Disclaimer: Not mine! In answer to Sarah's Write a fic inspired by the line, "My heart desires so many things that my pride just can't allow" challenge. Set during my favourite scene in 'Ducking and Diving', in fact my fave New Tricks scene full stop.
This is for my friend Ellie as it is her birthday today! Happy Birthday Els! :)
Enjoy! :) x
"What's pissing me off is the fact I have to hang around like a spare part when you could be in danger".
There. I've said it. In one frustrated sentence I basically told the Guv exactly how I feel about her. She knows, it's written all over her face. Any second now she's going to laugh at me. I didn't intend on telling her like this, I don't think I ever indented on telling her at all how I feel. But I can't just sit back and watch her take the plunge, we have professionals who do this for a living, for Christ sake can't she for once wait until they are available? Stubborn as always, still it's one of the many reasons I love her so much.
I could offer to go with her, sit in the boat while she's diving. I could even learn to dive and go with her, so I know what's going on. Stood on the bank whiles she's under there kills me as I have no idea what is happening and if something is I will be powerless to help.
But then again can you really see me diving? Sandra would have a field day laughing. My heart desires so many things that my pride just can't allow and surprise, surprise 99% of these desires involve Sandra and well my stupid pride wouldn't allow me to dive. Have you seen the silly gear they have to wear, I would rather die than have to wear a diving suit.
Oh god she's smiling, she is going rip the shit out of me now, try and look like you are saying this on behalf of Brian and Jack too, they don't like this diving lark either but they were far more sensible than to tell her their opinion.
"It really matters to me that I've got you and the other two dinosaurs watching my back, it means a lot"
At first I thought she was taking the piss, but it looks as if I pulled it off. At least she hasn't just shrugged off my concern it looks as if it really does mean the world to her but still it's not as if it has meant enough to make her turn around and scrap this whole charade, not that it ever would have, I know Sandra Pullman far too well to expect that.
And anyway it isn't really my place to try and stop her, all I can do is wait patiently and make sure I am there when it all goes tits up, which it will.