discuss the treaty," Edward smiles.
Bella's answering smile hits me like a dart. But, I already knew she loves him more. The leech leads me to the same place as before.
"So, that worked well. All we need to do now is to get rid of Blondie."
Edward frowns a little, "It won't be that easy. If the thing is anything like the forbidden children, it may be impossible to kill it. We'll love it too much upon sight. I doubt it though. And we won't be able to kill it right away. Rosalie would murder us. Maybe even Bella. We need to see how it goes. As for getting Rosalie away in time to kill it we'll have to think of something. But Jacob, I think the best way of getting rid of the thing would be to convince Bella that it isn't safe, that she can have other children; safer children."
"What am I supposed to say?" I ask exasperated, "Bella, I was just wondering, since your kid is trying to kill you, why don't you have some kids with me? Oh, and don't worry, you can still be with Edward, we just want you to be happy and have a child?"
Edward's frown grows deeper, "If that's what it takes. But, I think I have a better idea. I'm not going to give Bella up, but, for the time being; maybe I can…get her to hate me. Then you would have your chance."
Hundreds of thoughts swim through my head. It's the chance I've always wanted. To have the bloodsucker out of the way, to have Bella to myself, and to know that she wasn't thinking about him. I would take her anyway, even if she did think about him.
"I thought you were never going to force her into that other choice again," I almost question.
"I'm not. I'm just giving you a little time. I'll come back for her; explain what we did."
I nod. It's a horrible thing for me to do, but I'm going to do it, because I'm selfish. I'm arrogant. That's just the way I am. And I love her.