Disclaimer: I sadly do not own The Hunger Games. Suzanne Collins owns the characters and the quotes in the
flashback. :) Reviews would be nice and I'm also posting this on my tumblr. (mydivergentmockingjay)

I wander through the maze of 13, elated that they're rescuing Katniss, and used because they're doing it so I can continue being the Mockingjay.

I had broken down after we shot a propo showing that I was alive after the bombing that Katniss warned us about. I knew that whatever I said as the Mockingjay would be used to hurt her. I wouldn't give Snow any more ammunition.

Many questions ran through my head. How will she be? What has he done to her? Will she be okay?

I somehow make my way to my compartment. I open the dull gray door. I have nothing personal here, my family is dead, I have nothing. Well, I only have Katniss.

As I lay on the single hardened bed, I think about the last night of the Quell.

Katniss and Johanna had to take Beetee's coil of wire to the beach after the wave hit. "I want to go with them as a guard," I say, not wanting to let Katniss out of my sight. I wouldn't let that happen if she was to get out of this arena alive. "You're too slow. Besides, I'll need you on this end. Katniss will guard," Beetee interjects. "There's no time to debate this. I'm sorry. If the girls are to get out of there alive, they need to move now," he hands the coil to Johanna. I know I can't go, my fake leg inhibits me. I still want to go, but I keep my mouth shut.

I don't like this plan at all. I don't think Katniss does either. She wants to keep me alive. She can't. She needs to go home and have a life with Gale in District 12. As much pain as it brings me, it has to happen.

Katniss' voice takes me away from my thoughts, "It's okay. We'll just drop the coil and come straight back up." "Not in the lightning zone," Beetee reminds her, "Head for the tree in the one-to-two o'clock sector. If you find you're running out of time, move over one more. Don't even think about going back to the beach though, until I can assess the damage."

The only thing I can think about right now is that I don't want Katniss to go. I look over at her, she's walking over to me. I feel her warm hands press against my cool cheeks, "Don't worry, I'll see you at midnight." She kisses me. I still feel the pressure of her lips as she walks away with Johanna.

The rest is a blur. The wire is cut by tributes whose names I can't remember. I am attacked by Finnick. He cuts deep into the space below the crook of my left arm. He then runs away calling after Katniss and Johanna. He's going to attack them too. I have to save her. I scramble up on my feet. "Katniss!" I yell, "Katniss!" I hear her far off, "Peeta! Peeta! I'm here! Peeta!" I stumble through the trees, trying to find her. I locate her just in time to see her shoot an arrow through the forcefield. I'm paralyzed, and a hovercraft picks me up.

That's when I lost her.

I lay there for what seems like eternity, waiting for Haymitch to tell me the news.

After another eternity, I hear a knock on the door. I jolt out of bed, praying that Haymitch is bearing good news. I open the door to see a solemn expression on his face. "Come with me," is the only thing he says. We walk silently to the hospital wing. He goes into a door next to the one a man from 13 opens for me.

I see Katniss in a bed covered by a thin white sheet. The stark lighting makes her face look pale. The bags and dark circles under her eyes are set above hollow cheeks. She thinner than she ever has been before.

I take a tentative step toward her, "Katniss? It's me, Peeta." She eyes me warily, like you would a poisonous snake. Her beautiful grey eyes are clouded over. She lets out a soul-ripping scream, one that doesn't sound human, "You're not Peeta! You're a mutt!"

I feel tears well up in my eyes. She doesn't know me. I run from the room and I hear guards try to restrain her as she continually screams, "He's a mutt! A mutt I tell you!" Hot tears run down my face.

This isn't Katniss.