Keladry of Mindelan stared at the cold concrete that held the remains of Joren of Stone Mountain. It had been two years, two years since his body was found washed up in the double doors of the Chapel of Ordeal.
Yet it felt like forever. Kel tried to stay away, to move on and forget.
Forget that she ever cared.
Forget that she ever loved.
Kel tried. She did.
Except she can't.
So now she stood feeling more empty than she ever thought. Stupid. she thought. Why him? Why did I fall for him?
He was supposed to be my worst enemy. Hot tears trickled from her eyes.
What did I do to deserve this?
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you.
Stupid. Stupid Stupid. She said it out loud though she didn't mean any.
Oh baby god took your love from me
He needed an angel it seems
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. She thought of him an angel, she saw his emotions at his eyes. She always thought maybe he
could share his problems with her, know that he could always count on her.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Why did I fall for him? Why did I ever thought we could be together? Why?
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And she didn't even get the chance to say goodbye. To tell him thank you. Thank you for pushing me to the limits. Thank you for taunting me. Thank you because you were there to add weights on my lance. Thank you for trying to get rid of me. Thank you for insulting me.
Thank you because it made me realize just how strong I could be.
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
And you know what? I keep asking, Why did Mithros take you?
Why could he take you away from me
Kel fell to her knees. Tears still fell from her eyes. She had tried her hardest to wipe them away and tell herself that he's
gone. It was so hard. And I still hadn't told you.
It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave.
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Kel traced the name 'Joren of Stone Mountain' with a finger. It was rough with age, and a thought came. I wonder what it
would feel to be your wife. Keladry of Stone Mountain.
Keladry of Stone Mountain. I could only wish.
But then I'm stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
Why did I ever hoped?
What did I ever see in you?
Why can't I forget?
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
Kel thought of Joren's icy blue eyes and light blonde hair.
He was the picture of a god.
The most beautiful man she had ever seen.
If only I told you
I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say
I wish you were here.
Maybe you would hate me.
Maybe you wouldn't.
I wish you could tell me.
Tell me that you love me.
That you love me, one last time
Did you know that If I could I would follow you to the Realms of the Dead?
If I could I would confront the Black God myself.
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
Kel looked up at the sky. It was nearly sundown, and the sky was a light pink and orange. The sun was setting and it looked so magnificent.
If only I could share it with you.
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
The land was rich all around and there was the great view of the Royal Forest.
If only I could share it with you.
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
And do you know that at night I dream
You were there, we were happy
But then It would end and you would cry
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry
And there I could tell you everything
But when I wake up...
It feels so heavy
And I couldn't say it
Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over you grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
And when I'm about to say it...
I feel like a coward and I couldn't say it
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
And even if people thinks I'm a hero
I know I'm not
Because I can't say it
And I feel so empty
Because my world id nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
The night bell rang. Time for dinner. Kel can't help but remember those times when she and her friends would patrol the halls for Joren and his cronies. When at morning Lord Wyldon would tell her to report after breakfast because of her bruises. When both of them, Kel and Joren would say the traditional lie. "I fell" and they would be given punishment work.
I just don't know what to do with myself
I can't stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago
She remembered waking up having sunshine at her face. Yellow and Purple bruises didn't hurt like this.
And when they were fighting, the touch of his skin against hers made her tingle.
And I hadn't told you
I stood there and took that picture
Kel couldn't help but swear. Swear at the gods.
Damn Mithros! Damn Sakuyo! Damn that blasted Chamber of Ordeal!
More tears fell. This time she didn't try to stop them.
There's just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad
Does he know how much it hurts to be missing you
Kel never realized how much she missed Joren until now.
She realized things would never be the same without him.
Baby I'm missing you
Baby I'm missing you
Stupid.
Why didn't I tell him before?
Stupid.
I shoud've told him.
Stupid.
Oh God damn it I love you
Why did he take you away...from me
Cause I love you so..
Kel took a deep breath. She was ready.
I miss you so much baby
I just can't go on baby
She stood up and looked far away. Then she looked at Joren's grave again. Friends and Family was written below his name.
"I love you Joren" she said before another tear fell from her eyes. But it was a tear of apology and thanks.
She stood up and prepared to go. A light breeze came and Kel gasped. She wasn't sure if it was what she heard.
'I love you too Kel'. The wind seem to reply back.
Kel's lips curved until it was a faint smile.