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Inuyasha© Rumiko Takahashi
Ouran High School Host Club© Bisco Hatori
I'll Miss Silence
Prologue: I Wish You Were Here
'No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go'
— Avril Lavigne
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A clawed hand reached out to cup Kagome's upper arm. She glanced over her shoulder, sapphire eyes glittering in the dying sunlight. Kagome's profile was kindled like a flame, and Inuyasha felt his stomach clench with held in emotion from it. Her lips lifted up, an inquiry making her tilt her head. Sincerity. Her raven blue locks fell in waves past her chest down to her lower back. Her simple beauty entranced Inuyasha once upon a time.
"What is it?" Kagome questioned. Inuyasha faltered, removing his grasp. He gave a weak, toothy grin when he felt her warmth leave his fingertips.
"Nothing." He grunted, moving forward so that he was ahead, and she couldn't read his face. Kagome's relaxed front dropped as she stared at Inuyasha's retreating figure.
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"Ka-go-me," Inuyasha panted, his breath fanning steamily into her left ear. She clutched at his silver mane, wanting him close. Her world was strangely still.
She cried out as she climaxed, legs tightening around Inuyasha's waist. Moments later he joined her in the throes of ecstasy. Coming down from his high, Inuyasha pulled away from her body. She didn't notice yet, trying to keep her air flow normal.
"I love you." Kagome said breathily a while later. She looked over when she didn't get a response and noticed Inuyasha was facing away, appearing to be asleep already. Oh. She thought, eyebrows creased. Kagome shifted her body, pulling up a blanket and then twisting away. I guess I'll get a response in the morning.
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"I'm so excited for you!" Kagome announced, practically jumping in her spot. Sango rolled her dark eyes, caressing her tummy for a moment under the water of the hot spring.
"Just wait until you have grown with child, Kagome. It's not a pleasant thing to go through." She informed idly, bringing a section of wet hair forward to clean it. Kagome just continued to smile brightly, musing to herself whether it was a boy or girl. Sango gazed into Kagome's eager face, and wondered out loud, "When are you and Inuyasha planning on—uh," she blushed darkly. Kagome's face got a little redder.
"Um, we haven't discussed it yet." She admitted. Sango stared at her in mild shock.
"But you've been back for two years. You're twenty-one. Most girls in the villa are pregnant at sixteen." Kagome's mouth puckered into a grimace. Her eyebrows furrowed at the bewilderment in Sango's voice. She could hear the question underneath the statement: why?
"I don't know. It's just never came up."
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Kagome hummed while she picked herbs. Her skilled hands plucked at the plants when they suddenly halted. The woven basket she held dropped to the grass; she reached up behind her to place her hands against Inuyasha's neck. He embraced her by the hips, kneeling down to press kisses to her neck. Kagome leaned into his touch, her head angling so that their lips would meet in softness.
"I love you."
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Silence greeted her ears. Her eyes widened just a smidge. "Inuyasha?" She asked. She knew what was coming. This wasn't just some random gesture.
"Kagome," he finally murmured. He sounded tired—defeated. And Kagome knew exactly how he felt.
"It's over between us, isn't it." She stated more than questioned. That was Kagome—getting strait to the point. A breeze came and lifted Kagome's hair, drifting her scent to Inuyasha's nose. His eyes remained wary, like he might collapse at any given moment. It was almost like the wind itself could knock him over. He had surrendered to this feeling long ago, while Kagome was still fighting, she realized. It crushed her inside.
"…Yes." He agreed in that drawn out way.
This had been going on for weeks. A heartfelt touch no longer felt warm, a kiss to the temple no longer left a spark. All that was left was their connection—their past—which was never a good thing to go on for. A sigh released from her lips, and her shoulders slumped. So…what now?
"You can go home, Kagome." She started a little, not realizing she spoke her thoughts out loud.
And why not? There was no reason for staying. Shippo had gone under training far, far away. Miroku and Sango would be fine without her. Kouga had Ayame…
"I…I suppose so." She nodded her head as if to convince herself. Standing up and away from Inuyasha's weakened arms, she brushed off her clothing, and set off towards the well. She didn't look back, her eyes hard.
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As soon as she arrived in the present, she jumped back down into the well. Kagome couldn't give up—not after everything. Maybe—maybe if they just tried—
She gasped in pain as she landed on the dusty ground of reality. Kagome had sprained her ankle.
"Dammit—no." She huffed, holding back tears. She limped back over to the ladder and climbed up. She plunged back down once she reached the top.
Thump.
Ouch. Her hip throbbed. Kagome sniffled, lied curled up at the bottom of the Bone Eaters Well. It hurt—everything hurt.
Thump.
Her heart, it ached.
She finally lived up to her name—caged bird. She was trapped in denial. She couldn't let go, give in, forget, move on—no no no no nonononono.
Sobs raked her body, trembling, she held her chest. Her heart beat like a humming bird's—it needed out of this mental breakdown, this emotional torture.
Oh gods, I'll never see Sango's newest child. I'll never see Shippo grow up and have kids of his own. I'll never—
She cut off, breathing hard. She wished she could scream, whimper. But she couldn't. She could only lie there, repeating over and over her mistake.
And that's how her mother found her.
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Author's Note: Hello everyone. Nice to meet'cha. My name is Blue Secrets, however you may call me whatever you wish. I am very protective of this story, you see. I've worked very diligently on it, reading it over and over to make sure it's perfect. I've peppered it with kisses, spanked it's behind, and here we are now.
A special thanks to shannello, who encouraged me to share this with you! Thanks hun :D
-Blue