A/N: A big thank you goes to my Beat MissCrys. She does a lot even though she is going through a lot and even though she has her own stories to update she still makes time to read over mine. So thank you very much Crystal for everything that you do.

Summary: This story will contain references to suicide. No, it will not be any of the team but it's someone from Emily's past.

Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds even though I have asked many times if I could at least borrow the cast for a day or two.

Emily Prentiss was at work when she got the phone call. She could not believe what she was hearing. She sat as still as could be while she listened to the person on the other end of the phone. As soon as the person was done speaking Emily hung up without even saying another word. The color had all gone out of her face.

Emily stood up on shaky legs and walked away from her desk up to Aaron Hotchner's office. She was not even sure how she got there without falling over or breaking down but she did. She held herself together the whole time. She knocked on his door and then walked in.

"I need to go." Emily said.

Hotch just looked at her with a raised eyebrow. "Is everything alright?"

Emily just shook her head and repeated "I need to go."

With that Emily turned around and walked out of his office and down the steps. She did not even go back to her desk for her jacket, ready bag or her purse. She just needed to get out of the BAU and the building before she lost it. She wasn't aware of Morgan and Reid standing up when they saw her walk by them without a word. She wasn't aware when Hotch came out of his office and down the steps. She just kept on walking. Once she was on the elevator she hit the button for the lobby floor. She didn't even want her car. She just needed to walk.

Once Emily got off of the elevator and then out of the building she let the tears start to follow. She didn't pay any attention to anyone who was walking by her. She wasn't even aware of the fact that it was raining. She just walked and walked. Not caring that she was freezing because of the rain. Not caring that if she was to look at a clock some where she would see that four hours as has passed since she left work. She did not care about anything right now because she felt as if her heart had been ripped out of her chest.

Hotch stood up and walked out of his office after Prentiss came in and told him that she needed to go. He knew that something was up because she was as pale as a ghost. But instead of answering his question she had just said that she had to go again. He watched in concern as she walked out of the bullpen and didn't even stop to get her coat or anything.

As soon as Emily was in the elevator Hotch walked over to her desk which was in between Reid's and Morgan's. He was hoping that maybe just maybe they knew what was wrong with her. He hoped that they did because something was seriously wrong and if he didn't know what it was then he couldn't help her.

"Morgan, Reid do either of you know what is wrong with Prentiss?" Hotch asked.

Morgan and Reid but shook their heads also watching where they just saw Prentiss disappear to.

"She had a phone call and during the phone call she went pale but didn't say one word to the person on the end of the phone after she answered it. She just sat there listening and then after hanging up she went up to your office and then left." Reid stated.

Hotch nodded and frowned. He walked back up to his office and did some work. A couple hours later he looked out of his window and noticed that she still was not back. He put his pen down and picked up his phone and tried calling her cell phone. It just rang and rang with no answer. He started to wonder if she even had it with her. He got up from his desk and walked out of his office and back down towards her desk.

"Have either of you heard from Prentiss?" Hotch asked.

Morgan shook his head and said "I've tried calling her cell phone but no answer. I'm really starting to getting worried Hotch. She didn't look well at all."

Hotch nodded his head. "I know I have tried calling her too."

Hotch turned around and started to head towards his office but stopped when Elizabeth Prentiss came running into the bullpen of the BAU.

"Aaron, please tell me you know where Emily is. I need to find her and find her now." Elizabeth said.

Hotch just looked at her and the said "She left here four hours ago and was very pale. She was not herself at all."

Elizabeth paled a little at this and Hotch took a step forward and said "What's going on Ambassador Prentiss?"

Elizabeth shook her head and said "A friend of Emily's committed suicide. I just found out about thirty minutes ago and I dropped everything to rush here. Aaron I need to find her. She was really close to this guy and he helped her through some very hard times."

Hotch gasped and then groaned and looked around and yelled "Dave I need you out here."

Hotch could tell that it was taking everything Ambassador Prentiss had not to break down as Morgan, Reid, and Dave who came running out of his office and down the steps came over to them.

"Morgan you call Garcia and Reid you call JJ. We need to start searching for Emily. She got some bad news and we need to find her. It's been over four hours since she has left here. She didn't take her coat, keys or anything with her so she is walking."

Ambassador Prentiss moaned and said "She is out walking in this weather? She's already been fighting a cold or something. With no coat and out in this she is sure to get sick."

Hotch didn't think about that earlier. He knew that Emily had been sick but he totally forgot about it when she came up to his office earlier. Thankfully right at that moment JJ and Garcia came in and straight over to the group.

"What's going on Hotch?" JJ asked.

Hotch looked at Ambassador Prentiss who nodded at him so he said "Prentiss is missing. She got some bad news and she left. She doesn't have her coat or anything and it's raining outside. We need to start searching and find her."

Garcia looked at Ambassador Prentiss who was pale and said "May I ask what kind of bad news Emily got? This way if we find her we know some of what is going on."

Ambassador Prentiss took in a deep breath and said "A good friend of hers committed suicide. I didn't find out until about thirty to forty-five minutes and I dropped everything to get here when Emily didn't answer her phone. She was really close to Matthew."

Garcia and JJ both gasped and nodded and JJ said taking control "Everyone grab a jacket and let's get looking. Ambassador you stay here in case she comes back. I will write down all of our cell phone numbers so if she shows up here you can call us. Also write your number down for us so that if we find her we can let you know."

JJ started writing everyone's cell number down for the Ambassador and Ambassador Prentiss wrote her number down. Once they exchanged numbers the team headed out.

Hotch couldn't help but think that the one woman he knew to be strong was some how broken right now. He vowed to himself that he would do whatever it was that he could to help heal her.