Okay, so if I continue with this, then each chap of this story will be a letter from Brennan to Booth or Booth to Brennan. Most of it including some of the message's dialogue is inspired by my own life. So, it will be real and it will be emotional if you are up for it.

The first quarter of the first chap just explains a little bit of what is going on almost like a flashback of Brennan speaking to you and then we move onto the letters for the rest. Hope you enjoy...Oh and FaithInBones - there is a small part in here that you will recognize if you read this ;) and Diko it's been nice talking with you - I wish you guys the best. Meg

I was late. It had been a few weeks since that inevitable night that many laws were broken. The night that left me to now doubt science, two could in fact become one; physics were wrong. It had been a few weeks since the night I learned not everything is black and white and some things come in shades of grey. We just have to be open enough to see the kaleidoscope of colors turn and to truly understand love. I now understood love. Two had become one over and over that night and I had no regrets, not one. I was Booth's and Booth was mine. Transcendent and eternal were real and maybe, just maybe – as I said, maybe so was fate.

As we walked down the avenue together, only hours after Angela and Hodgins' baby boy; Michael Vincent Staccato Hodgins was born. You could tell something was wrong, I was anxious and I had reason to be. I couldn't hold my secret in any longer and stopped walking. You turned to me and started to tell me Angela's baby would be fine – that this was the happiest day of their lives, because they loved each other and just had a baby. It was a good thing. I asked you if you truly believed that and you said yes. Then I told you that you were going to be a father; I was pregnant. You were happy, we were happy.

A month later something happened in Kandahar, Afghanistan and the army wanted you back desperately. They said it was only for two weeks. I worried, but said my 'see you laters' at the airport as you left me for a second time – left us. I received an e-mail the third week you were away, "Hey Bones, I've been contracted to go to somewhere. I can't tell you where I'm going to be just yet or when I'm going to be home. Though, I will message you as soon as possible. I will be able to communicate via e-mail. So, use it. I love you two and I will be home as soon as possible. I wish I was there now so we could enjoy dinner at the diner. I can't wait to see you. See you soon and love you - Booth."

So I waited as weeks turned into a month and one month into more than half of my pregnancy. I understood this was your job, you were contracted and you had to do what you had to do. Though, I didn't have to like it. I found comfort in hot tea, friends, keeping busy, but most of all in writing you. I've saved every message just so I can reread them.

Booth,

I hope you have WI-FI and are able to receive this message. Then again I suppose I will know if you receive it if I get one back. Although, I understand just because you receive a message doesn't mean I will get one back. I understand that you are busy working and training men how to survive and trying to stay alive yourself as well as a number of other things that I am only allowed to wonder about.

Booth I just ask that you stay safe for me please, because I worry Booth. Although, not too bad, and I know you tell me not to worry, that you are fine and that you are tougher than I think. Though, reading those things and then reading the news the next day. Let me just say my heart is restless at night. I love you Booth and I know people say that loving someone – investing their love in someone that is so far away is irrational. I don't find it irrational at all, not one bit. Not after I have learned what love is and feel it growing restless inside of me every day. Thank you for showing me Booth. On a different note when you get home I want, no I need you to show me lots more. I miss sex Booth.

Oh! I have to tell you about yesterday Booth. Angela and I went to the diner. Angela carrying Michael and his carrier and I four months pregnant – we ate a lot. I didn't realize it until Angela pointed it out, but I had ordered and ate the cooked fruit you always eat Booth, and I actually liked it. Angela said our baby was already taking after you as I had your appetite for apple pie. I said it was a fetus or baby, as you said to call it, could not have already gained an acquired taste of one parent while in uteri. Angela still disagreed. I ate the whole pie anyway. Well okay, I ate most of Angela's too.

What are your days like Booth? It's been rainy for the past few days here. Work is well, it's work. The latest case was about a Financial Advisor who had an affair with the CEO of the company. The CEO's wife found out and Angela identified the body as that as the Financial Advisor. I thought at first the wife killed her, but in the end Sweets found out that the CEO killed her although he claimed he didn't mean too. Though, he lied. His motive was so his wife wouldn't find out. Now he not only cheated on his wife, but murdered someone. I'm very satisfied that we caught him. The team works well together, then again our family always has…hasn't it Booth? I love you.

OH! Guess what? It was a full moon last night and I went for a walk. I was even able to see the stars Booth and the sky was so clear – so clear. I wish you were there to see them with me as well. Did you see the moon the other night? I know you are a day ahead of me, but that doesn't mean you couldn't see the moon. I hope you were able to because astronomers said it was the largest it has ever been in decades. It was thirteen percent more full than usual.

While I was lying in bed sipping on the hot pomegranate tea that I love so much. I spoke with a woman on one of my fan websites for my novels. She informed me she grew up a military brat. Anyway, the woman said that it takes someone tough to love someone in the service. I have to agree with her. Although, I believe she meant tough emotionally and not physically. She said her father was in Vietnam Booth and her mother use to talk every day on a cassette to her father and then when the cassette was full she would mail it to him so he could listen to her voice and of her days. I wish I was able to send you things Booth. I don't like that I can't, but I know one doesn't always get what they want and to be happy with what I have right now.

Well it's getting late here, the bed feels so big. Anyway, I have to get up early tomorrow Booth and if I look tired Angela, Cam and the team will notice and tell me not to stay up so late and that I need my sleep. I love you and I will write you again tomorrow and give you updates on how life back in the states is going as well as me and my pregnancy. Booth, my pregnancy hormones are really making me hot and cranky, but it's worth it Booth. You were right – every moment, love – it's worth it :) Angela showed me how to make a smiley face like you do in your text messages. See you soon.

Love,

Bones and baby

P.S The baby doesn't really know you are gone, but I don't know why I feel it should be from both of us. It just is. Also, I'm going to find out the sex of the baby tomorrow morning Booth. I will message you as soon as I know.

Booth was sleeping as his cell vibrated alerting him to an e-mail. He would check it tomorrow, it had been a long day and he was more tired than a dog. As he drifted off in his rack the radio in his tent played softly.

Highway run
Into the midnight sun
Wheels go round and round
You're on my mind

Restless hearts
Sleep alone tonight
Sending all my love along the wire
They say that the road
Ain't no place to start a family
Right down the line it's been you and me
And loving a service man
Ain't always what it's supposed to be
Oh Girl
You stand by me
I'm forever yours
Faithfully
Circus life
Under the big top world
We all need the clowns to make us smile

Through space and time
Always another show
Wondering where I am lost without you
And being apart ain't easy on this love affair
Two strangers learn to fall in love again
I get the joy of rediscovering you
Oh girl
You stand by me
I'm forever yours
Faithfully

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Faithfully
I'm still yours
I'm forever yours
Ever yours
Faithfully

Continue? Hopeful or just let it be? I changed the lyrics 'music man' to 'service man'