Ok this is based on the second installment of Kingdom Hearts! I tried making it based on the first but the ideas that came into my head were too dark and it would be horrible to imagine Sora in that kind of manner. Any who please Enjoy! R&R and make sure to enjoy this every step of the way! So I won't do any POV changes since this entire story is basically on my oc's struggles. This might be a short series since the game is sooooo long! I'm going to play 2.5 once the game comes out so it might inspire me to keep going. I'm not making it bloody like all those other fanfics. *shivers* Who puts blood and R-rated stuff for a game like this?

'I've been having these weird dreams lately...

most of the time I wonder... if any of if was real...

Is this my reality...?'

Chapter 1 ~ Separate Hearts

Standing by the sea shores of Destiny Island was a girl, her back turned from the world as her long blue hair sways from side to side in rhythm with the breezy wind. As she continued to stares out at the vast ocean two men in black cloaks walks up from behind her back a few feet away from where she stood, both watching the girl as she just stood there in the same manner as a statue. "Is she ready?" one of the speaks up as he gazes at the girl under his hood. The taller one looks down at him then back at the girl, "As long as her other still dwells by his side we should be fine."

||Twilight Town||

"I'll bring him back Kairax, that's a promise."

The words of Axel still echoed through my head as I sat down in the usual spot on top of the clock tower of twilight town. Alone by myself eating my favorite sea salt ice-cream as I watch the usual sunset of the peaceful town. That promise was nothing but empty words to me. I know the orders Xemnas had given before Axel was sent here to retrieve Roxas, even if he was ordered and intended to bring him back, the problem is if Roxas refused to back with Axel then he'll be forced to get rid of him. I kept thinking to myself that Axel will bring him back, that Roxas will oblige to his best friends request on coming back.

"And yet... I still have this weird feeling inside my chest..." I mutter as I grip onto my shirt where my supposed heart should be. My name is Kairax, also known as no. XV. I'm part of a group of special nobodies like me called Organization XIII and I happen to also be a nobody that can wield a keyblade, but there is something different about me compared to the others. And it has nothing to do with me wielding a keyblade. Xemnas found out not to long ago that I had a heart fragment inside of me, meaning I have the ability to feel unlike all of the rest who are force to pretend they have feelings like a normal person with a heart.

Even though I had a heart fragment inside of me, there's a small catch. I can't go through Dark Corridors like everyone else can, my heart fragment is fragile so it is unknown whether it's strong enough to fight off the darkness or can be easily taken by the negative energy. "The only way I can travel is a secret, Roxas and I-" I stop myself the moment the familiar name slipped out of my mouth. Roxas, former member of the organization and the reason why I've been in Twilight Town for a few hours. Though it was meant to be impossible for nobodies like me and Roxas, we somehow gained the ability that none of us had expected to happen, love. That's right.

I thought at first it would be a one sided thing for only me to feel since no other nobody had this special fate like mine to get the chance to feel even if he/she isn't a somebody, that is until that certain fateful day.

++Day 201++

The World That Never Was...

I held back with all of my might against the hundreds of heartless before me, blocking at every unknown heavy that was thrown at me in an unbearable amount of time I had from how much space left around me when I wanted to counter attack the heartless. The normal ant-like heartless isn't a problem for me it's the numbers and speed I have to deal with all by myself, the worst part is that this is my very first solo mission EVER since I first joined the organization, and to think the entire time I've been dealing with these heartless on every mission I've been sent on I had someone with me to help me deal with these heartless.

Now I'm all alone... "AAAAHHH!" I scream in pain as a heartless send my flying backward. My back crashes again a nearby wall at the same time my head collides against the wall, sending a large wave of pain throughout my entire body. As my vision starts to go hazy, I tried my best to hold Redemption (that's the name of the keyblade) up at the upcoming heartless that were slowly marching up towards me, but my arm felt so weak that my keyblade slowly started to feel heavier the longer I held it up in the air.

'Is this it...?' I thought to myself after finally letting go of my keyblade, allowing it to fall onto the ground beside me as the heartless closed in on me. 'So I guess I won't be able to live up to my promise... Good-bye... Roxas...' I close my eyes and prepared myself for what's to come as a heartless lunges towards me with it's long claws inches away from my face. But it never came. Instead, loud sound of footsteps echoed into my ears and the next thing shocked me right when I finally decided to open my eyes. Roxas stood before me with his Kingdom Key out and attacked every heartless that was meant to come at me.

I watch helplessly as he fends off the heartless in my place, hitting each and every one of them one by one as they continue their hopeless effort on attacking either of us. When they were all finally gone Roxas runs to my slides to my side yelling at me worriedly, "Kairax! Just hold on I have a potion here!" As he shuffles through his pockets for a potion, I couldn't help reach up to his face, caressing his face as Roxas freezes at my sudden kind touch. "Have you always had such pretty eyes...?" I ask him in a delusional manner, my vision slowly starting to turn hazier by the minute the longer I fought back to stay awake.

My thoughts were fighting against my delusional self, 'That's enough! Don't say anything else!' But I continued speaking out my feelings, "You know it would be funny if I die here... Like all of those lesser nobodies... our comrades... I sometimes hate being the only nobody to actually feel while everyone else I know in the organization can't... Cause there's something that I've always felt towards you Roxas..." 'No! Shut up! Please! It's better to stay as friends than get rejected by him!' my inner self pleads desperately when I mention having feeling towards Roxas, scared that if I were to confess I would end up having the worst rejection I'll have in my life.

"I have always-"
"Loved you."

For a second, I thought I was the one to confess my feelings. In the end it was actually Roxas who had confessed to me instead of the other way around like I had expected myself to. "You... love me?" I ask after finally snapping back to my regular self and gaining back my regular vision to see clearly. I don't even know how I regained my strength till I looked down on my hands. The potion that I was meant to drink had spilled onto my hand, guess it is true no matter what, you can either drink it or have it spilled right onto you.

Roxas grasped onto my hand that was still on his cheek, "Nobodies aren't meant to feel... we have no hearts... You are the only nobody that's suppose to have the ability to feel... And yet I can't stop thinking about you...! No matter what I do! Kairax, you are the only one that's been on my mind ever since you first joined the organization. I thought it was just because you felt so familiar to me, but the more I got closer to you I couldn't help myself except wanting to protect you no matter what! When you left on this solo mission of yours and never came back after an entire week... I almost went crazy! That's when I came to realize that I had the ability to feel, to feel love, and the reason I can feel is because of you Kairax."

++Present++

All this time, ever since Roxas had left the organization I was left broken to figure out how to consort with myself about these sudden new feelings entering inside my chest, and every single time I went past his room my chest wouldn't stop aching. I tried my best to forget about him, but what's happening to me is exactly what Roxas had to go through when I too left. Though this was different compared to me. He won't come back. I should know, I witnessed his leave and his capture.

++Day 315++

I watch from afar as Roxas fought against someone who wore the black organization clock, probably the fake Xemnas has been searching for. I was about to jump in and save Roxas until a hand grabs my wrist, forcing me to watch as the fight comes to it's conclusion when the stranger takes his blindfold and transform into someone, a man that sent a sudden wave of pain in my head the moment the darkness clears and allowed me to see his face. "You can't stop it..." I twirl around as I swipe my keyblade at whoever it was that who was preventing me from saving Roxas. I was about to make another move, but my eyes widen at who it was. Me? She does have blue hair and looks like a much younger version than me. "Hold on... are you... Me?" I reached out to her, but then I heard a loud sound behind my back.

I look over to see Roxas on the ground and the stranger with his back turned from the boy, pulling his hood on as another appears and looks down at Roxas. The hooded man suddenly looks up. Lightening lit the sky, and in that short moment, the light illuminated everything around me just enough for me to see the face of the man under the hood. I could still remember what he said. "Akari...?"

++Present++

Suddenly, a weird resolution came to me, if Roxas had a reason to leave the organization, to leave me behind, then there has to be a very good reason why he had to leave like that and that means I'll follow his lead. I stood up, standing at the edge of where I was previously sitting on, and looked ahead at the vast sky above Twilight Town. "Roxas... Ever since Xion disappeared- No, I have to focus," I slowly began to take off my organization cloak, "you've always done things alone. I want to help you Roxas..." When I finally got the cloak off of my, I held it in my arms close to my chest and readied myself to let go of it.

"This world isn't real... I know that! I will find you no matter what," I vowed as I released the black cloak, floating downwards to the ground and digitized itself into nothing but codes until nothing was left. In this computer word, things that aren't meant to be inside will be erased from existence and can never be retrieved again, just like those who reside here.

"Are you kidding me? I could've taken Seifer out with just one punch!"
"Yeah sure Hayner, one punch is at that's needed to get you hanging by your underwear on the Twilight clock tower."
"Shut up Pence!"
"That is what happened last time."
"Not you too Roxas!"
"Boys don't fight! C'mon we have to hurry before the ice cream melts!"

Before I had the chance to escape from view I was caught red handed when a group of 4 teens, around my age, turned a corner and spotted me at the edge of where I stood. One of them who I never thought I would meet so early after making a vow minutes ago and gotten rid of my coat. Hopefully, none of them saw it when I let it go and see how it suddenly disappeared just like that. Roxas and I were the only ones who hadn't broken out intense gaze. I just stare at him with a blank look then leaned forward. Even though I knew I wasn't going to die, none of them knew that and started screaming at me to stop seeing how close I was to falling over before their eyes.

Roxas suddenly grabs me and pulls me back before my entire body could fall off the tower, yelling, "What do you think you're doing!? You can't just leave me now that I get to see you again!" I was taken aback when he said that to me, "Y-You remember me...?" "Uh... Actually I've seen you in my dreams," he tells me truthfully. This wasn't I wanted to hear. "So I'm a dream... and they're not..." I point to the direction of where the trio were. He looks over his shoulder and is shocked to see that his friends had suddenly disappeared into nothing but thin air.

"Hayner!? Pence!? Olette!?" he calls out. "She was right... No matter what I do," I pulled away forcefully, "you won't remember us... Even after making such a stupid promise to me..." I back away even more when Roxas tries to reach out to me once again, but this caused me to lose my footing on the ledge beside me and then slip to the side. I thought I was going to fall peacefully but then Roxas, being as stubborn as ever, grabs my hand. I found myself hanging from my doom as the boy above me tries his best to keep his hold on me. "Stop! You can't-" with all my might I lift myself up to kiss Roxas on his lips.

Ironic how our first kiss would be in a situation such as this, we hid our relationship from the organization for so long that we barely had the chance to even share our first kiss between one another after our confessions. As Roxas' eyes widen in shock from my sudden actions,I took this chance to let go and let myself slip out of his grasp. A blinding white light envelopes my body as I fell down further from the top of the tower. I almost regretted it when I finally heard him call out my name, "KAIRAX!"

||Castle Oblivion||

The moment I open my eyes, I was shocked to see that I ended up in the worst place possible, Castle Oblivion. I've had constant nightmares about this place, and whenever that happens I would see visions of a girl with blue hair sleeping inside this white capsule. Beside her is another capsule but this time with a boy inside. I never got to see who was inside because every time his face is about to appear I suddenly wake up in tears.

'Go inside...'

I jump and summoned my keyblade, looking around my surroundings to check if there was any enemies nearby. "Show yourself!" I demand, preparing to attack.

'Go inside... you'll find the answers you're looking for...'

For some odd reason, I felt like I recognize this voice. Then it hit me, "Xion!? Is that you!?"

'You can't be kept in the dark any longer... step inside... and you'll see the truth...'

Automatically, I de-summoned my keyblade and ran towards the giant doors in hopes to see my missing friend. The moment I swung the doors open I stood there and scanned the white room for any signs of my friend, but sadly, she was no where in sight. A wave of sadness struck me. I shook my head and made a fist, "No... she has to be here! I just know it! Maybe she can help me save Roxas!" With hope of seeing Xion again filling up my chest, I ran to the other side of the room to continue entering the large castle. Then out of nowhere I felt a huge throb in my chest.

"AAAHHHH!" I collapsed onto my knees and clutched my chest tightly as the pain continued to increase by the minute. Images and new emotions were coming in at me all at once, and the last thing I could see before passing out was a tall dark figure appearing from a Dark Corridor walking up towards me.

'I'm sorry Kairax...I wish I could explain everything to you... but in your sleep you'll know... everything...'
'Wait! Xion! Where are you!?"

||Where Nothing Gathers||

"You have defied me for the last time Kairax," two Dusk Nobodies appeared by my side, "so as punishment you shall be locked in your room until you are ordered to leave. If you weren't the only keyblade user left in the organization you would've long been turned into a dusk." I stood in the center of the meeting room obediently, glaring up at Xemnas as he looks back down at me with the same look I was giving him. "What are you planning to do with Roxas once you get him back? And where's Xion!?" I demand. Much to my horror most of the other members didn't seem to know who I was talking about.

Saix spoke up immediately, "We do not know who you are talking about XIV." I step back in shock at the number he just called me. "Number... XIV..?" Without getting the chance to react I was carried away by the two dusks back into my room, with the use of the dark corridor to make it there faster.

||My Room||

When I was dropped to the floor, I got up as quick as my legs could go and tried to run towards my door with my Keyblade out. But right when I was a few inches from the handle someone appears behind my back and forcefully tugs me away before I even got the chance to react. "What are you trying to do Kairax!?" it was Axel. "I told you I was going to get Roxas back no matter what. If Xemnas catches you outside again I can't protect you anymore! So stay put until I come back with him, got it memorized?" I look down at the ground in shame then asked quietly, "Why am I number XIV...?"

"That has always been your number Kairax."
"But I'm not a true member, am I...?"
"Now where'd you hear that from!?"
"I can't tell you Axel. Not when you can even remember her!"
"That's because I don't even know who she is! There was never a Xion in the organization! That person never even existed to begin with!"
"That person is your best friend!"

Axel suddenly grabs my shoulder and shakes me lightly, "YOU are my best friend! Along with Roxas! Just please... stay here until I get back. I also brought you another coat for you as well." I watch as Axel lets go of me and leaves my room through a dark corridor. I had lost all my strength and collapsed onto my knees, every inch of will that was left in me disappears in that instant and soon I just sat there staring at the door, afraid to even try and get out again. I brought my knees close to my chest and hugged them. "Xion... I know you were trying to show me something... but what is it..? Can someone please stop keeping me in the dark...?"

I didn't even want to try to wear my new coat, after finally being in that room for the second time I now realized one thing once I took a good look at all the throne seats that circled around me. I was never truly a member of the organization, probably just like Xion by the looks of it. "Looks like Namine didn't tell you enough," I lift my head up and see a boy wearing the organization cloak leaning against the wall. "Riku...!?" I slap a hand over my mouth in shock. He laughs at my reaction, "Even as a nobody you can still tell if it's me... Akari."

I threw the nearest object at him, yelling, "My name is Kairax! I don't know how I know you... but stay back!" To even further shock me, the boy dodges and takes his hood off to reveal his long silver hair, but he kept a black blindfold on. And yet even without that, I still somehow knew who he was. "Thought you wanted to leave?" he asks me. I look away in shame as I muttered, "It's not my fault I got caught..." As we stayed in place quietly I was soon remembering things through Xion's memories and somehow... a small bit of my past. Tears run down my face when I saw a memory of Xion's death through Roxas' eyes then also a short memory of how I lost my heart.

::Memory::

"Kairi! Donald! Goofy! Get out of here not while you still have the chance!" I order them as I knock back a few more heartless. Every time I take some out, more would appear and I was forced to continue fighting them off. "But what about you!?" Donald asks me as he too hits back another heartless. I look over at the group with one last smile before lunging myself at the swarm, slashing each and every one of them with my Star Keyblade, the hearts flying up in the air as I continue to do so. "I need you guys to protect Sora! I'll handle it from here!" I cry out and slash another Shadow heartless.

"We aren't leaving without you! Sora wouldn't want this-" I interrupt Kairi, "It doesn't matter! People keep telling me that it's the Keyblade's chosen's job to protect the Purest of all Hearts... but I've had enough of that! I'll protect him- even if it means losing my heart in the process!" A giant neo-shadow appeared in front of me, causing all the lesser heartless to leave and disappear at its presence. "Go... NOW!" With one last glance, the others ran off with Kairi holding Sora's heartless in her arms. I could have sworn I saw the heartless reaching out to me. "You think you can fight in that kind of state?" I was shocked to see Riku floating about me- No, he's not the Riku I know he's Ansem.

"Your heart is weak! You can barely even focus without thinking of his," Ansem, Seeker of Darkness, mocks as he floats down to my level and grins evilly at me. "I will protect those I love...! Give us back our Riku!" I demand, taking out the neo-shadows with one hit and lunge at Ansem with my keyblade up in the air. Right when my keyblade could touch the top of his head, he makes a hand swipe motion and I find myself flying backwards at the sudden invisible force, forcing me to pull my keyblade back and use it to shield myself.

::Flash::

I ran in the direction where the others were and saw they were swarmed by hundred of heartless, any variety that none of them can take- not without Sora there to help them. I jumped about their head and slashed at an upcoming heartless that appeared right beside Kairi. "Akari!" everyone exclaims in joy as they watch me fend off the heartless."Don't worrySora! I'll be the one to protect you this time!" I hear Kairi cry out behind my back. I heard a short scream not long after. I was about to turn around only for a hand to pierce me from behind (Me: In a portal like manner okay! No blood!), slowly looking down out my chest to see a white crystal heart and pulled out from behind.

::Next Flash::

I (Kairaix) stood there as I watch a group of four running on the beach, two boys racing ahead and two girls run after them laughing. All four I somehow know by heart.

::End of Memory::

"You haven't changed Riku," I blurt out much to his surprise. "How much do you remember?" he urges one. "Not much... but I now know what happened to her and also who I was in the past... but I'm still Kairax no matter what! I may be not as strong as my self, but I'm not weak just because I have a heart shard inside me! I hate that everyone I've known my whole life have been keeping in the dark...! I want to do something... to save them," I turn my gaze back to Riku, but I was surprised that he was no longer there anymore.

"Good," I fall over to the side in surprisewhen Riku suddenly appears standing beside me, "then that means I won't have to force you into coming with me." Riku extends a hand at me much to me confusion. "You want to see him again, don't you?" My eyes widen, clearly understanding what he meant. I gulp, "Are you... going to take me back to where Roxas is?" It was only a one way trip thanks to Namine, but I was only there for a short period of time so I can decide what I was going to do now that I know where he was. I took his hand saying, "Take me back! Please Riku!"

He seemed please to hear this, and not long after I said that I was suddenly wrapped around in darkness for the first time.

||Fake Twilight Town||

I gasp for air after the darkness finally unwrapped itself around us. "Sorry... it was the only way I could bring you here without getting caught," he apologizes and puts his hood back on. "It's fine...!" I reassure him as I finally got some breath back. When I saw he was about to make his leave I felt the need to say this, "Akari doesn't hate you for what you did! More like... she misses you. She wants to thank you for all that you've done for Sora up until now." Riku just stood in place for a few moments then continues to walk off.

Silently, I place a hand on my chest and mutter silently, "Thank you... Riku..."

++Day 314++

"Roxas!" I run up to his side right before Roxas about to turn a corner. I grabbed his hand and asked him desperately, "Roxas what's going on? Axel has been telling me these weird things that you're leaving the organization! Is it true!?" I was afraid of what his answer might be, if it was true he was leaving or... or... "It's true," Roxas answers, not bothering to look at me. I fell on my knees in shock. "Why...? Roxas please tell me... you've been acting weird ever since Xion disappeared...!" I held onto his hand tightly, afraid for the first time in my life to let him go. I've been afraid before during countless missions, but to lose someone precious to me is much more than I can bare.

He swiftly turns around to look at me. "How do you know her!?" I was surprised at the sudden tone Roxas was using, it was like as if he didn't expect me to say Xion's name at all. I tilt my head in confusion and clarified myself, "She's our best friend, right? It has always been the four of us; you, me, Axel, and Xion." They've always been keeping me in the dark and I hate it, even Roxas knows this. Suddenly, he forcefully tugs my hand away and summons his keyblade. "Rox...as...?" I stood up slowly as I stare down at the keyblade in shock. "People with hearts really are naïve... especially for one with a single heart shard," Roxas says darkly and aims his blade in my direction.

"Huh?" before I could react, Roxas suddenly charges towards me for the attack. I was barely able to summon my keyblade and block his attack it in time. I slide back and got into my battle stance. "Roxas what are you doing!?" "The organization is after me," I blocked another attack. "And since you're still with them that means you're my enemy." Every time he tried to hit me, I would always be able to block and jump away from him before he could try to make a second blow. I know his fighting style *whack*, I know his tactics *whack*, I remembered his abilities and limits by heart *whack*...And yet for some reason *clang*... I don't know what he's thinking anymore.

I stumble back as my keyblade flies up in the air and stabs the ground a few feet away from where we were. Too far for me to reach. I fell backwards as Roxas steps closer to me. "The only reason why I accepted your feelings for me," he jabs his keyblade in my face, "was so that I won't damage your heart shard. It's fragile. Just like you. Nobodies can't feel, that means I can't as well." I felt the pain in my chest deepen at his words. I choked as tears started to come out, "So the only reason why you said you loved me... was for the sake of the organization? Is that it? So they can use me!?"

"..." I hated how he was just watching me with those eyes, not a single hint of emotion in them. I hate that I can feel. I hate that I... fell for Roxas. "Get rid of me then," I blurt out. He flinches. "You said I'm your enemy... That means the only way you can keep them from tracking is... is to get rid of me," I said as I grab the handle of his weapon and pulled it closer to my heart.

"I'm sick and tired of the lies... I'm sick of these stupid secrets everyone's been hiding from me... and most of all... I am so tired of having to live through all of this! Just take me out! That'll satisfy you, right? One enemy less to worry about... If you're so bent on betraying the organization then I shall gladly let you at least take one out without wasting energy."

I close my eyes as I readied myself for the end to come, this pain to finally go away forever and let the keyblade end everything right on the spot. Just as I was about to force him to do it, he suddenly de-summons his Kingdom Key (He didn't want to show her he can use two keyblades) and pulls me into a bone crushing hug. "I can't do it... I just can't..." he mutters into my ear as he pulls me closer. Before I could say anything I could feel my eye lids go heavy. The sleep spell. "I'm sorry Kairax... I didn't mean to hurt you..."

(A/N: I don't remember if they have this spell in the second game XD I just love this spell so much in BBS.)

::Present::

I walked into town at found myself infront of the train station. At the corner of my eye I saw a group making their way to the station from my left, and I noticed right then and there Roxas was among the the group. I quickly hid as best as I could inside the nearby tunnel, waiting nervously as I prayed that no one had caught sight of me and won't find me. I took a small peek, watching as they all happily enter together. 'I will save you Roxas... I swear..."

'I want to see him again...

and yet... I'm scared... Some of these memories are fuzy...

And there are those what are... just too sad to remember...

++To Be Continued++

Hey ladies~! And guys... This Haru Kazeyuki (or Haru Kaze if you guys still remember me from of of her MA chapters. And yes I exist for those that doesn't believe her.). I'm here to tell you that The Mercury Alchemist and Winds of hope will be postponed for a while. She's still in the hospital and she won't be able to post anything in her current condition. She asked me to post this for her since she's worried how you guys waited for a while on any updates on her fanfics. She was able to put up one-shots for you guys but recently it's been hard for her to focus on the screen properly without ignoring the pain she's going trough. I helped her make this since she loves Kingdom Hearts so much and is excited for the 3rd game. (Don't get me started on how much she cried at the trailer!)

She constantly told me not to make anymore typos like I did in the past when helping her. XD Alright, she just wants you to know she's really happy for all the support you've all given her and hopes to recover soon from her hospital stay. It seems that there's been a problem regarding milk tea, so you can kinda say a ton of people have been going through some sort of food poisoning. She's been trying to bring this to life for ages so I hope you like this. She made this when she was 9 years old and has decided to bring it back up.