A life with and without you.

Summary: Dean and Sam had been together for six months until Sam died during a hunt with Castiel and Dean, Dean now has to live his life without him.

Disclaimer: I don't own supernatural wish I owned it. Oh, the things I would do! A girl can dream, Sadly, I don't own it.

Chapter one.

As i see you waiting for me across the sunset crying with your arms opened for me i run into your arms. You sweep me of my feet as we kiss passionately into the night and tell each other how much we love each other. Then i see you fading, fading away from me until i can't see you no longer.

I woke up feeling lost and confused i hadn't dreamt off him since his funeral two weeks ago, where i lost him in a hunt, i tried everything to bring him back made deals with the demons but they wouldn't accept, how i wish i could be with you for one more day and tell you how much i love you and how my life is nothing without you.

I got out of bed wiping the tears from my eyes away, it still hurts knowing that i will never see him again to feel his warmth and his soft lips. I walked slowly into the bathroom to splash my face with cold water, it had been a month since he was taken away from me. After splashing my face with cold water, i walked to his suitcase and changed into his shirt and jeans. I sat down on the motels bed and took out the picture of me and him together of our first vacation.

Flashback...

Sam and Dean had been on holiday for three days they decided to take a break of hunting for a couple of days to spend time together without the worry of a hunt. They decided to go to Rhode Island to spend quality time together.

Sam was spread out on the hotel bed smiling down at Dean whilst he played with his hair they had decided to stay in bed that morning.

"i love you Sammy" Dean looked up to Sam and started to kiss his neck.

Sam laughed, "I love you too Dean what's all this about."

"Nothing i just can't stand the thought of losing you Sammy" Sam kissed his head

"i will never leave you Dean i love you too much to go anywhere, why would you think like that Dean?"

Dean got up off Sam so he was sitting at the edge of the bed.

"Dean what's wrong?"

Dean looked towards the floor.

"Dean, come on please your starting to scare me."

Dean hated scaring Sam. he looked at Sam seeing the concern in his face "nothing it's silly"

Sam reached over to Dean and grabbed his hand for comfort. "Dean please what's wrong"

Dean voice sounded pained when he replied. "...I just had a Dream last night" Dean looked towards the floor, "about you Sammy... i dreamt of you."

"What's wrong with Dreaming off me Dea, I dream about you all the time."

"Nothing, its just in these dream you always end up leaving like i was nothing..."

Dean was about to get up when Sam grabbed his wrist. Sam looked hurt and looked at Dean with his puppy dog faced, "Dean i would never leave you, dont you realise how much i love you."

"Yes i know you love me"

"So stop worrying i will never leave you, i promise pinkie swear" he held up his little finger.

Dean climbed onto Sam's lap, and pressed his face to his hair. "you promise" "Yes Dean" Dean had tears falling from his face. Sam decided he was going to show Dean how much he loved him he grabbed Deans waist and pushed him so he was lying on top of Dean. He kissed his tears that fell from his eyes. "i love you Dean." And kissed him passionately.

Present...

He looked to the picture crying, "you promised you would never leave me, you promised."

Dean put the picture back in the suitcase "i love you Sam" he kissed the picture and shut the lid to the suitcase, he laded back down into bed hugging himself tightly.