I'm sorry if there are mistakes! I am too lazy to send this chapter to my beta and I don't feel like editing it myself! haha. Enjoy!

BELLA POV

I was standing in the middle of a snow covered field. In front of me there was a quaint little lake with a thin sheet of ice resting on top of it. I could see my breath as I breathed out. It was so peaceful. I began walking towards the lake.

In the distance I could see two figures, a teenage boy and girl. They were in the middle of a passionate kiss. My curiosity peaked and I began walking at a faster pace. As I got closer, I couldn't help but notice the resemblance the couple had to me and my darling Edward. I stopped in my tracks when the couple finally broke apart; the two people in front of me were Edward and I. Edward looked like he was in agony and I looked like I was pleading with him. The other me said something, but there was no sound. Edward looked at the ground and she pulled his face up to look at her. He nodded sadly and reached his hand up to gently cup her cheek in his hand. His other hand followed and it cupped the other side of her face. He kissed her lightly on the face and then pulled away and ran from where she was standing. The other Bella stared after him for a few moments before she jerked her head forcefully in my direction. She looked directly at me before a loud crack was heard and she disappeared into the ice. An invisible barrier was broken and I ran towards her to help. I leaped fearlessly onto the ice and to my surprise it was rock hard. I ran over to where she had disappeared and saw her terror-stricken face pleading silently with me. I tried to break open the ice, but my efforts were in vain. I watched helplessly as I drowned beneath the ice. Then, her eyes closed and she looked almost peaceful. I tear rolled down my face as I sat there staring at my corpse. How could Edward leave me here alone to die? Tears began coming faster as I thought of my precious Edward. He had let me die.

Suddenly, the other Bella's eyes shot open. She looked completely different. Her eyes were the color of blood and she looked unreal; almost as if I was gazing at a goddess-like me. She did not move or make any attempt to escape; she just stared. I heard a crunching in the snow beside me and I glanced over to see Edward walking gracefully towards me, but his eyes weren't on me, they were fixed on the other Bella. I looked down to find the other Bella was watching him too with a huge smile on her face. An arm reached over me to punch the ice and it shattered noiselessly. The arm came up with the other Bella's hand clasped daintily around it. Edward slowly set the other Bella down in the snow and kissed her fiercely. She suddenly broke away from him and her eyes flickered to a figure in the distance. She crouched down in an attack position and her lip curled up into a snarl. I walked over to the figure to try and identify it and realized it was my father. I turned abruptly to see the other me leap in his direction and land directly on him and latch her fangs into his neck. I tried to scream, but no sound was heard. The other Bella lifted her head, blood dripping from her mouth onto the corpse of my father.

"Bella!" my mother shouted. My eyes shot open. I was completely soaked in sweat and my breathing was accelerated. I looked up at my frightened mother. "Are you OK, sweetie?" she asked. I nodded, swallowing hard.

"Ye-yeah. Just a bad dream," I replied quickly. "Mom, why are you in Forks?"

"Baby, do you really think I would miss my only daughter getting married?" she laughed.

"Oh yeah. I forgot I was getting married today," I said groggily. Renee looked at me with concern.

"Are you sure you are OK?"

"Yeah. It's just a bit surreal to me," I answered.

"OK, well Alice wanted me to tell you she will be here in an hour and she wants you to be showered and fed before she arrives," she said while opening my curtains. The sky was gloomy and gray and my mother sighed. "I was hoping the sun would be out for your big day, but oh well," she said. "Thats why the wedding is indoors I guess. I'll be downstairs with Phil and Charlie if you need me," she said before kissing me on the forehead and leaving the room. My breathing had decreased but I was still soaked in perspiration. I decided to take a shower to take some time to think.

I ran into the bathroom and turned the water up to as hot as it could go. I quickly stripped and jumped into the shower. I didn't even have a second to enjoy the hot water before thousands of thoughts came pouring in.

What was the significance of that dream? Did I still want this life? Did I want to marry Edward? Did I want to become a cold vampire and live forever? If I didn't want this life, what did I want?

Visions of Jacob filled my head. I thought of the constant heat that radiated from his huge body. It was the complete opposite of Edward. I had always liked heat; that had been the main reason I had hated leaving Phoenix so much.

But Jacob wasn't the only picture that popped into my head. A few weeks ago I had been having lunch with Angela. We were about to leave The Atlanta Bread Company when a tiny little girl bumped into me. She fell to the ground and erupted in loud squeals. I looked around for her mother, but she was nowhere to be found. After I calmed her down I began asking her questions. She was so adorable! When Angela and I finally located her mother I was reluctant to leave her.

Is that what was really holding me back? Did I want children? Did I want... Jacob? I realized I needed to talk to Jacob before I did anything else.

A loud knock on the door yanked me out of my thoughts. "Bella? There is a boy here to see you. I told him to wait in your room till you got out. I'm just warning you so you don't walk naked int your room!" my mom yelled. I could feel myself blushing through the hot water. I knew that whoever was in the room had just heard what she had said.

I quickly finished washing and turned off the water. I never really walked around the house naked, let alone half naked because of Charlie. He wasn't really comfortable with me anyways and I knew something like that would freak him out. I combed through my hair and pulled on some sweats and ran to my room.

"Hey, Bells," a gloomy voice greeted as I walked through the door. I about tackled Jacob to the ground when I saw him.

"Jake!" I screamed. "You have no clue how happy I am to see you," I said while giving him a huge hug. He chuckled lightly.

"Wow. I didn't think you would be this excited to know I was coming to your wedding," he said. I quickly pulled away from him, all the happiness I had felt before fading. His face filled with concern. "What's wrong?"

"I don't know. I feel weird."

"About..."

"I don't know." He stared at me blankly. I walked over to my desk and sat down. I began fiddling with a piece of paper. I heard the bed squeak and then his feet walking towards me.

"Do you want to take a walk?" he asked.

"Sure." He grabbed my hand and pulled out the door. Charlie and Renee had left a note saying that they had gone to the Cullen's house early to help set up. I was glad because I didn't want to have to explain to them also why I was feeling so down.

We started down a path leading into the forest and Jacob waited patiently for me to begin.

"Jake, I don't know if I can do this," I said in a small voice.

"What?"

"All of it. Get married. Become a vampire. It's not what I want anymore." I could feel tears well up in my eyes. I had no clue why I was crying, but it felt good. Jacob turned my face up so I was staring into his eyes.

"Then don't," he pleaded. "Come back to the reservation with me. Stay with me." I pulled away from him and began walking silently ahead.

"It's not that simple, Jake. I can't just run off like that. They need an explanation, especially Edward. I can't just leave him. You remember what happened when he thought I died; he almost killed himself. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I were the cause of something like that," I said.

"Look Bells, I agree that you have to tell them something, but I don't think it should be in person. Things could get ugly if you were to upset them."

"Jacob, they aren't like that. You of all people should know that. They might be sad, but they would never turn to violence; Carlisle would never allow it.

"What about that time Jasper lost it at your eighteenth birthday? They were almost unable to stop him from killing you, and the only reason they did was because of Edward. What if her lets them? What if he no longer feels the need to protect you?"

"Would you really let something happen to me?" I asked incredulously.

"Thats not the point, Bella. I still don't want to put you in danger," he said coldly.

"Look, I am a big girl. I can take care of myself."

"Bella, I don't think you really get the concept of vampire. They can kill you with one-"

"Jacob," I hissed, "I think I understand the concept." I rolled up my sleeve to reveal the bite I had received from James. He growled loudly and his body began to shake. "Jake, calm down. I'm fine."

"And thats why you are not going to do this," he said through gritted teeth.

"Jacob Black, there is no way you can stop me! I was going to marry one today. You wouldn't have stopped me then," I said with a chuckle.

"Actually, that was why I came here," he said in a low voice. "The guys are kind of waiting for my signal somewhere in the forest."

"What, were you planning on kidnapping me?" I asked. He ignored the question and started whistling the tune to 'It's a Small World' and avoiding eye contact. "Jacob! I can't believe you! You were going to kidnap me on my wedding day? Do you realize Edward would have ripped you apart?" I screamed. His head snapped in my direction and an evil grin spread across his face.

"You know, this scenario would be so much more fun and a lot safer for you. I think..." He walked ahead mumbling to himself. Suddenly he began to run and dove behind a tree.

"Jake!" I sprinted after him, not wanting to be left alone in the creepy woods. He was no where to be found so I stopped where I was and sat down cross legged like a little girl. I unwillingly started to cry; I seriously hated the forest. The last time I had been alone in here had been when Edward left me a few days after my birthday, and the forest and I hadn't had to great a relationship since. "Jacob, you ass!" I sobbed. "Why are you being like this?"

I was suddenly grabbed from behind and blindfolded. My wrists were yanked behind me and tightly tied in scratchy rope and a piece of tape was slammed against my mouth. A bunch of hands scooped me up and carried my flailing body to somewhere unknown. "Sorry, Bells. This is the only way I can think of to keep you out of harm," a familiar voice whispered.

"Dude, the gag is not necessary," a different voice said.

"Yeah man, take it off."

"Fine, but I cannot be held responsible for whatever profanities come from her mouth, Jacob replied. The tape wasn't even all the way off before I began the yelling.

"Jacob, what the hell are you thinking? This is not going to solve anything!!!!" I heard them all laugh loudly.

"If Edward doesn't kill you first, I will! And trust me, my method will be far worse than his!" I threatened before I was tossed onto the back seat of a car.

What did you think? I don't really have much to say but to review! I haven't written much lately because I am feeling like a crappy writer so unless I get some kind of feedback I might stop writing completely! Thats not a threat really... its more of me pleading for you guys to tell me if I really do suck haha.

~Jennifer Faith