Chapter 1
Alone I Break
"Sometimes it takes losing what you hate, to realize you loved it all along."
Naruto woke up and stretched his arms tiredly, letting them fall to lay across warm flesh.The blonde blinked rapidly and sat up, face softening into a smile as he gazed at his lover.
"Sasuke..."He shook the other boy's shoulder.
"Nnnn..Go away dobe.."
Sweatdropping, Naruto got up and slid on his too-big longsleeved black shirt with a red spiral on the back and then slipped on his baggy black pants."Fine, if you're late, don't snap at me when I get home tonight."
"Nnn.."
The blonde walked into the kitchen, got a sip of water, then jogged to the door and slid on his ankle socks and heavy black hiking boots."BYE Sasuke!"
"What?!What time is it?!"
Naruto snickered quietly and slipped out the door, stuffing his tanned hands into his pockets and slouching.At the age of 16, Naruto had grown, yet was still two or three inches shorter than Sasuke.All the cute roundness he carried on his face as a child was gone and now he was slim and lithe, muscles rippling beneath the surface of tanned skin.
Sasuke had let his hair grow out a little longer, and was still the heartthrob of Konoha.Last year during a mission, Sasuke had confessed to the blonde, hesitant and gruff.But Naruto got the point, and returned it full force.After that they were inseperable, though people thought they were only friends.
Naruto turned the corner and paused when he saw Sakura."Hey!!"
Sakura blinked and turned away from Ino, smiling when she saw Naruto.The pink haired girl had warmed up to Naruto, not in a way as any more than friends, but all the same, Naruto was content with the relationship they had.
"Good morning Sakura-chan."He greeted, flashing his trademark grin.
"Where's Sasuke?"Ino asked, glancing around with hungry eyes.
The other blonde's eye twitched ever so slightly but he shrugged,"He's still asleep."
"Eh?!He'll be late!We have to go!"
"What?We?"
Sakura pouted,"Ino and him have a mission together.It's not fair..Sasuke kun is mine..Ino pig."
"Big forehead!It'll be like our honey moon."The blonde girl was starry-eyed and drooling.
Naruto snorted in disgust, tuning Ino's rants out as he seethed.-Why didn't Sasuke tell me?Was he afraid I'd be mad?Or maybe..he likes Ino..-The Kyuubi inside him growled lowly, and for once Naruto had to agree with him.
"Hm, Sasuke didn't tell me about that."He blinked.
Ino scowled,"Just because he's your 'friend' doesn't mean you have to know everything about him.I'm surprised he even talks to you, you're such a slob."
"Ino.."Sakura sighed.
"What?He is!"
Naruto flashed them another smile, though now strained as he turned away and waved over his shoulder,"Tell Sasuke I said bye."
"Yeah ri-"Sakura slapped a hand over Ino's mouth."We will Naruto."
When out of earshot, Naruto started cussing and people shied from him in alarm.Not that the Kyubi holder cared, they also went out of their way to keep a good distance away from him.
"Fucking bastard!Doesn't tell me anything!He doesn't care!And now he's going with that fucking bitch on a mission..."He slumped and sighed."Why do I have the feeling that he's forgotten me?"
Naruto turned the corner and walked into the ramen stand."I'm here old man."
"And on time, amazing."The man replied, busily stirring a pot.
The blonde tied an apron around his waist and began frying chicken and rice.
"A bowl of pork ramen, please."
"Comin' up.."Naruto muttered, stepping past his employer to scoop ramen from the pot and into a glass bowl.He turned to the counter and nearly dropped the ramen."Kakashi!Iruka?!"
Iruka flushed and tried to scoot away from Kakashi.Kakashi smiled, not looking away from Naruto's face and slung an arm around Iruka's shoulder to keep him in place.
"We decided to go out and eat."
Naruto snickered, eyeing his adopted father Iruka,"A date?"
"Yep"
"NO ITS NOT!"Iruka cried.
"It's ok Iruka sama.Here, look, I'll give you one set of chopsticks so you guys can share."He smirked.
"Naruto--"Iruka growled.
"Thankyou Naruto."Kakashi smiled and shoved a chopstick-full of noodles in his boyfriend's mouth.
Turning back to the pot, he continued his plots of revenge on his lover.-No sex for a week!I won't cook for him!HE will be the one to clean the house!I--His eyes widened in horror."IM THE WOMAN!"He shouted aloud in his shock.
Kakashi choked and Iruka stared at him.Naruto hurriedly glanced over his shoulder at them and flashed a grin, waving his hand,"I was just joking.Just..joking..."He flushed and went back to chopping up vegetables.-Bastard!He never does anything!He doesn't even act..like he wants this relationship to work..-
He began chopping violently-Damnit!Why do I put up with him!I should go and confront him!-He nodded viciously in agreement with himself-And tell him JUST HOW MUCH OF A --He yelped as the knife came down on his finger.
He took deep breaths to calm himself and stared down at the blood pooling beneath his almost severed finger.-Just a couple minutes and it'll be healed.-
"Naruto, more ramen please?"Kakashi called sweetly.
"Uh..yeah..one second.."He touched the healed wound and then cleaned the blood up with a dish towel before sauntering over the pot and getting more ramen for his former senseis.
"Naruto."
The blonde jumped and looked towards the other corner of the stand, seeing a bored looking Uchiha sitting on a stool."I have to go away for a day.I'll be back sometime tomorrow."
Naruto hid his growl and tilted his head inquisitively,"Where ya goin'?"
Sasuke stood,"Like I said, be back tomorrow."
Naruto sighed and started to turn away, but a pale hand on his arm stopped him.Sasuke leaned forward and quickly kissed his cheek before wandering off down the road.The blonde blushed and then looked up, seeing Iruka and Kakashi staring in shock.
"Uh.....................Enjoy your ramen."Naruto coughed and quickly returned to the other counter, chopping.-Crap crap crap...He's never..kissed me in public before..-He smiled slightly and stopped, staring down at the cutting board and mutilated vegetable parts.-Maybe I'm just overreacting..-
"SASUKE-CHHAANN"Ino cheered as they paraded past the ramen stand, the blonde girl latched onto Sasuke's arm and yanking him towards Konoha's gates.
Naruto glared icily and met Sasuke's eyes.The dark haired boy's eyes swam with emotion and he actually looked concerned, but Ino dragged him away.
-Bastard Bastard BASTARD!-Naruto fumed.
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The stoic blonde wandered the streets aimlessly, homocidal thoughts drifting through his head.-Haha, They can go in a coffin together, since they love eachother so much!-
"Watch where you're going, demon."A burly villager growled, slamming his shoulder into Naruto's before continuing on his way.
Naruto sighed in the growing darkness and leaned against a building wall."He always is wanted.No matter where he goes.Either for his looks, skills, heritage, or brains.And no matter where I go, Im unwanted.We're complete opposites!"He threw his hands up,"whoever said opposites attract maybe was right, but love?!An actual RELATIONSHIP??What about THAT?Does he just want me for the sex??"
The odds seemed in favour of that revalation."How pathetic can I get...Im fucking my rival...Working at a ramen stand when Im susposed to be out on missions DOING something..And everyone still hates me.What life do I have here in Konoha?"
"If you don't have a life, fox demon, git outta here!"A filthy bum crowed from his pile of rags.
Naruto sweatdropped and eyed him,"Yeah?Where would I go?"
The man muttered incoherantly, scratched his filthy head, and promptly continued snoring.
"Right...."The blonde ninja continued his wandering with a sigh.He fumbled in the large pocket of his pants and pulled out his portable cd player.Slipping on the headphones, he quickly glanced around then pushed play, bobbing his sun kissed head to the angry growling of Korn.
'All the shit I seem to take, all alone I seem to break.I have done the best I can, does this make me not a man?'
He sang softly to the lyrics and hunched his shoulders, staring down at the ground that he could only see with the help of the Kyubi inside of him, who's eyes could see in the dark.-I don't know what to do...-
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Naruto slid the keys into the lock and twisted them sharply to the left, opening the door and jerking the keys free with a sigh as the door clicked shut behind him.
He slipped off his black hiking boots then stared ahead at the darkness and silence of his apartment."Why does this seem so familiar?.."He muttered sarcastically and padded into the kitchen.
Opening the fridge, Naruto winced slightly at the bright light that alluminated the darkened house.His dark blue eyes scanned the fridge for any leftovers, because he knew there was no ramen left.
"Nothing..right..I wasn't hungry anyways."He slammed the fridge shut and shuffled into the bedroom.
The sheets were still ruffled and wrinkled from the previous night.Sasuke never did bother to make the bed, or eat before leaving.It just seemed like a daily routine, receiving missions from the Hokage, completing them, coming to Naruto apartment.A round of sex(or two), sleeping or leaving, then waking up in the morning for some more sex.
"That's our relationship.."Naruto muttered, not bothering to remove his clothes as he slid beneath the cool sheets.He pulled his sweatshirt sleeves over his fingertips, shivering a little at the tempature of the apartment, and closed his eyes.
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The blonde jerked awake to the sound of footsteps.Naruto narrowed his eyes and reached beneath his pillow, hand gripping the handle of his kunai.-Who the hell?..-
He glanced at the clock and blinked in shock.-6:00 AM?!-Naruto stood and crept to his bedroom door, pushing it open and slipping into the hall.
"S-sasuke?!"
Sasuke blinked blearily and sway a little, squinting at Naruto,"Wha-...whattcha doin' in my house?"
"Wha?.."Naruto took a step back when he saw Ino stumble into Sasuke, shutting the door behind herself.She giggled and placed a sloppy kiss on his cheek.
"Sasssukkee..where's za bedroooooom?"She stumbled slightly then raised her head, glaring at Naruto."Whazze doin' here sasuke?"
"This is my house.What the fuck are you doing here?What did you do to Sasuke??"Naruto demanded, blue eyes tinted with red.
"We hadda few drinks.W-..we're gunna finally get married, right 'suke?"
Sasuke seemed very dazed as he put a hand to his head and leaned against the kitchen counter.
Naruto squeezed his eyes shut, trying to hold back tears."Get out."
"You can't kick 's out!'s 'suke's house!"Ino screamed, leaning farther into Sasuke.
"GET.OUT."Naruto bared his fangs and took a step forward, a reddish orange chakra clawing at the air surrounding him.
"Monster!"Ino screamed.
"N-..naruto?"Sasuke rubbed his forehead."What am I..why does my head hurt so damned much?"
"IM GOING TO KILL YOU!"Naruto growled and leapt forward.
Ino cried hysterically and fumbled with the doorknob, finally getting it open.She ran out, leaving Sasuke behind to face the blonde nin's wrath.
Naruto's claw dug into Sasuke's skin as he pinned him against the wall.
"What the hells wrong with you?!"He screamed at Sasuke, tears running from his red eyes."I gave you everything!I loved you!Y-you..."He released Sasuke with one hand to punch the wall.
"Naruto I-"Sasuke eyes were wide.
"GET OUT!Don't come near me again!I hate you!"Naruto lifted Sasuke and threw him out the door.He didn't bother to grab the knob but instead raked his claws across the door, slamming it.
The blonde hugged himself desperately, claws drawing blood from his shoulders as he slid down the door to the floor."Why..why me..why does everything happen to me.."
The fox inside him was making strange keening sounds, and Naruto realized there was a great pain in his chest..right where his heart was..His now normal fingers touched his chest and he gave a dry sob."I loved him.."
Someone pounded on the door behind him and Naruto abruptly stopped sobbing, stopped breathing, and waited.
"N-naruto...Please..let me in.."Sasuke shouted into the door.
"Go away..just go away.."Naruto pressed his forehead into his knees and tried to contain the Kyubi's chakra as it flared with renewed anger.
"NARUTO!"
The blonde ignored Sasuke's voice and smiled as his eyes drifted shut, hoping for death, and realized with regret that it was just all the exhaustion and pain finally coming to take him away.Then darkness consumed his mind.
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Sasuke stood outside, staring at the door to his lover's apartment.-Gods, what have I done?..-
"Naruto!Naruto!!"He leaned against the door, knocking furiously.
There was no reply.No whiskered grin and bear hug.No Naruto opening the door with a shout and love in his deep blue eyes.Just..nothing..
"Naruto..please.."Sasuke fell to his knees, palms and forehead pressed against the door as if he could push it open."I love you too..."Tears ran down his cheeks to hit the doorstop.
And then something else began to mingle with the tears on his face.The raven haired nin looked up in amazement, holding out his hands.Snow drifted down to melt on his pale flesh.
He closed his fist and brought it to his forehead, body wracked with sobs.It seemed as though the heavens cried with him.-I should have told him..why did I push him away?Please Naruto..please forgive me..-
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First Chapter is done..thankgod..took me a while;
Yesyes, Im sorry to those Naruto/Sasuke lovers.I already have an idea with what I'll continue the story..and it probably won't be Naruto/Sasuke.