Ok, I here's another story, I finished it a while back so I figured I should post it ^_^ it little sad.. Or a lot, I was crying while writing it.. Again... I always cry, I'm such a soppy person, but anyway, I hope you like it and its not too quick or anything

i do not own these characters, only the story :( kubo tite is the owner

-A flashback-

'Don't let go... ' tears slid down the mans cheek, fear written across his face 'please... '

'I won't, just rest ok, I'll be waiting till you wake up again, I promise, rest juu' I was a step from crying, tears running down my own cheeks, watching my friends pain, I held his hand tight.

'It hurts.. Shun.. Don't let go.. ' the kids voice was fading, I could tell he was leaving this world.

'I swear on my life, I won't let go, I promise'

Half an hour later jushiro ukitake was declared gone and I was crying into his frozen chest, still holding his hand like I promised.

-back to reality-

I opened my eyes to a strange world, my hand clenched as if I was holding onto something, only there was nothing, I looked around me, I was in some slums, but not just any slums, traditional Japanese slums, slums that looked like they belonged a few hundreds years in the past.

-a flashback-

I smiled as I bled out, sitting beside my friends empty shell, holding his hand tight 'ill join you soon juu... don't worry... I won't let go... I won't let go..'

-back to reality-

I looked at my chest and felt it, I was bleeding.. I'd commuted suicide.. Why aren't I dead.. Then I looked and my hand, it was empty, I felt a hollow horror and fell to my knees where I stood, feeling the tears well up in my eyes, I couldn't help it.

I buried my face in the ground and screamed, I had failed 'I promised.. I promised'

-a flashback-

We were sitting in a park on the swings, I looked at my friend with a grin 'bet you I can swing higher then you'

My friend grinned back 'your on' it became a competition to swing the highest, the sun made my friend stand out, his short white hair collected up the sun and it positively glowed, his unusually pale appearance made him look like an angel when he smiled, his bright green eyes sparkled, just being next to him put a smile on my face.

-back to reality-

I don't know how long I cried into the ground, eventually someone picked me up and I found myself in their home, they had put a bowl of soup in front of me but I wouldn't eat, I couldn't, I deserved to die.

'Hey, kid... What's your name...' A boy about my age took my attention.

I looked at him dully 'why.. '

'Because.. I see you sit here everyday, you don't talk, you don't eat, I want to see you smile... ' the kid gave me a smile.

I couldn't return the gesture 'Shunsui.. Shunsui kyouraku.. '

'Shunsui.. Nice name, I'm Kai' he offered his hand to shake 'its nice to meet you'

I nodded and didn't meet his gesture. Kai held his hand out for about a minute before sighing and sitting beside me 'I want to be a soul reaper, do you?' He looked at me expectantly.

I'd been in this world for a month now, I'd found out that I was in soul society, the land of the dead, or heaven, the soul reapers ruled this world.

In a month, I had not found jushiro who had died just hours earlier then me, I had searched but I had no luck, now I would sit by a small stream everyday watching the endless time pass, nothing could make me smile let alone speak, I had gotten thin but I didn't eat either, they say if you are hungry, you have natural powers which meant I could become a soul reaper. I didn't do anything, I had lost all hope.

Kai frowned 'you know your hard to talk to.. You won't make friends like that you know' with that the stranger Kai got up and walked away having failed. When the day turned to dusk, I would return home to my parents, they weren't really my parents, it was rare for families to meet up again in the soul society, they were simply the two people who offered me a home.

'Shunsui... Why don't you become a soul reaper... Maybe you will find your friend there.. ' my mother looked at me with sad eyes.

I shook my head 'juu is sick.. He wouldn't'

-a flashback-

'Shun, I can't do it.. Not by myself, please come with me.. Mum says it would be fun.. ' my friend looked afraid.

'Come on then juu, I'll go with you, it will be fine' I gave my dopey smile, my wavy brown hair to my shoulders, my slate grey eyes bright, I was determined to keep that smile on my friends face.

'Thank you shun' he smiled and together we climbed up the tree to where the flying fox was set up in the tree, at the edge of the play form he looked afraid, he was scared of heights and was starting shake.

I was scared too but I wouldn't show it so juu would be ok, when we hopped on the Firefox, and ride it through the sky, juus smile was bright and he declared it had been the best thing ever.

-back to reality-

'How do you know.. You could try.. ' mum gave me a supportive smile. I just shook my head and went to my usual place, the roof, I'd sit on the roof and stare at the starry sky. I would never forgive myself for letting go.