Dear Hassan,
Baba always told me that the greatest sin besides being a thief is to lie. I lied to you many times when we were younger. Remember that one time you asked me to read to you under the tree? Well I got bored reading what was written and,,, I made up my own version to tease you. Which..wasn't the best thing to do. But out of that came a dozen of my hand written stories that I owe you credit for. Hassan, I also lied about putting my watch and money under your bed that night that you were in Baba's office with Ali. I should have said something to save my self. But sadly I didn't I sat their and lied some more.
I wasn't the best friend you pictured me as. I was a horrible person back then. I feel truly horrible for that. Of which I will never forgive my self. Another time I lied and could have saved you again was in the alley. Remember that Hassan when Assef did that horrible thing to you? I dare not speak it or ill smudge this letter. Hassan, Remember what a good kite runner you were? You were amazing if any one deserved that medal and honorable mention and love from Baba it would be you. Rahim Kahin said that I can make everything good again. Im trying Hassan, I am. Your boy, Sohrab, is a good boy. Quiet just like you were! But a good boy. Hassan, I cant lie to you in death, Sohrab when we were still in Afghanistan tried to kill himself to be with you. It was such a scare Hassan, I almost lost my mind. Im trying to protect that boy with all my life.
Hassan, remember that time, when we were young and we would play with the magnifying glasses and burn aunts and make it bright and throw the fruit? Hassan, I miss you I miss you more then I've ever missed you. Now that im older I understood why Baba never told us. Honor. Why do you care so much about Honor Hassan? Can you answer me that. Hassan, I wish you could see your boy. He looks exactly like you know. Has your nose, your hair and your sense of adventure. The one thing that bothers me Hassan, is that he doesn't talk much. I wish something could happen to get him to talk. We fly kites together. He is excellent just like you where! Hassan o if you could see it. It would make you so proud. Prouder then Baba was. Why. Because it is your Boy.
Hassan, I've dreaded telling people what happened to you. See Im not a good person. I keep things inside when I shouldn't I should share them. I should have shared it the day it happened. Something could have been done...I could have done something for you. But I lied and ran away. Im horrible Hassan. Allah shouldn't forgive me too much. Hassan, I wish things could have been different for both of us! I wish you could have had what I had too! I feel stupid Hassan. I really do! Hassan I promise you a thousand times over that your boy, Sohrab will have a great life here in America. He will go to college! Get an education! Become a doctor maybe, or a sports star! We have high hopes Hassan. I ask you a small favor in death. That you can give your boy some sign that things will be ok for him. You don't have to. I under stand if you don't. But I hope with your kind and forgiving heart that you will. For your child.
Hassan I when I went to see Rahim Kahn he said theirs a way for me to make things right.
I trying with all my heart to make things right. A thousand times over just for you Hassan and for no one else. I died inside when they told me you were dead Hassan, I did. I wanted to apologize for being the bastard that I was. Hassan, I hope in death that when your read this, you realize, I love you Ten Thousand Times over.
Sincerely Amir