"The Strangest Feeling."
A/N: This story is Mandy/Erwin one-sided most likely the first fanfic of it's kind. I can't believe I even written this fanfic to begin with. But still this pairing needed to be done sooner or later and so I figured I should be the first to write it. Mainly because I don't think nobody else will. I like Erwin and I feel so sorry for him at times this fanfic is about him letting go.
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(Erwin's POV)
It's the strangest feeling... watching you. Do you ever realize that I am here? That I am a human being living breathing right in front of you. I guess you don't. Than again you never saw anybody as your equal. You always see everybody as less. I am right? I hate the fact that you ignore me. You despise me. Do you Mandy? After all, to you I am just a pawn to you; am I? Heck, I don't even know if you consider me worthy enough to be that. I love you and won't give me the time nor the day.
Why won't you give my love a chance?
That's what I asked you and yet I get no reply. You say love is for the weak minded, the foolish, people who have no real lives. Love only leads to pain. That's what you always say. I am more than sure that you are capable of this emotion that I speak of.
You seem to care a little, but it was always for him: wasn't it? I don't get you Mandy; I care for you more than he dose. He's just an idiot. Yet you save him, you let him get away with things that you would most certainty kill me for. Trust me Mandy he isn't worth your trouble.
Honestly I don't get what you see in him, at first I thought you kept him around just to do your dirty work. But if it were just that you wouldn't go after him all the time, because you have Grim for that now. No wonder I am envious of him. It angers me, that you would prefer an idiot over me. I love you Mandy, not him. There's that word again: Love oh, how you hate that word. You beat me up so many times for even saying that word; I am surprised am not dead yet. I often wondered; why haven't you finished me off yet? Knowing you it's probably just too much of an inconvenience for you.
I might as well go and electrocute myself: just to save you the trouble for doing it for me. You would most likely never show up for the funeral that would just show how much you would care. I fight back all the tears I can Mandy.
The strangest thing is something is telling me not to cry but to leap for joy. I don't know what. Maybe, just maybe I should consider myself lucky; that you don't care.
Because if you did you would get all the power. You would be the one that decides what I do and when I do it. And I would get no say so in anything I do. If you did care-I wouldn't have any freedom at all. At the very time that I realized this. I get the strangest feeling that... I should let go.
A/N: this fanfic did Erwin no justice, no justice at all. Then again I don't like the Erwin/Mandy pairing at all. But I just had to do it, sometimes I just feel sorry for the little guy. For me this brings a sense closure as to what will happen to Erwin in years to come. Don't flame me, whatever you do. To those of you who know me, you're probably surprised that would even write a fanfic like this. Considering that I ship the other pairing... Don't you dare tell me that Erwin is ooc; personally I think Erwin is IC for letting go of Mandy. The show never really talks about how Erwin feels the writers just stereotype him. Stereotyping is a bad thing; why do you think he didn't say yo not once in this. The main reason is, that stuff bugs me for some reason. Personally I can easily see this happening, but that's just a matter of opinion I guess. I hope you enjoyed this one-shot. (Sorry if this sucks.)
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