The world is indeed a very boring place. In this boring world, I stumble upon you. A maiden which can lighten up even the darkest of the soul. I wish to have you to myself. But you are one which can never be obtained. No matter how hard I try, you will elude me with such precision. You never hesitate to push me away.
With my life, I made a bet. But with ease you forsake me. How I wish for you to be mine.
I love the way you play the erhu, and I love the tea that you brew for me. I love everything about you.
Never in my life have I wished to do something for someone, but you are the first and only one. For you I shall give my entire life.
I am a lonely soul, wandering in this boring world, until the day I meet you. After knowing you, the world seems so wonderful. I who had no attachment to life will never have any regret, but because I meet you, I feel that it is a shame to die, to leave you in this world, without having you. I want your love, a piece of your heart. Where would you place me in your heart? Would I ever make it in there?
Kou Shuurei, the woman who I want with my whole being.
As this would be the last time I see you, I want to feel your love. Your long beautiful hair, swinging with your every stride. Your lovely little face, full of life and determination. Your cute little voice nagging with concern.
In my mind, I could see you smiling at me sincerely as I said the word 'I love you'. You would look me deep into my eyes gauging my sincerity.
I pull you close to me, into my warm embrace. I tilt your head so that I can capture your lips in a sincere kiss. Nothing like the forceful kiss in the past. Showing you my love, my sincerity. Never before had I been so honest with anyone but you.
The kiss is barely enough. What I want is not just you physically but your heart and your soul. I seek for more than just this physical connection. I want a proof of your acceptance. When you kiss me back, I am so relieve. To know that you also hold me in your heart, it makes me feel something I had never felt before.
Your kiss is just like you, filled with so many wonderful emotions. As kisses were being exchange, I seek for your warmth. I want to feel you more and more. To have you more and more.
But there is nothing more. Even in my imagination, I cannot get more than the taste of your lips. Beyond that, is something that even I can't imagine. The feel of your warmth heart and body. The taste of your love and acceptance.
How I wish I could have you.
During the moonless night like today, it would be wonderful to have you with me, as I thread the road between this realm and the next.
My lovely Shuurei.