[i'm going to regret this in the morning]

I own nothing...

The wind howls,unyielding as Reid stares into the night; rain slashing against the window,pounding its fury.

Reid shivers as smokey tendrils creep through the divots within his mind, filling him with certain dread. His mouth wired shut, he stands at the window, chest rising and falling as if it were filling with mercury; heart fluttering against his ribcage in a desperate attempt to save itself. Tremors run through his very bones as he tries to steady himself against the windowsill.

He's too weak...too weak to save anyone.

Too weak to save himself.

Too weak to protect himself from himself.

And at this very moment, he wants to use- to hurt himself more than the hurt that's within him. To consume until there's nothing left. His heart staggers at the thought, body lit in high relief as electricity surges, spilling white heat between cloud and ground.

His body shutters as sound struggles against his Adam's Apple, stuck with no way to escape as he bows, head thudding against the wooden frame.

He bites his lip as he hits his head again, again, again- a dull ache forming behind his eyes; breathe in ragged pants as he tries to right himself.

The clock flashes 1:26 am, and he knows he's going to have to call him if he intends to make it through the night- well, what's left of it anyway.

Doesn't make him feel any less pathetic as shaky fingers hit the speed dial. Doesn't make him feel any better when the phone rings once, twice...

"Hey Reid." His voice steeped in fear as Reid's jagged breathes reach through the phone cords, creep through the wires, ping off of towers until it reaches the other side of town.

"I can't-" Reid tries, but his jaw aches- his chest splitting in two. Morgan's breathe hitches.

"Reid, get into bed." Morgan's voice soft.

"Derek, I can't!" Reid's voice sharp, broken.

"Spence, please? For me?" Morgan sits up, trying to assess the damage.

"I-" Reid grits out, "CAN'T!" chucking the phone against the wall I frustration, it connecting with a sickly crack, flying to pieces.

Reid shivers, sinking to the floor; he buries his face into the crook of his arm, chin teetering on the point of his knee.

He doesn't know how long he's sat there before the faint click of the front door being unlocked registers somewhere in his mind. Reid curls deeper into himself; Morgan's heavy footsteps sounding. Morgan's hand lights on Reid's shoulder. Reid looks up to find Morgan's eyes worrying over him.

"Hey Kid." A lopsided grin spreads across Morgan's face.

"'m sorry." Reid murmurs, nuzzling the hand that has cupped the side of his face.

"No worries Pretty Boy; I couldn't sleep no how. Just glad to know you're safe." Morgan stoops down to lift Reid, who curls his arms around Morgan's neck, pressing his face against Morgan's damp tee, reveling in the stolid heartbeat behind the broad expanse of muscle and bone.

Morgan places Reid in bed, smoothing the sheets around him. A slight frown forms at the look Reid's giving him.

"Pretty Boy, it's okay...do you want to tal-" Reid shakes his head. "Alright-" Morgan turns, but Reid scrambles to grasps Morgan's hand.

"Stay,please!" Reid's voice is strangled as Morgan shivers.

"Shh...it's alright,'m here." Morgan strips off his shirt, settling next to Reid. Morgan presses Reid's head against his chest, silky smooth locks tickling his skin. Morgan hums, Reid nosing the skin.

"I'm sorry." Reid squeezes his eyes shut. "This is too much to ask a fr-"Reid's stopped as Morgan pulls away.

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"Seriously Reid, do we have to go through this again?" Morgan sighs,jokingly. "as long as you need me, I'm here. It's never too much, I promise." Morgan runs his fingers through Reid's hair, Reid sighs at the contact.

He's going to have to believe that for tonight.

The rain patters overhead, Reid blinks sleepily, heart and breathing syncing with Morgan's as they slowly drift off.

A/N:

I'm sorry- this is not the smut I ordered!(i need to have a private chat with my muse, she's biting my ankles at the present.)

Sorry for making Reid the pathetic sniveling, needy, emotional wreck in every one of my fics...but this version of Reid is an extension of me so...i'll write better I promise.

Thank you for your time...hope it wasn't a total waste.

dasm