Disclaimer: I don't own Macross Frontier or its characters. This is purely fan-made and has almost anything to do with it.
NOTE: I changed the prologue for a very good reason. I keep reading it and reading it, but there's always missing something. It doesn't have much of a change but its important.
Well this one is AU. WARNING AU!!
Warning: Alternate Universe. Angst and adult schemes. Alto/Ranka fanfiction. It may appear in the beginning as if it isn't but hope you will be patient with me and read. Alto/Sheryl big dose but very important to Alto/Ranka relationship. Both good and bad.
Pairs: Alto/Ranka
Alto/Sheryl
Nanase/Luca
Michael/Klan
Hope this prologue is to your liking. There will be more to come. Give it a try!
The Neko and The Samurai
Prologue
- Fate -
Neh, Alto-kun... Will I ever see you again?
I miss you. I really miss you.
But that day you said goodbye didn't you? It still feels as if it was yesterday.
Three years have passed since I last saw you. And it still hurts. I still hear it all, your last words to me.
You chose her. Your eyes told me you were certain of it and that was what you wanted.
Sheryl-san needed you and you knew I would let you go… because you knew I really loved you.
And you knew I would never deny you your wishes nor would I deny you your chosen path.
That was the first time I was unselfish or maybe I was shocked at myself. Because I knew somehow that you would leave.
Sometimes I caught myself asking, "Was it all a dream?".
Those happy days we had together at some point I wanted to erase and forget them. Happy memories become pain when those memories are just that... memories.
It was a dream after all because you aren't here anymore.
And now Onii-chan is gone. Nana-chan is gone. Everyone is gone.
All of us made our choices, different paths and different lives.
I feel as if I've been left behind since that day. As if waiting for you to come back.
I feel like laughing and crying at the same time. I'm such an idiot. Waiting… what for? For someone that isn't coming back? What am I waiting for?
I'm just so tired of suffering.
I can't forget that night either. That last bitter-sweet night, so unforgettable. That night, you helped me fulfill it. My dream… And you don't even know it.
I wanted to tell you. I wanted for you to know it. I wanted you to be there. But I didn't have the courage to tell Onii-chan.
I was weak and childish.
I was hoping he would accept me even after that.
I guess it was time for me to grow up. So I hoped I could change.
So was hoping to change… a bad thing?
It was hard. It was really hard to change because to change yourself is fighting yourself at the same time.
It hurt. There were days I thought, "I'm going to die.", "I can't make it.", "Someone help me... I can't do it anymore!".
Changing was fighting every and each day. No rest, no hiding and no running away. All depended of my will.
Now I think, "I'm happy I tried, because I made it somehow. I did change many things, but I couldn't change it all, if I changed it I wouldn't be me, those things made me who I am."
"Memories makes us who we are, so we mustn't forget ourselves. Denying will bring uncertainties and doubts, so we shouldn't lie to ourselves." This is a daily mantra I keep saying to myself. I won't forget it, I won't deny it. To forget and deny it is denying my existence and my dream.
I will live for me and for my dream as well. Because this dream was what made me live and change.
The dream of something bigger than me, the dream of a piece of you in me and a piece of me in you. This dream was the prof that our dream wasn't just a dream.
This dream is the only thing of you that stayed with me.
This is the dream of Ranka Lee and Saotome Alto.
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