No One's Gonna Love You More Than I Do

By: Nicole Lopez

Summary: This time Jacob's the bad guy and he'll do anything not to lose the one he loves

(A/N: I'm separating out my mini-stories from Boys with Girlfriends. It features Jacob from Twilight and Bonnie from The Vampire Diaries. This is a 4-chapter story that I may tweak little. Review please. -NL)

Chapter One: Someone, They Should've Warned You

Tears were welling in my eyes, forming themselves like these huge clear bubbles that kept expanding and growing. It was only a matter of time before they undulated onto my cheeks, and then I'd really be in trouble then.

I was really trying not to make him angry with me this time, but I was never very good at keeping him happy and stopping myself from getting hurt. It was just so hard not to show my emotions, especially pain and especially under these circumstances.

As I watched Jacob do it, I couldn't even imagine … Embry was his friend, a really close friend but that didn't stop Jacob. Nothing seemed to. He was unstoppable, which was terribly frightening but also one of the reasons that I stayed with him.

But it wasn't out of fear. I don't want you or anyone else to think that I don't love Jacob because I do. I love him so much it hurts. I'd hurt myself before I'd do anything to harm him. I live, breath for him because I'm that desperate.

I think I'm off rambling again about things that I shouldn't even be revealing anyway, but I can't keep quiet about this forever. I just couldn't believe it was Embry.

When Jacob first started 'protecting' me, it ended with the death of a couple of vampires that had followed me from Mystic Falls to Forks, Washington. I was only there for a visit, a ski class trip that Elena and I decided to go on. She backed out and I was stuck going by myself.

It really doesn't make any sense, really why I'd be of any interest to them, but I found myself in the dark in the woods doing the same thing that the crazy, stupid people did on the Blair Witch Project and every other really bad horror flick.

I did it just to clear my head. Senior year was coming to an end. College was uncertain for me and my friendship with Elena was strained. I guess I kind of blamed her for a lot of things that went wrong in my life…

But I'm not going there with you. Not just yet … not until I get this out.

So, when I was stupidly walking into the night in the dark, I didn't hear anything when the two vamps surrounded me. They were that good. I didn't shriek or run, even though my flight instincts were much stronger than the fight ones … I kept cool and was going to fight every part of my body shut down.

It didn't have to go that far because Jacob was there. He was ordered to guard the woods that night, which he did eagerly.

When I first met him, he was an oversized, russet-colored wolf with anger in his eyes. He ripped them apart seemingly simultaneously and I instantly knew that I wanted him to be in my life. I watched as he fell to the ground suddenly, brought down so quickly after his victory as though to remind him of his own mortality.

He was hurt … and dying. I rushed to his side, unwilling to lose my savior so prematurely. With everything I knew about myself and about my powers, I called on the power of my Grams and Emily to help me save him. I chanted and prayed, soothed him and did everything I could to make him heal.

And he did. Jacob got stronger and stronger each day and the shield that I put up was able to keep any harm away from us. I talked, sang, and rocked his body back and forth for days until the pack finally found him.

They found him and took him away, just like that … leaving me kneeled on the ground in prayer position. Panic grew in me and I couldn't just let them take him away so easily! I scurried to my feet and followed them. They threatened me and told me to go away, but I wouldn't and I couldn't.

I followed them. And when we got to a house, they went inside and I waited outside for Jacob to come for me. I would've waited there forever.

When he finally did come out, it was two days later.

"What the hell are you doing here? Go home." He yelled, walking powerfully as though he would attack me at any moment. When I refused to move, he gave me a small shove in the opposite direction and said, "Go." This should have been my first warning, but I was young and stupid.

"I can't leave you. Ever." I whispered, wrapping my arms around him and taking in his scents. "I'll stay with you." I decided firmly as Jacob's expression softened and he smiled, triumphed.

"Fine. But you'll have to stay in this really small house with me and my sister."

"No parents?" I asked innocently.

"No. Not anymore."

It didn't take long for me to love Jacob. I had been waiting for someone like him since Damon almost took my life. And I longed for him again once Grams was gone. Now, here he was.

From the start, I could see the inner conflict in him. Sometimes he was happy… so happy that he could make everyone laugh without even trying. In these times he was gentle, sweet, and he showed everyone that he was mine.

Then there was the side of Jacob that came out rarely, but scared me nearly to death. This Jacob was belligerent, angry, hostile, possessive, rough and confrontational. He would jerk me around and forced whatever he wanted onto me.

That was the Jacob I tried to avoid, I tried to stop from appearing, but he started coming up more and more which is in essence why I even began my friendship with Embry.

The thing with Embry was actually kind of fun. We were always hanging out, mostly because of Jacob and the others from the recently reunited pack. We played around a lot and he reminded me of the Jacob I used to know, but much much shorter and a little more clever.

The time I remember most with him is back when we all attended a formal at a club in Seattle. It was for teens fifteen and up. I remember that Jacob didn't really want to go, but everyone else was going and I wanted to…

Jacob went in with us and then wandered around the entire time, not even talking to me or asking me to dance. "I better go find him." I said to Embry who was the only one from our group sitting down with me.

"Don't worry about him. Jacob's in a pouty mood so let him mope. We're here to have a good time, right?" I nodded, but I was still worried about Jacob. Something was weighing on his mind, heavily but he wouldn't tell me what it was.

"So, I guess you'll dance with me then?"

"Of course. I'd never deny someone as beautiful as you…" Embry complimented as I took his hand and we started moving to an Amerie song. Before we could even get into the groove of the fast mix, a slow jam by Jill Scott started.

"Maybe we should-"

"It's cool. Jake is cool." He reassured me as I relaxed a little and rested my head on his shoulder. To tell the truth, I was really exhausted these days, exhausted but I didn't know why. It was probably stress and I didn't want to ruin the good time we were having so I kept my complaints to myself.

When I looked up at Embry, he was still smiling and I pressed my lips together, trying not to grin back. It was so hard not to. I looked away just in time to feel his lips brush the side of my face. "Em … This isn't the place for that."

This wasn't the first time that he had been so forward and flirted with me. We did it all the time just … not when Jacob was in the same building with us.

"Would you calm down, alright? No one even noticed." He whispered into my ear, giving me another quick kiss there. "You smell like cherries tonight."

"And you smell like you want Jacob to kick your ass." I joked back. "You can ogle me all you want, but I'm not doing anything with you with everyone around."

"Then what are we waiting for? Let's go!" He announced, keeping his hand around my waist and leading me out of the club.

"What about-"

"I'll get Leah to keep him busy. They've always had unspoken chemistry." He commented as I crossed my hands over my chest. Leah? Was this guy serious?

"Leah?" I asked out loud.

"Yep. Don't let the attitude fool you, she's actually really feminine and sexy underneath it all."

"You say that like you've done something with her before…" I accused.

"I haven't but we've all seen and relived the images of her and Sam together." Embry explained. I nodded to show my acceptance and he led me to another club that wasn't too far away. I felt a little ridiculous being so dressed up, but we got in without being carded.

That was because I made us invisible to the bouncer until we got in. Embry thought it was because he looked so much older and I let him think that. When we got into the club, it just breathed sweat and raunch.

Embry helped me take off my cardigan and we made our way to an empty spot on the dance floor. Here, in the back, dark corner with no one around, I felt free to do what I wanted to do. I danced with Embry how I'd only dreamed of dancing with someone in public.

I could feel his body on mine, pressing through our clothing and forcing away all of our inhibitions. I danced as if Embry were my lover.

When the night was over, it was around 2am. We were both sweaty and smiling at what we had done, our 'deceit,' our 'betrayal' had been fun. "Let's do it again." I requested, Embry wrapping his hand around mine.

"The night's not over yet."

"What else is there left to do?" I inquired facing him this time.

"Bonnie … you know what I want to do. You know what's on my mind-"

"You're drunk." I answered back.

"Maybe, but you had a few shots too … if anyone asks anything you could just say you got wasted and don't remember." Embry offered.

"And aren't you promised to someone?"

"Aren't you?" He muttered into my ear, warming it with his lips, with his tongue, with …

"Okay. But just because I'm curious. I love Jacob." I reiterated as Embry licked his lips and nodded. "But I don't want him to know this happened … EVER." I bargained, not knowing what would want to make me ruin what I had with Jacob out of curiosity.

But that desire was there along with the opportunity, so I took it.

I went to bed that night with Embry, letting him do whatever he wanted to me, as I customarily did with Jacob, but it was different because Embry asked me what I wanted. Like I knew? No one had even asked me before so I told him to do what he normally did.

And as shameful as it is to admit, I really did enjoy what we did. It was easy and it felt nice and I kissed him when it was over, whispering, "Thank you … I needed that."

If I could've somehow foreseen the consequences of that action, I would've practiced a little self-restraint. I wouldn't have enjoyed it and had it written all over my face.

"Where have you been all night?" Jacob questioned once I walked into the door. I wasn't expecting him to be up at 6am, but there he was and I wasn't prepared.

"I got wasted." I decided to say after a while of silence. That wouldn't stick and I knew it. Jacob was a werewolf. He could smell the sex on me, smell what we had done and know that it wasn't him who did it to me.

"So you had sex?"

"I don't know." I lied, looking as tired as I felt.

"Was it good?"

"I don't know what you're talking about." I tried to make my way to his bedroom.

"Was it good?" Jacob screamed, clutching my arm and digging his fingers into my skin.

"Jacob, stop. Stop!" I yelled back until he finally let go. "What the hell's the matter with you?"

"I can smell that someone's d*** has been inside of you-"

"Stop it. We'll talk about this tomorrow." I decided, heading for the shower instead.

"Do you admit it?"

"I'm not going to talk about this with you because you've obviously been drinking too … unless you just lost your mind." I shot back boldly. Once I did so, I felt a sharp pain across my left cheek. It burned. I held my face in shock, trying to stop the pain as Jacob just looked down and shook it head. That was how it began, but that was just the beginning of this chapter…

(A/N: This story is slightly more graphic than most of mine. For older teens. -NL)