Healing
It had been two weeks since Nellie had written her parents about her and Percival staying in New York City permanently. Harriet had been in a deep depression since she had heard the news. She had refused to leave her bed and Nels was worried about her.
"Harriet, I don't know how many times I have told you, but there is reason to live. The whole family does need you; the community needs you on the school board, church council and at the mercantile", said Nels.
"But I won't have Nellie!",said Harriet bursting into tears.
"Oh Harriet, she'll write and call us",said Nels stroking Harriet's hand.
"I won't see her or my grandchildren!",said Harriet.
"We will someday dear. They will visit.",said Nells.
"It won't be the same! I want Dr. Baker to get me some sleeping powders. Then everything will be better",said Harriet.
"I'll get Dr. Baker, but I don't think he will give you sleeping powders. I hope not",said Nels. He said I hope not under his breath. She was so depressed that he didn't want her taking any medication.
When Dr. Baker came Harriet began to sob and beg for sleeping powders.
"Mrs. Oleson, I can understand how this is a difficult time for you. I am very concerned, but I won't give you those sleeping powders. They could make you feel worse," said Dr. Baker.
"How could you do this to me!" Said Harriet.
"I didn't do anything to you Mrs. Oleson. You have a wonderful husband and church family who do care about you. I hate to you or any of my patients like this",said Dr. Baker.
"Reverend Alden said something like that too, but it didn't work. I'm going to read from Joab now",said Harriet as she reached for her Bible, reading verses that said things like blot out the day I was born.
Dr. Baker left wondering if adoption would work for Harriet. He mentioned it to Nels. Nels agreed that he would talk to Harriet. She refused saying the child would never love her and could never replace her darling Nellie. Nels prayed that night as he had every night since Harriet was depressed. He prayed that Harriet would overcome her depression.