Liar

Pairing: Logan/Kendall
Rating: K+
Word Count: ~360
Disclaimer: Big time rush is not mine.
Summary: Logan and Kendall share the last minutes before Kendall's wedding.
A/N: Just a drabble, which was written in 15 minutes.

I couldn't believe you were marrying. I couldn't believe I had enough strenght to come. I couldn't believe everything would end then.

You were standing in front of me, looking right through my eyes. I wondered if you could read my mind. I wondered if you knew that I didn't want to be your best man at your wedding but be your best man forever. I wondered if you knew that I was longing for you since forever.

"The time has come", you said. You were smiling with tears in your eyes. Even if I knew the meaning of your tears, couldn't I still imagine you cried for me?

"I can't believe I will be married in a few minutes." Neither did I. You stepped forward to me, never breaking our eyecontact.

"Are you really okay with this?", you asked me. I recognized the camomile-peppermint smell that I used to love so much. At that moment I wished it would go away. Because it brought back memories, memories involving you. This smell would remind me of the times you touched and kissed me and whispered into my ears. It would remind me that all of this wasn't going to happen again. I planned not to cry, I really did, but alone the fact that you were so close that our noses touched, destroyed my plan. I looked up into his green eyes and asked, "Do I have a choice?"

You looked down. It was you who made this decision. It was you who chose Jo and left me. It was you who wanted to marry and have kids. It was never me.

You raised your hand and lifted my jaw, stroking my cheek softly with your thumb. Before I knew it, you tried to put your lips on mine but I quickly turned my head.

"What about your bride?", I asked.

"This is our last kiss.", you promised, almost begging. And I gave in. Because I wanted this, too. Because I thought that you could keep your promises. But you couldn't. You couldn't keep one promise you made that day.

So I am surrounded by the camomile-peppermint smell every day.