Angelique Roman
5-6-2010
P. #4
Elephant Ears and Caramel Chews
"Oh dear me" I moaned as I grabbed the shoe rack.
Everything was fuzzy and blurry. I felt as if the world were spinning too fast. I grabbed on for dear life as the shoes fell.
My mother saw me and immediately knew what was happening. She dug in her purse looking for my insulin.
I took one, uncapped it and stuck it into my thigh. Then I took two caramel chews and popped them into my mouth.
I slowly chewed and started to feel the immediate relief. Everybody around just looked and starred at me like if I were a crazy person… a look I was getting used to.
"Are you alright sweetie?" my mother asked me. I was so glad to hear her sweet, nurturing voice.
As soon as I checked my digital watch, I realized something… it was 3 o'clock and I had not eaten anything since 10 in the morning!
Going through things like these are becoming a real pain in the neck.
Life with diabetes is not easy, but it has let me see life and the world in a whole new perspective.
My mom had to help me get to the car because I was still a bit loopy. As we drove off from the parking lot of dolphin mall, we searched for a close by fast food restaurant.
As we looked desperately for a McDonald's or a burger king, the tall Spanish moss trees whizzed by us. It seemed as if the winds called to us and said hurry, hurry, hurry.
At last, after another 3 miles of driving, my mom encountered a Chili's. We went around the curb and parked as close as possible to the entrance.
When I think of chili's, I think of molten chocolate lava cake with vanilla ice cream and whipped cream.
Being diabetic and all, I still had cravings for lots of sugar. But my doctor said "limit the amount of sugars you eat."
By the time that we got out of the restaurant, it was already 6 o'clock.
My mom murmured softly to me "do you want to stop by Baskin Robbins for a nice sugar free ice cream?"
"No I don't want a big ice cream that tastes like milk with splenda." I mumbled back to my mother.
For some reason my mother still does not understand that if something is sugar free, it does not taste the same.
I settled down in the back of the car and lay down. I wanted to almost die right there.
I felt very sleepy. I wanted to be in the comfort of my bed and be holding my cookie monster.
Sometimes, in times of "despair", I go to my room, put on paramore, and wonder what my life would be like right now if I did not have diabetes.
Once I got back home, I went to go lie down on the reclinable. She put on my favorite movie and popped some popcorn.
So there I was; lying on the sofa, watching how Alice meets the mad hatter and the March hare, and munching on extra butter popcorn and a can of Pepsi-cola.
Sometimes, I like having diabetes, but it just sometimes slows me down.
Even though most people complain … I just learned to live with it!