sabbie.xoxo
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My first ever ever ever ever fic!! (though I HAVE made a fic before but that was ages ago and it was c-r-a-p-p-p so I'm not gonna tell you what it was. xp)
My advanced apologies if this sucks...
Anywaysss, this is set on the present time… cus I don't know much about the series. I mean, I love it like hell (and the character too o.o), but… I'm sorry to say I don't know the terms and words and whatnot.
I'm sorry!!!!!!!
Oh, and for the disclaimer, I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA…
There.. now,
Enough with the chit chat,
ON WITH THE STORY!!
ahemm
Chapter 1: Escape
Kagome's Point of View
The world seems less scary from up here. Like all of my problems aren't such a big deal anymore. Like they're nothing compared to other people's.
This has been my whole existence. As if I were always standing on this rooftop. Oblivious to everyone. Nobody caring whether I'm here on not. Just an insignificant speck. No one really sees me unless they squint their eyes really hard and block out the sun.
I am.. nobody.
I carefully placed my left leg over the railings while keeping a hold on the bars. Slowly, I lifted my right leg as well so I'd be standing properly.
I felt like vomiting.
My hands were starting to slide off from their grip because of my sweaty palms. Take a deep breath, I told myself, this'll all be over soon.
The people below didn't even notice that someone from above was threatening to jump off the 5 storey building. Not that I didn't expect that. Not that anyone was ever going to care. Nobody really cared now. And I am all alone. If I were to die, no one would be saddened. No one. And that cut me like a knife.
It had never occurred to me that it would be this hard being alone. I never knew that having no one would affect me so much. It turns out I'm just human, after all. And just like all humans, I get lonely, too. I worry about my next meal and how I'm going to pay the bills. I think about whether to get a job and a scholarship or if i should just get some student loan.
Everyday I worried. Money, bills, school, if i was going insane or not. But.. it was mostly having no one to depend on.
I was a teenager. A teenager. And yet I was acting as if i were an adult. Ready to face the world and fight whatever comes my way.
But that was the thing,
I wasn't ready.
I didn't know how to do anything right, and I just.. couldn't do it.
I wanted to be taken care of, to be scolded, to stop worrying every waking second... I wanted to be loved.
But even if my father had been alive, he was never one to get all touchy-feely anyway. He.. always kept his distance.
He never ever looked me in the eye. Not since my mother's death. He wouldn't even dare touch me. They said I reminded him too much of her. When he'd be leaving for months at a time for a business trip, all I'd get was a pat on the head and an "I'll be back soon. Don't forget to lock up, okay?" ..he always did come back. Some nights I'd wake up crying, thinking he had abandoned me. But he always came back. And even when he was less of a father then, I loved him as I would a father, and I knew deep inside he cared.
Now, though, he's gone. Gone like all the passengers in his flight. Gone like the plane that had its propeller malfunction and sent them crashing down to the ocean.
There's no body. I will never get to see him again.
The last words I said to him were, "don't forget to come back," I remember being so embarrassed after saying that. The words just came out of my mouth.
Now he's really gone. He really has abandoned me.
Now.. absolutely nobody cares for me.
I am unloved.
The pain will go away soon enough. I'll make sure of it.
With a small smile on my face I let my fingers slip little by little, until I let go entirely and plunged down below.
Sweet relief here I come.
So????? Did you like it??
No of course Kagome doesn't die!! Haha..
I'ts Kikyo who I don't like all that much. Wahahaha….. haaaaah
I'll update soon. But please review… :c :c :c T.T
Pleeeeaaaaasseeee.
No flames, if possible. But if my writing really sucks,, just… break it to me gently.
Wahahaha
Tis a long a/n isn't it…
Welp, tah tah for now.
Mwah!
sabbie.xoxo
p.s. kagomexsesshoumaru