A/N I do not own these character's S.M. does not me.

"Right there, yes!" I herd my self say as he went deeper. He knew just how to get a reaction from me. He knew every spot every area on my body. "Fuck! Edward, baby harder. I need it harder!" I yelled as he drilled into me. I knew that we were making to much noise but I didn't care. We were too rapped up in each other. "Bella, god our so tight, your so beautiful." I herd him say as he kissed me picking up his pace. We had been going at it for so long I lost track of time. I could feel myself getting closer to my release. "Come with me, Edward." I said kissing him deeper. We came together.

After a while of us just lying in my bed, me on his stomach. While he played with my hair, I had to say something. "Edward, we have to talk." I herd him sigh as I lifted my head to look at him. "What is it, because whenever people say we need to talk its never good?" I looked at him then looked down biting my bottom lip. "I don't know if I can do this?" he looked at me for a long time, "great so you decide to tell me after sex? What the hell Bella, what did you want you last fill of me. Then you're going to move on? Who is he? Alec? Mike? Jacob?" I pulled the cover to wrap around me. "How could you say something like that, you know that I love you. You also know that I have no type of romantic feelings for any of them. Edward I have loved you for so long, to long. But this is not what I wanted." He looked at me for a long time.

"What do you mean, not what you wanted? We always have so much fun together, you're my best friend. We both no the sex is great. I love you and you love me. So what part didn't you want?" He said looking like he was beginning to become mad or worried. I sighed "Edward you know what I mean. I can't, no wait I won't share you. Edward it kills me to sit there in front of her in front of most of your friends. It kills me to know you go home, to her every night. It kills me to pretend that you're not mine. I can't live in secret, I can't live like this. Cause at the end of the day you r not mine Edward, you're hers. You're engaged to her, for all I know you still fuck her. You still kiss her. I don't like it cause's me pain. I love you, and yeah you say you love me. I can't do this to myself Edward. I have been hurt to many times. I don't want to be the other woman, I want to be you only woman. I can't put myself in this position. You say you love me, but I don know if that's enough anymore."

He didn't say anything he just got up and started to get dressed. "What are you doing?" I asked watching him put his pants on. "I'm helping you; you said this cause's you pain. Well I'm helping you out. Your not in this position anymore." I looked at him tears forming in my eyes. "Edward, what do you mean, your helping me? Where are you going?" He was dressed now he looked mad, sad, irritated I didn't know for sure. "I'm leaving; I'm going home to my fiancé. Your off the hook, you can clear your conches. I told you why this is the way it is. I'm sorry if this is all I can give right now." I looked down and then back up "Wait so you're breaking up with me?" I said looking back at him. He smiled slightly "For us to break up we would have had to be together. I'm ending what ever this is."

He then walked out; he was going back to her. I sat there for at least two hours crying when Alice came into my room. "Bella, what happened? Did Edward do something?" I couldn't answer her though I just couldn't tell her what happened between me and her brother. I loved him so much, but I didn't want to be the affair. I wasn't raised to mess-up relationship, even if the fiancé was an evil, plastic sl-t. I couldn't believe how this night turned out. I didn't want to think about it but Edward was everywhere. I had a class tomorrow and I didn't know if I would be up to it to go. I couldn't think straight. I ran though everything that happened. I still couldn't believe that the love of my life. That Edward Cullen was going to Tanya. Tanya wasn't right for him, she was to plastic and fake, everything on her body had been nipped and tucked by plastic surgeons. I couldn't understand why he had even every wanted to be with her. I mean sure she was pretty once you first saw her. But when you really look at her you can see how fake she is. Plus she was a real bitch. I couldn't comprehend why the hell he was still even with her, but I knew why. I just was selfish. Her dad was going to write him a letter of recommendation to a big fancy hospital in LA. He was so close to becoming a doctor he wanted that recommendation. And of course daddy wanted his little girl happy, with a successful man. So Edward was staying with her longer then necessary. So you may ask why the hell are they engaged well lets see it's because the idiot had proposed when he was drunk. I still don't know that whole story. What the hell was that about? I knew his reasons, that didn't mean I had to like them. I loved him; I hated him for what he was putting me through.

I fell asleep with dried tears on my face; I needed to talk to Alice tomorrow. I just needed time first. I just needed to be alone.

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