I swear inspiration hits you at the strangest times. It's never when you want it. I had to write half of this in the margins on my psychology notes so I wouldn't forget. All because I happened to see three random words in my notes, near the top of the page: Who. Near the middle: I am. Now how does that happen? I change the order and got Who am I then suddenly this popped into my head. So here it is...let me know what you think.
Who Am I?
Naruto's POV
Who am I?
I've been hiding behind this mask for so long, I think I'm beginning to forget who I really am. It's like the real me is just a dream now, because I'll always become what people want me to be.
Nobody wants me to be who I am, that would scare them. If I was smart, if I was a good ninja, if I was capable, it would scare them. They already hate me, I don't want them to fear me too. If people want me to be a loud idiot with no common sense then I'll hide behind my mask and be just that. I'll make jokes to hide my irritation. I'll pull pranks to keep them from looking too deep. I'll smile my biggest smile so they won't see my pain, my suffering, and my loneliness.
Who am I?
Everyone can tell you who they think I am. I'm a loudmouth who never shuts up, but really, I don't like to talk much. If I could I would be quiet and enjoy the silence. I envy Sasuke, he never has to talk.
Supposedly I love ramen. It's the food of the gods. Yeah, right...I wish I could say the stuff was even remotely pleasant tasting. I cherish the times when Iruka-sensei makes me eat something other than the unhealthy meal I pretend to love so much.
People think I want to be Hokage. It's my dream! Who am I kidding? Nobody would ever accept the Kyuubi jinchuuriki as their leader. Besides, why would I want the position anyway? This village hates me. Not to mention the amount of paperwork I would have to do. I'd never get out of the village! If I could I would leave and never come back...
Everyone thinks I'm an idiot with no ninja skills. Not true. I must have some ninja ability if I've managed to stay alive so long, although I'm not sure why I try anymore. If they all think I have no skills then they can keep hoping that I'll die while on a mission. This small hope of theirs keeps them from trying to kill me themselves.
Who am I?
I've become what I need to be in order to survive. I am not me. I am what you want me to be. I want to be me, but I'll never be able to. No matter where I go, no matter how far I run, there will always be the vast majority of people that hate me. I will always have to hide behind this mask I hate so much.
A/N: I know kinda depressing. But a lot of my stuff is, I'm trying to work on that a little. Anyway, let me know what you think. I'm thinking of writing one similar to this about Sasuke. What do you think? Should I?
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