I want you to show me

the deepest part

of your consciousness

I want to see

the twisted thoughts

the monsters

the horrors that keep you up

screaming late into the night

I want to understand the

intricate and fragile design

that is your mind

I want to meet your demons

and hear the things

they whisper in your ear

I want to hold your hand

as they tear you apart

just so you know

that you're not alone.

The last night she spent with him it was snowing.

She remembered how flushed her face was from the stinging cold penetrating her skin, and how the falling snow hadn't yet begun to stick to the ground. The cold had come on suddenly, without a warrant or warning. It fell in a light sheet, not thick enough to waver her sight, but was glittering down onto the hills around her.

Her breath perspired in thick, uneven waves, enveloping the space around her. Her vision was inconsistent, as tears came and left, falling down her cheeks. She'd pleaded, begged even, for him not to leave.

There were fires burning around them, fighting the growing cold and combating the darkness of the night. The warm glow from the flames bounced off of her bewildered eyes, making them appear to burn.

Ben had been rushing from her, not stalling at any of her requests for him to turn back. June looked through him, trying to find any ounce of light in his soul, but, all she was met with was a silent wall.

" Ben.. " June's voice distended, sounding unnatural and strained, as she tried to reach out a trembling hand to touch him.

There was chaos all around them, as people were running past her, screaming for their lives, knocking against her shoulders, everyone pushing past her as a small fleet of soldiers unloaded onto the island, picking off Jedi one by one.

Her cheeks were glistening in the soft lights around her, as the impending night brought on more uncertainty. Ben had stumbled to a stop as his name came from her lips, his body planting itself firmly, as though there was a hesitance in his choice to leave.

" Ben, I love you," she spoke in an instant, her voice losing its strength as she managed to muster the courage to reach out and grab at him, " please. "

She felt pathetic and weak. Feelings she was not familiar with, but was feeling nonetheless. She had loved him, still loved him, and for quite some time, but picking this moment, right now, to use it as leverage, it seemed misplaced.

Ben's body pivoted to face her, his eyes searching for hers, and pausing the moment their gaze met. Regardless of everything that was happening around them, she could tell that he was the same man as before.

She had to be brave. She had to stop him before this escalated.

" I can't.."

Ben's voice was drowning in doubt, and she could feel the conflict in his mind. She couldn't force him, she knew that, but maybe if she showed him that there was a different path, maybe he'd reconsider.

" Come with me, June. "

His words sunk against her skin and shook her to the bone. Her gaze softened as he spoke, June's choice beginning to solidify.

And just like that, she knew she didn't have it.

It didn't matter how much she knew that this wayward path might be the end of their Jedi journey. This dark abyss that Ben had decided to descend into, she knew she'd follow him anywhere.

His voice was feathery and fierce, it was firm but so welcoming. Her lips gaped just slightly, knowing that any moment she'd agree to anything he'd say.

Ben's hands gripped her upper arms as he hunched slightly, his eyes matching with hers. His face neared hers as their lips parted, June's entire body was set ablaze by Ben's touch. They were so close now. June's eyes filled with tears as he neared her, she watched helplessly as his body closed in on hers. Her hands shook as she placed them forwards, her fingers hesitantly touching the fabric of his robe, as she grabbed onto him.

He wasn't as shaken up as her, but June could tell he was rattled, only at that moment she wasn't sure why. He was frightened, she was sure of it, but what was making him choose this path so suddenly?

" Come with me.. " Ben's words became more and more quiet the closer he grew to her. The chilled air that was forming from their breaths became one, whirling cloud, and June's eyes closed for just a moment as she felt his lips close in on hers. The screams and explosions seemed to fade quietly into the background of her mind, as his voice became the only thing she focused on.

" I can't, you know I can't follow you. "

June's words came out in one long breath as she tightly clenched her jaw, her emotions beginning to get the best of her. So much had happened that she didn't understand, but she knew that she couldn't let him leave, not like this. A Jedi who abandons their kin and sides with the dark is one that could never be forgiven. She needed to say something, do something, to stop him. But the more seconds that ticked away, she realized that didn't have the strength to stop him.

And she'd have to live with that the rest of her life.

The moment their skin met, June could feel this bonding electricity that they had shared. A force so strong, she was sure that they wouldn't ever be apart. It had been surreal at first, scary and foreign, but after a while longer it had become intoxicating. She craved being with him, touching him, and sharing his space. The affinity they had shared wasn't like anything she'd ever experienced before, and she knew it was the same for him.

There wasn't any more time to talk, she didn't have a chance to convince him to stay, as without warning they were separated. It was so sudden, first he was there, and then he wasn't.

There was a large explosion just yards from them, separating them almost instantly. The energy from the wave sent them flying, and the last thing she could remember, was someone pulling at her arms, and dragging her away.