Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this chapter. They belong to Stephenie Meyer, as does the Twilight series.
Sometimes, we need to make sacrifices for what truly matters to us. As much as we deny reality in a futile attempt to protect ourselves, we find our bodies going through the motions. Day by day, week by week, we do what we must to survive. People die. Love is lost, yet time goes on. The mistress of eternity, time stops for no one.
This is a fact I had to acknowledge as Edward's venom set me to burning in my own internal pyre of suffering. Instinctively, I clawed with all my might to cling to my humanity. I was not fearless. I was as any human would be in the face of irrevocable change; panicked, desperate, suffocating. Though my heart acknowledged my decision as the right one, my mind could not bear this foreign serpent of poison perforating my very essence in its struggle to eradicate the warmth and life from my body.
After three days of torment, I expected many things. To feel love and amazement; even a sense of wonder… but nothing could have prepared me for what I felt upon waking. Nothing can prepare you for… Well, nothing. I had no idea what to feel. I was not myself. I was not human. I was a predator; I had become the very thing that had devoured me. I felt cold… Still. Hollow. I had woken to a world that was not my own, to a foreign touch upon my face, smooth as silk, yet invasive somehow. As my new vision found the eyes of my love, he truly was achingly beautiful, yet the beauty was unnatural. As if it wasn't enough that my whole world had changed, Edward now seemed a stranger in my vision as I looked upon him with new eyes; eyes I knew would be blood red and monstrous in appearance.
I had not expected such monumental change, and it frightened me - this seemingly foreign planet with its peculiar textures and colours. I was not myself, nor did I know exactly how to deal with this revelation.
So I simply ran.
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