A/N: This is what happens when my computer decides to fuck with me and doesn't save my stupid story.

Disclaimer: Jhonen owns the comics, I own the story.

Information: I dunno, s'from Johnny's point of view, I suppose. Doesn't sound like him, but hey, I wrote this because I wanted something to do while I mentally scream about not getting my wonderful, stupid, pathetic story saved properly. I'm tired.

There's something inside of me that's like a big…

ugly…

hideous…

lump.

In fact, in all honesty, it is a big…

ugly…

hideous…

lump.

Not that I've seen it mind you, but I've been told in more or less the same words.

I didn't know it was there, at first.

I'd been feeling weary, run down, sick, the few days before I realised it was there.

It felt like I was beginning to fill up. Like the empty, black hole inside of me was beginning to fill up.

Then I learnt it was the big

ugly

hideous

lump.

At first, I thought it was the voices.

They were filling me up.

But when the big

ugly

hideous

lump

began to surface…

Then I knew something was wrong.

Being tired, run down, sick- at first it pointed all to my insomnia. My hatred for sleep.

The thing was just above my hip. Sticking out like one of my joints, only harder and painful when I prodded it.

So I did what I didn't want to do.

I saw a doctor.

They ran a few tests, did a few things, and rang me back two days later.

The doctors call it cancer.

I call it the big

ugly

hideous

lump

that will give me only two months to live.

Fucking thing.

A/N: Toldja it didn't sound like him.