You have always been the kindest
of your entire family
of all your cousins and aunts and
uncles and your brother and your mum and dad too
you are everyone's favorite because
you make each person you talk to feel so very special
-even if you don't mean to-
(you usually don't)
you cannot help it and that
is what makes you so angry at everything
being nice
is not something you strive to
do or
be but instead it
is a cancerous tumor that you have never
been able properly have removed from
your conscience and you hate it so
much that the hate fills you from the
top of your
head to the tips of
your toes and it keeps on growing so fast that
you have long ago lost hope of
ever stopping it and
each day is a struggle as
you attempt to commit the
impossible for you
you try in vain to
be cruel