"Insignificant Hearts" by Luke's Dragon

Disclaimer

*Sigh* If I didn't write this would anyone really believe I owned Digimon? I suppose it's possible since some people are truly dense so I'd better say in big bold letters, I don't own Digimon. Nor do I own any of the song lyrics contained, which are, in the order they appear:

"A Winters Tale" by David Essex

"How You Remind Me" Nickelback

"Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough" Patty Smyth

"If Tears Could Bring You Back" Sons of Midnight

"Yesterday Dreams" by Bonnie Tyler

Author Notes

This is set a few months after my last fic "All I Ever Wanted" but it doesn't matter if you haven't read that, but if you did you'd know that Yamato and Kari are together, as are TK and Davis. Tai isn't with anyone yet but…no I'll not spoil it

The ages are Matt and Tai are both 18 and TK, Davis are 16 and Kari is 15.

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Part I "Light in my Night"

The January snows seemed especially bitter this year, it had snowed for the past three days and showed no sign of letting up, the weathermen said it was the coldest winter for over forty years. The snow and bitter winds were not the only hazards for any brave souls walking the city streets, the roads, still usable were little more than rivers of slush or ice rinks so any cars that decided to make a journey would soak pedestrians with freezing cold mucky water. One such pedestrian walked the streets, lost in his own thoughts the winter night didn't seem so bad. He would have taken his car but had been told by his girlfriend that she didn't want to come to his funeral, so there was no way he was allowed to drive until the roads were better. Yamato Ishida quite liked the winter, especially because there seemed less people around in this weather, sometimes it's good to be alone, I never thought I'd miss being alone, but sometimes it's nice just to have your own company. Anyway I'm sure Tai will want to be sociable when I see him. Tai had recently left his parents house to move into his own apartment, he had pestered Yamato to move in with him ever since. Tai twenty-four seven? No thank you. Much as he liked his best friend, he could be a little too energetic for Yamato's sanity to take. Although Tai's new place was less than a ten-minute walk from Yamato's house he was glad of his leather jacket, it had been a Christmas present from Kari. I wonder if it's to make me drive less, Kari's far more cunning than I'd have ever thought, still I wouldn't change a thing. He frowned, although I would be a little happier if she was six months older. Although neither Kari, Tai or himself cared about the age gap some of their supposed friends had been disgusted about it. Although Yamato didn't care he knew it upset Kari, so after he and Tai had threatened a few people the comments had stopped. They still stare and whisper though, I think that's probably worse. He arrived at Tai's house, drier than he had expected, he knocked at the door only to be greeted by the smell of paint and loud cursing, then being told to come in.

Yamato smiled as he saw the ground zero that was Tai's new living room, plastic sheets had been inexpertly thrown across the room, however they seemed to have more paint on them than the walls or the ceiling, however not as much paint as was all over Tai. Why did he want to decorate by himself? Even when we were kids he was hopeless at art. Tai however seemed less concerned with the mess and grinned from ear to ear at his friend.

"It's starting to look really good isn't it?"

"Yeah I'm such a liar I'm impressed"

"Thanks, I wanted to do it by myself, to make it my house."

"…" My favourite response when I can't think of anything to say. I know it annoys Kari though, she says I should be more open with my feelings.

"But you know Matt, it could be our house"

"Tai how many times are you going to try asking me"

"TK and Davis are moving in"

"I don't want to share a house with loves young dream"

"Well then, wouldn't it be nice to not have to worry when you and Kari want to be alone"

"Do you want me and Kari to be alone, or alone with you?"

"Whatever, anyway I've told her and Kari thinks it's a great idea, so she'll make you say give in before long" And I though Kari was sneaky, I see where she gets it from.

"You…I can't believe you…" I leapt at Tai, throwing some mock punches at him, and wrestling him to the floor somehow I ended up looking into his eyes, he grinned that mischievous, Tai grin and rolled free.

"You know you'd enjoy living with me, you just put on the angsty front"

"Not all of us are naturally cheerful"

"You don't fool me Ishida, inside I know there's a sunny Yamato waiting to get out"

"There's no sunny Yamato" Why would I want to be as cheerful as Tai? It's annoying.

"I've seen you be cheerful around Kari"

"That's different" Anyway I'm cheerful sometimes, usually when I'm on my own and no-one notices. And he's right about Kari of course, but there's no way I'll admit it.

Tai set up an air freshener to try and combat the smell of paint. Might as well try and stop this winter with a candle, this place seems to be paint fume heaven. Tai and Matt watched the TV for a while, apparently it was going to snow for the next week at least.

"Are you still doing your gig tomorrow?"
"I guess, if any of the others can make it, and if anyone turns up"

"Me and Kari will be there" As I left I knew Tai was right he and Kari would always be there for me. He asked me again to move in with him, by this time I knew what my answer would be. But I'll make him wait a little longer.

"I'd like to finish by singing this song, for a very special lady" Although Yamato wasn't keen on love songs, he sung it well. As the final notes died down and the crowd cheered Yamato looked into the crowd, surely enough Tai and Kari were there. As was Davis who had only come to support TK, as Yamato had feared the snow had stopped the band's drummer from making an appearance, so TK had been drafted in to help out.

After the gig had finished the five crammed into Yamato's car to make the journey home, Tai had said they could all stay over at his place for the night. Yamato suspected he wanted to show off his painting skills, but had managed to bite his tongue. I guess with all of us around I'll not be able to spend anytime alone with Kari, that's a shame. Of course knowing Tai they'll be lots of beer so we might be able to get the others out of our way. The roads were quiet, the late hour and bad weather put most drivers off venturing out and only a few taxis were seen. Yamato was glad, despite his protests to the contrary that he hated driving in the snow. If anything was to go wrong Kari and TK could get hurt, not to mention him and Tai, but thankfully the trip was without incident, It'll be a relief when the snow melts and I won't have to worry so much.

Yamato was surprised to see that since yesterday evening Tai had cleaned the house up, and although it still smelt of paint the place was starting to look nice, although Tai seemed to have an attitude of random chaos in terms of organising the place.

"So, who wants beer?" Yamato declined however non-alcoholic choices were confined to tap water or milk, which knowing Tai would be several days old. Do I really want to move in here? Eventually he took a beer, promising himself not to drink too much.

"So was I a good replacement drummer?" He knows that he is…hold on, he's really asking for Davis' opinions not mine. I'm getting good at this sensitive stuff. Sure enough Davis had responded that TK was a great drummer, and the two were now lost in each other's throats. Despite the fact that he loved Kari, Yamato could never bring himself to be so intimate even with his best friends around.

"Hey Tai, do you ever wish you had someone like that?"

"You mean someone to dive down the throat of for saying I was a good drummer?"
"You know what I mean" In all the time I'd know Tai I'd never even heard him talk about wanting any sort of relationship with anyone at all. I'd often wondered why.

"Maybe, but I'd want something like you and Kari have got"

"Have you got anyone in mind?"

"Yes, but it wouldn't work out right now" Ah, so there is someone, but I'd better not press it just yet.

"Matt, could we go somewhere, I want to talk" Kari, I forgot she said something about having something important to talk to me about. Strange she wants us to go some place private though. Yamato and Kari went to the spare bedroom which seemed to also double as a storeroom.

"So, what's up?"

"I've got some bad news"

"What sort of bad news?"

"In a week my father starts a new job on the other side of the country"

"Oh, well I guess you'll be able to see him when he comes back for weekends and stuff"

"Or when he gets back from work, because I've got to go too"

"What? But that means we'll hardly ever be able to see each other"

"I know"

"Couldn't you stay with Tai?" Maybe this is all a bad dream; maybe I'll wake up. No those are real tears in her eyes, and this pain is real, this can't be a dream, even the worst ones don't hurt like this, and there's nothing I can do.

"No, that's why he moved out, because he wouldn't come with us"

"Is there nothing we can do?" No, this can't be the end, not just yet. Please, don't let it be the end

"I wish there was" Kari couldn't hold back her tears any longer, and although Yamato wanted to be strong he too cried as he held her in his arms. Two weeks, In two weeks she'll be out of my life. I've got to find a way to keep her with me. I can't loose her. I won't loose her. I'll find a way Kari. I promise. Before long they fell asleep in each other's arms. Tai came in later and put a quilt over them, so they didn't feel the cold.

"It's the least I can do" he reflected to himself.