This is request fic and I must say it's a rather good idea! I wish she would write it so I could see how it goes. I'm not the greatest Hiei/kuwa fan but you send me a request I will write it eventually.

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It was Friday night, and like every Friday around one in the morning Kuwabara was getting re-dressed smelling of sweat and sex. Hiei watched him from his bed at Genkai's shrine red eyes peering at him. The sex had started about four months ago, neither of the two knew why, but it had started and a ritual of rough sex had begun. Hiei watched Kuwabara tug the shirt on his body covering the love bites along his stomach and chest. Hiei caught Kuwabara's glance and gave him a smirk. Kuwabara ignored it looking down for his shoes. It was as he was tying his shoes when Kuwabara spoke.

This was a surprise for the two never shared a conversation after their sex. They never spoke. Kuwabara would come over around ten at night on Fridays and they would continue their act without words except for loud lust filled moans every now and then. So when Kuwabara spoke, voice soft in the still of the night it was a great surprise.

"Hiei…what are we doing? What does this all mean? What…what am I to you?"

Hiei smirked answering haughtily, "You are something sweet. Something to appease my sex drive; it's just sex human, nothing more. It will never be anything more then that."

Something crossed Kuwabara's eyes and he nodded, "J-Just had to make sure."

Hiei smirked and rolled over knowing Kuwabara would leave like he always did. However Kuwabara surprised Hiei once more by crawling back into bed. Hiei glanced at him and Kuwabara yawned, "I need a little rest Hiei. Tonight was a little rougher, I'll leave about four." He was setting the alarm on his wristwatch, and without another word rest his head on a pillow. Hiei turned back around, "Do what you want just make sure you're gone. I don't want Yukina or that old hag to see you're here."

"…Of course Hiei. I've never been caught before."

Hiei snorted and closed his eyes drifting into sleep.

But this time he had a dream. He saw Kuwabara in his dreams smiling and talking with him. He saw the sex clearly in his mind, but he saw more. Something was wrong with Kuwabara his face was twisted up in pain, and he was crying in his room. He held a gun and put it to his mouth, but then would drop it after long agonizing minutes. He'd put the gun in a shoebox and then under his bed. He half sobbed some words Hiei couldn't make out, and then dried his tears before going to bed. The dream changed and Kuwabara was walking down the shrine steps looking around. He paused at the corner and Kuwabara checked for cars. He was crossing the street when a motorcycle appeared out of nowhere. A man and a woman where on the bike the woman tilting a beer can into the man's mouth.

Kuwabara didn't see it coming, and by the time he did, it was too late.

He was struck and sent sprawling to the ground the motorcycle not even pausing. He hit his head it cracking open as easy as an egg. Blood filled the whites of his eyes, and in one shuddering breath he was slipping away his soul beginning to leave his battered shell.

Then the phone rang waking Hiei. Hiei stretched and glanced behind him seeing Kuwabara was gone like he said. He checked the time seeing it was six in the morning. He groaned and was tempted to ignore it, but the dream had actually disturbed him, and somewhere deep down he hoped it was Kuwabara calling him telling him he forgot his jacket, which he did sometimes.

Hiei sat up picking up the phone, "Hello?"

A soft sound, that sounded like sharp muffled gasps answered him. Hiei's stomach clenched, "Who is this?"

"Hiei…something…Hiei…"

The voice was Yusuke's and he was clearly crying.

"Yusuke? What is it? What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Kuwabara…was…was walking…I-I don't know when…or why he was out so late…but some…something hit him. They…they are saying it wa-was a motorcycle…and-and…his head is all cracked up and his chest caved in. He-Hiei…get down to the hospital!! Bring Yukina and, these do-doctors can't save him…but…but she can save him! I know she can-Hiei please hurry!!"

Hiei was frozen and slowly hung up the phone. The dream came back full force, and Hiei was in autopilot all the way to the hospital. Yukina rushed to the doctor's but no amount of coaxing would let her inside. Yusuke was a mess crying and even had a trashcan near him. Kurama was rubbing his back eyes wide, and skin pale.

Yukina came to Hiei sobbing, "Fi…First Genkai-san dies and leaves me the shrine…and then…then poor Kuwabara loses Shizuru-"

Hiei blinked, "What? Shizuru's dead?"

Everyone was looking at him now. Yukina wiped her eyes, "Yes…She died two weeks ago…he told all of us…didn't he tell you?" Hiei shook his head blinking dully letting the shock slide off him. Kuwabara's personal life never mattered before to him, and it shouldn't change now. "No…no he didn't. But we never got along much did we?" After that harsh statement from Hiei, a doctor came out of Kuwabara's room, holding a chart. He looked around and cleared his throat. "Where is next of kin?" Yusuke rose wiping his mouth wide eyes staring at the doctor. "He has no family. We're his friends, we're the closest he has!"

The doctor nodded uncomfortably, "His suffering is over. He was struck down around four. The head trauma gave him internal decapitation. This means his brain and neck bone were separated from his spine. He must have had a fighting spirit to survive that…his ribs were shattered and his lungs filled with blood. He has just passed on, time of death 7:01 am, Saturday. I'm sorry but…he would have been completely brain dead if he had lived…I can tell he was a fighter. Maybe his passing was a blessing." He left the group alone telling them to stay there while they did a few more procedures

Hiei didn't listen.

He vanished within a flash beating the doctor to the room and locking the door. He saw a single bed, where Kuwabara lay. Blood was everywhere from where they had tried to save him by opening his chest to try to pump the blood out of his lungs. Kuwabara was a gray color, blue patches all around his skin. Kuwabara's hair no longer was gelled up but fell in loose spirally curls. Hiei could hear the doctor now fumbling for keys trying to open the door. Hiei ignored it and approached Kuwabara staring at the blood filled eyes. The blood was leaking from his tear ducts, trailing down his cheeks leaving puddles on his neck.

Hiei reached out and closed his eyes. Looking at his chest he saw that all evidence of Hiei's bites from their event from last night had been chopped away. Hiei swallowed hard quickly left and appeared in the lobby just as the doctor managed to unlock the room. A nurse was talking to the group and when he rejoined them he got to hear her words.

"There was evidence of sexual intercourse. Do you know if he was a homosexual?" A nurse asked the group staring in surprise. Yusuke shook his head, "No…he liked woman! Are you saying someone raped him?!" The nurse shook her head, "We are uncertain. But we found tearing…and since you are the closest to family we need your permission to-" Yusuke threw up again. "You-You're saying someone raped my…my best friend…someone I love as a brother…and then killed him? They…they did all that to Kuwabara…MY fucXing brother? Is that what you think?!" The nurse looked down at him whispering, "We can do the rape kit…and call the police…"

Hiei didn't stay anymore feeling increasingly uncomfortable. Kuwabara had not been raped but been with him…but Hiei had been too rough. He felt ashamed for that…he felt shame for a lot of things. But right now he was too confused to think right. He left heading back for the shrine, and eventually made his way into his room. The first thing he noticed was Kuwabara's jacket in the corner of the room. He had left it after all. Hiei picked it up, quickly sitting down feeling dizzy. He held the jacket and pulled it to him catching the scent.

It smelled of Kuwabara. The whole room smelled of Kuwabara. Hiei recalled some of his last words to Kuwabara. He had referred to him as something sweet…something just to have sex with to make his day better. He had spoken nothing of feelings or any other thing that could go along with them. He suddenly knew that his dream was real and finally whispered, "Oh God…I was killing him. He wanted to kill himself."

Hiei could see things he never saw before. Soft touches, gentle smiles, hints of complements, things Hiei had never bothered or acknowledged. Kuwabara loved Hiei, and had wanted Hiei to know and to respond. That's why he had asked him last night what he thought of him…why he desperately wanted to know what they were doing.

Hiei bent his head in shame realizing he had ruined a person's life and emotional state of being. Hiei was tormented when he was younger and he had just done the same thing to someone who he fought alongside with him. "No…Kuwabara…don't be dead…I-I…forgive me Kazuma!" For the first time in Hiei's existence he suddenly felt this terrible guilt…this pain.

This loss.

"Kuwabara…oh God did I love you?"

"Bingo you dick."

Hiei jerked his head up and saw this man standing in his room. He had brown hair and green eyes, and wore all black. He was smoking, and his face was scruffy. He had a scowl on his face and held a bag over his shoulder, red glowing string spilling out of it.

"Who…who are you?" Hiei growled standing.

The man waved his hand Hiei could no longer move. "Some call me cupid, but I like to refer to myself as the messenger of the heart. The one who ties people together…and you were connected to the most loving honest person ever…fuXking prick." The man flicked his cigarette butt at Hiei who could only growl in protest.

The man approached him, "You may call me Kay. It is my proper name, though no one seems to know it. I am the one who ties strings to the fingers or destined lovers. Why you two were destined I will never know! You are a great fool you lost someone who would love you for everything you are. And you wasted a gift."

Hiei was suddenly aware of tears dripping off his cheeks, loud tear gems clanking on the floor. He had never felt so alone and miserable in his life.

Kay walked over to him eyes softening. "But I know your case is special. You never knew proper love and I pity you. I am going to give you a chance to redeem yourself and save Kuwabara. But don't think I'm doing this for you. I'm doing it for Kuwabara," Kay sat down on the bed waving his hand, causing Hiei to spin around. He looked at Hiei and continued, "He has lost everything. Everything Hiei. You never bothered to know his past so I will tell you now. His parents were murdered and Kuwabara and Shizuru were sent here to live with their uncle. Their uncle beat, and raped Kuwabara over, and over, and over for three years. He was 9 when it started. His sister discovered this secret and she managed to save his brother. Kuwabara went through a year of therapy and got, "better," but you can never recover from that. Oh another thing, he was in love with you the first moment he saw you. And those feelings were driving him insane…when you first started your lovemaking he bought a gun. And every Friday night he places it to his lips and thinks of pulling the trigger. It has gotten worse since his sister died. He started to cut himself…and not that pussy across the wrists ting, no he slit straight down his arm starting from the wrist. The best way of killing yourself in that manner. However he has been unable to make the cuts deep enough thinking…maybe just maybe you loved him."

Kay rose, "And you do…but you're too selfish to admit it. And you say it now but it's too late. He's dead. I listened, and I watched…as he asked you what he was to you. What these nights meant to you. And you called it, 'something sweet'? If you had said some more words after that, words of love it would have been rather kind…but no. You had to speak of lust, and primal urges." Kay slapped Hiei, startling the shorter demon. "That was disgusting. Absolutely disgusting."

Kay pulled out another cigarette lighting it and placing it in his lips. "But," he sighed, "I said you can redeem yourself. Alright…now it took two hours for his life to end. So I'm going to rewind time and give you two Fridays. That means two weeks to prevent this incident and confess your love…but if you take this for granted he will die again. And I will make sue you see every moment of it." Kay blew some smoke in Hiei's face, "I'll be checking in on you to make sure you're not screwing up. Now…get off your asX and fix things. I want you two to be in love NOT in lust."

Kay mumbled some more insults and with a snap of his fingers Hiei felt dizzy and blacked out eyes shutting.

Hiei was shaken and when he opened his eyes he saw Kuwabara before him. Kuwabara battered and bruised, and just behind him was Kurama and Yusuke. Hiei recognized this scene. Two weeks ago they had been on a mission fighting a demon who devoured the souls of the dead. He stared up at Kuwabara who sighed with relief. "Jesus shrimp we defeat the guy and you pass out! What happened? Did he get to you of some-" Hiei pulled himself up and threw his arms around Kuwabara shocking the whole group.

"Thank God," Hiei whispered eyes wide. Kuwabara held Hiei, gently trying to push him off but Hiei refused to budge. Hiei was lifted up off the ground safe in Kuwabara's arms. Kuwabara was flushed and gave Yusuke a shrug. Kurama whispered something about Hiei hitting his head. The three decided to carry on Kuwabara holding Hiei in his arms, the smaller man's arms wrapped securely around his neck.

They found a place to hide while Kurama and Yusuke went off to go find some herbs to "clear," Hiei's head. As soon as they were gone Hiei pushed Kuwabara against the ground and kissed him deeply. Kuwabara was shocked trembling beneath Hiei who began to trail his lips down his throat. "Hiei!" Kuwabara hissed, "Stop! Y-You hit your head! You don't know what you're doing!" Kuwabara managed to throw Hiei off and held him.

Hiei looked at Kuwabara seeing the disbelief and confusion. He cursed himself this was too fast. Kuwabara wouldn't understand what was going on so Hiei took a breath. He himself didn't understand if everything had been a dream…but this seemed too familiar for it to be false. He swallowed a lump in his throat and pressed a head to Kuwabara's chest.

"Come over," Hiei whispered.

"Hiei…I-it's only Monday," Kuwabara sputtered trembling.

Hiei touched his arms gently, "Come over," he insisted.

"…Okay," Kuwabara whispered still trembling.

Hiei closed his eyes tight. He had to make this right, especially after all he'd seen, and all he had been told. He had to make everything right. Hiei didn't know how to love but he knew if he tried he'd be able to figure it out along the way. Kuwabara was who he was connected to, and after finding that all, surely that meant Kuwabara was worth it.

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End of chap one. Hope you like this and stick with me.