Edwards POV
I look Down at the pieces of paper lying in my hands. I instantly recognised the hand writing...Bella...My Bella...
I pause a few moments, dreading the hate that i may see written on the sheets...
Edward Cullen..Hurry up and read the letter dumbass, what are you waiting for? this is BELLA! urgh.. thanks Alice.
Son, Do What you feel is right.. Carlisle. Always level headed, just what i needed.
Oh My God... Bella Wrote me and Emmett a seperate letter? I wonder why.. Shit, Edward can hear me, erm...Let's have
some fun this beat is sick... Too late, I heard Rosalie. I will sort that out later.
I nervously fumbled open the folded paper and read the words of my angel..
"Edward..
I never thought I would be doing this, writing to you.
But There Is Something I Need To Tell You.
I'm terminally ill. I Have breast cancer, apparantly it's hereditory, yet the gene skipped through Renee.
There was some changes when you..left.
It all starts here. It felt like I was in a pit of darkness when you all left..
I dont want to make this hard for you to read, so i wont elaborate on my behaviour,
but charlie disowned me for it. I'm not upset, I dont blame him. He was right to do so.
I Dropped out of school shortly after we..broke up. I did try to keep up with studies,
I wanted to become an interior designer. i was inspired by Esme.
It all happened when I went off the rails, about a month after ..you left,
Mike Newton's parents were out of town and we threw a house party. Everyone was drinking so I did too.
Whether It was the alcohol or the cocaine, I was'nt myself. I met some lads from the college in Port Angeles,
they seemed nice, so I had faith when one offered to walk me home.
I wont divulge on the details, but im ashamed of what happened. His name is Lucas Newton, Mikes brother.
He didnt understand why I didnt want to sleep with him at the party, but he didnt moan about it, until the walk home.
I was weak and vulnerable yet I tried to fight back, attempt to stop it. My attempts made it worse.
All I remember waking up to Jake carrying me the rest of the way home. Jake was my best friend, Jacob Black.
8 months later I prematurely gave birth in Port Angeles ER. I hemoraged and lost a lot of, erm, blood. Im lucky I survived
to see my beautiful baby boy. He weighed 6 pounds 11 ounces. He had pale skin like me, and beautiful brown eyes.
What shocked me the most was he didnt have my dull hair colour or his biological fathers blonde. Instead, small tufty
bronze hair framed his face. I nearly stopped breathing, it reminded me so much of you. So i named him Masen;
after your human surname. He is 9 years old now, and is very much into toy cars, and climbing trees. Much to my
discouragement. He is no clumsy human like me. Yes rumours spread round that he was your child, it hurt
to hear this trivial gossip. It hurt to hear your name being mentioned without it being true. Without you here.
Lucas, Masens "Dad" died two months after Masen was born. my dad was arresting him for drink driving- typical.
I never had anything to do with him anyways, I hate him with all passion in my empty heart. When his enemy from
New York came into town, there was fire of several rounds, as he attempted to kill Lucas.
One hit Lucas in the head, two hit my Dad in the neck and the face. My world collapsed around me again. Jacob, my best
friend helped me raise Masen, until the age of 8. Last year Jake imprinted. Yeah, Jake is a werewolf of the Quileute tribe in La Push.
Jake never hurt me or Masen physically, but the imprint sent me into depression. Masen kept me strong, each and every day he
tells me he loves me, and he loves thestories i make up to him about the boy who never grows old..not Peter Pan, more like Edward Cullen.
I still wish i could see you one last time. Thats me being selfish. I have never stopped loving you, if anything my love has grown stronger.
I love you so much that I'm happy you may have a girlfriend wife or even your own coven/family.
Which brings me to my final point, the one that triggered this letter to you.
I have lived in seattle now for 6 years, 5 of which I have owned a make over studio- I work a lot with the under priveleged children
and single parents in the city In spare time also, collecting clothes for the community. Making them feel special.
The volunteers who work for me handed out flyers in every mall asking kindly for clothing donations of any size or style, with the address of my office.
I looked out of the window to see a red BMW pull up to the curb and a blonde women step out. To my shock it was Rosalie And Emmett.
Rosalie gave my assistant loads of designer labels, some worth thousands. I sold these clothes and invested the money in a scheme to help still born children
and their families. Please tell her that although we did'nt see eye to eye, I love her as if she was a sister, and I am really greatfull for her
generosity.
Before jake imprinted we got drunk on his birthday. Masen was at his play mates house for the evening. I'm not ashamed however disapointed in myself, me and
Jake had a one night stand. I fell pregnant and gave birth to a baby girl 9 months later, 2 months after Jake imprinted, and left me.
I had found out we were having a girl and I was adamant we were naming her Rosalie Alice black. It pains me to write this but she was still born, the doctors tried everything but it was too late. I lost my baby girl before i had chance to hold her in my arms.
i Have about a month left before the doctors say I'm going to pass. And I promised myself before I left this earth, to remind you that you were my first,
my last, my only love. How I wished everyday to wake up to your mesmerising golden eyes, how I wished you were there to see Masen dress up
as dracula in the school play, it was so funny Edward, Emmett would have a field day. I knew you two would have been like best friends, so alike.
He found the picture of you and me in the trees in forks, he was shocked how high you could climb, with me on on your back aswell.
He tries so hard to get high, it worries me sick.
So here we are ten years later, i never thought i would be trying to contact you, i feared that it
would disrupt your new lift without me.
I just wanted to tell you i never meant to cause you and your family harm, i loved
you all so much, and I understand now that there is no place for a human in a vampire family.
If anything i just wished that i was able to say goodbye to you all properly. So here is my goodbye to you all.
Goodbye Alice, I love fashion now. I know :) I hope in heaven/hell they have a mall, and a sister like you... god I will miss you! Love You. X
Goodbye Jasper, I don't blame you for the incident, you had to feel everyone elses bloodlust too. I'm sorry, I'm clumsy Bella. Love You X
Goodbye Carlisle, you were truly like a father to me, I appreciate all the times you looked after clumsy old me. So caring. Love You X
Goodbye Esme, So Kind and loving. You gave me hope, that life goes on even when you lose a child, you will always be a mother to me. Love You X
Goodbye Emmett, Big Bro! I miss your bear hugs, I hope I'm still your favourite human! I will definately miss you. Love You X
Goodbye Rosalie..Thank you. For always being honest. I do Have a letter seperate for you and Emmett. Love You X
Edward.
I love you Edward Cullen. I understand that this is goodbye, therefore I wont enclose my return address.
i would say I will love you forever, but I'm human, so there is no such thing.
I will say I loved you, I do love you, and I will continue loving you, until my last breath.
Isabella Marie Swan
xXx
P.s Masen blows you all a kiss each. x x x x x x x"
"Bella..." I groaned.. My beautiful darling bella. My Love...what am I going to do? What If I'm too late.. wait what?
I was Interupted of my thoughts by Alices.. I seen you toy between decisions edward...do as your heart tells you to..before you say, you do have a heart...her thoughts swirled into a memory of a vision of Bella and I, sat next each other in our meadow. She told me I had a soul..And I Still Had a heart, irrelevant whether it beats or not...
"My Love..." And with that I ran out the house to go hunt.