I'm Brittany Pierce and this is the story of how I fell in love with my best friend Santana Lopez. Most people think she's a total bitch but that's only because they've seen her bad side. When her bad side comes out it's a total terror. She always tells me that I will never ever see her angry at me. I don't know what it is with her but she treats me different than other people do. They treat me like a child, like I'm just the dumb blonde cheerleader. With me she's patient and caring.
Ever since we were little we've been closer than friends should be. We stood closer than friends should, we touched more than friends should, and we kissed more than friends should. We were eight when we had our first real kiss. We both didn't know what it was like to kiss someone and so one day when we were studying up in my room I leaned over and pressed a soft, tender kiss to her sweet, luscious lips. Since then we've had sweet lady kisses basically every day but behind closed doors.
People always say how wrong it is to love the same sex but when I'm with her everything is just so damn beautiful and perfect. I never tell her how I feel about these kisses because she constantly tells me that everything is better without feelings. That she doesn't like labels but only on things she shoplifts. I just slightly nod and sigh.
Growing up I constantly stole glances, touches, hugs, kisses. Its hard falling for your best friend especially when they don't want to admit who they truly are, not even to themselves. Ever since we were younger she threw herself at any boy in a ten mile radius. Later I found out why she did that, she was scared.
I understand that it's scary being attracted to the same gender because of the people who will hate you and the looks they'll give you. I don't care though. Love is love. Love doesn't belong to any gender.
After a while of fooling around behind closed doors I just couldn't take it anymore. My love for her was unbearable. I couldn't go a day without her and when I had to my chest just hurt. My heart beat faintly. It hurt even more when she would hook up with Puck or some nameless guy at a party and I would have to sit and listen to her tell me all about her experience that night with those boys.
When I tried to tell her how I felt when we were making out she practically told me that I'm only there when she's not with Puck. So I went out to get over her. For a very long time I thought Artie was a robot so I never talked to him but when I walked up to him in the hallway to ask him if he could be my partner I knew for sure he wasn't a robot. Santana got jealous of Artie and told him that I slept with every guy that went to the school. She thought that I would never know of that but I know everything when it comes to Santana.
After the duets competition I got back together with Artie after he had dumped me. Things between Santana and I were rocky and they would never be the same but at least I could try. I tried to patch things back up between us but she pushed me away.
I tried to like Artie the way I like Santana but there was no way in hell that I could. I just remember all the good things we went through before our fight. Like when we were younger we used to play princess and savior, our own little game we made up, we played house and a dance game where she would get so tired she would have to sit down and watch me the rest of the time. Now that I think about it I think she just wanted to check me out.
Now we swing around to today, this is where my story begins, this is where we take the first step on the Santana and Brittany story.