"James had never been one to show his feelings, NIves, and you've got to know that," Steve said, holding me against his side and brushing my hair as tears slowly poured down my cheeks.

A drop in the ocean, a change in the weather.

Everything had happened so suddenly, well not altogether suddenly. I had fallen for Bucky slowly, and each day seemed to grow only a little, so that it was a few months in before I had even realized it.

I never thought that you'd be the one to hold me heart. But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start.

*Four months earlier*

Bucky and I were on one of the couches, watching movies and when it would get to the scary parts, Bucky would pull me close with his right arm draping across my shoulders. It wasn't anything romantic, Bucky was still tensed and just as scared as I was, but whenever he did it, I felt peace wash over me. I felt at home.

You put your arms around me and I'm home.

The next morning I woke up, wrapped up in Bucky's arms, the both of us crashed haphazardly on the couch. I didn't fare move, so that Buck could keep sleeping, but then he said, "Oh good, wanna go get some breakfast?"

*Bucky's POV*

I had woken to my arms wrapped tightly around something warm and squishy, and looked down to see Nives curled between my legs and on my chest. The night before it had seemed like a good idea, we had been watching movies and having fun, but now I was second guessing myself. I wanted to tell her how I felt, but I knew she didn't feel the same way with the way she always looked at Steve and talked about him. True, I had feelings for her, but for what? For my heart to be broken? As soon as I had laid eyes on her, I thought she was beautiful, but now that we've gotten to know each other, it seemed like the mere thought of her would make my heart beat out of my chest. and, oh, the sweet smell of her cocoabutter shampoo, still fragrant after so long a time, I wanted to lie like this forever, but I knew she wouldn't be one to try and reel me in, why would she try, with the past that I've had, that I keep trying to bury.

She stirred then, and immediately the thought to stay there all day vanished and I did a 180 in my thinking. Remembering that we were just friends and she likes Steve.

I silently cursed myself and hoped maybe waking up next to me might changed something.

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around. I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown. I hope that you see right through my walls, I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling.

*Nives' POV*

I reluctantly agreed to breakfast, still groggy from lack of slee, but Bucky said he's pay, and I couldn't pass up a free meal.

The affection from the night before was gone now though, and I found myself thinking about what was missing. I racked my brain for what it could be when Bucky excused himself to go to the bathroom, brushing his hand over my shoulder, again making me feel at home.

i started daydreaming about all the times I had been with Bucky, that had always seemed incomplete, and I began twisting them to make them affectionate. However I doubted Buck had romantic feelings for me, it was on the rare that he was affectionate, but still the two of us had become best friends.

I was praying that you and me might end up together. It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert, but I'm holding you closer than most, 'cause you are my heaven.

Bucky was probably the one I was closest to, other than Wanda, being as we had rooms right next to each other and would often "sleep over" when the other had stuff to get off their chest.

Like when Wanda confessed to liking Vision and I squealed nearly loud enough to wake Nat up on the other side of Wanda's room.

Bucky sat back down, snapping me out of my thoughts, "You okay? You look a little flushed."

Bucky looked around, seeing if there had been any cute guys who had walked in while he was gone. I rolled my eyes and he chuckled a bit, after which I continued my ranted theory about the last movie we had watched.

By the time we had finished breakfast it was nearly 10 AM, so we headed back to the complex, getting a text from Tony saying we needed to get back for a mission.

—–

When we had finished the mission, Buck collapsed on the couch we were on the night before, and I took my place sitting on his feet to trap him.

"Not dar," he whined, and then proceeded to try and kick me off, all the while I laughed and held on to his legs.

Suddenly I was on the floor, my vision going in and out as VIsion (ha) looked over me trying to get me to respond and a nervous looking Bucky in the back round.

*Bucky's POV*

I sat by her hospital bed, waiting for her to wake up and when she did, she was still a little ditzy.

"Bucky, Buck, I needa tell ya something," she stated, slurring her words and making them tough to understand.

My brows knitted together and that was all she needed to continue, "I love you, Buck."

In the least I could say I was taken back by this, and questioned her further, "Do you really?"

"Mm-hmm," she said, just before she passed out again.

Too bad she didn't remember that when she woke up.