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Summary: Ashley's POV and Shes basically looking back on her life. Through a book Spencer made for her.

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ThinkN

Chapter 1

babygirl2006

It seems like its been a life time since I last looked through this book. Spencer made it for me for our 4th anniversary. The cover page says: Ashley N Spencer 4-EVA. Time spent with you is time I never spend alone. As long as I'm with you, I have nothing to worry about. The writing is wrote in bubble letter. Its colored blue and silver. I flip it open to the next page. Theres a photo of us at the beach with a caption under it that says: Naked... LOL! You're Crazy. The Picture is of Spencer whispering in my ear and I had the biggest smile on my face.

"What are you doing? Look at the camera." Spencer said gently pushing my mouth away from her ear and towards Aiden so he can take a picture.

"I don't want to. I'd rather whisper in your ear all day long. I get the best feeling in the world just knowing I can make you smile with just a few words." I whispered into her ear, gliding my lips over her ear lobe, making her shiver.

"Ashley! PLEASE? This is going to be the last picture we take in the next couple of months. I want a new picture of us to take with me. PLEASE?" I turned away and looked at Aiden. I actually forgot that she was leaving tomorrow for the summer. Away from me. Away from the life we created for ourselves here in L.A. I seen Aiden put the camera up, getting it ready to take a picture. I tried to put a smile on my face. At least one that made me look happy but I know it wasn't good enough. Apparently Spencer looked at me and seen the look I had on my face because-

"I want NAKED ones of you too." She whispered in my ear just as the picture was taken. I wanted to start laughing but I couldn't. I just smiled and keep my eyes on the camera.

"What?" I said, looking around my room as I was pulled for my thoughts.

"What do you have there?"

"Nothing." I closed the book and put it back in the box and seat it on my lap. I looked over at Stacey. She stood there looking at me then turned away.

"O...Kay." She said, pulling her shirt over her hair and headed for the closet. "Oh yeah... Umm someone called today, while you were out but I didn't get the name. Same guy." She grabbed a shirt then walked out of the room. I heard her walking down the stairs before I took the book back out and started looking through it. I flipped to page two and there are different verses for songs wrote nicely on the page. Right in the middle of the page was something Spencer wrote herself: Weird isn't it, How you can find the love of your life at 16. Honestly I'm really thankful I have you and don't have to spend my life searching. Searching for something AWESOME! You are my everything. You are my world. My love. Mrs. Davies. Wrote in the top left hand corner: I'd never lived, Before your love. I'd never felt, Before your touch. And I'd never needed anyone, To make me feel alive. But then again, I wasn't really livin'. I'd never lived... Before your love. Theres one going vertical on the left side of the page towards the bottom: When I lose the will to win, I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again. I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing, 'cause your love inspires me. And when I need a friend, You're always on my side, Giving me faith, taking me through the night. Laying up and down on the page in the bottom right corner: I don't want to close my eyes. I don't want to fall asleep cause I'd miss you babe. And I don't want to miss a thing. Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do. I'd still miss you babe.

I wanted to cry. How could I possibly ever love again? How could I just let her go? I want so bad to take back everything that was said. I want to take back the fight we had that ended it for good. I always thought that somehow that fight wasn't going to be different from the rest. I thought it was going to be the same. We argued. Slammed things. Sometimes throw things (never at the other but throw things.. yes). And within a few days it would be over with and she or I would be sleeping in OUR bed together again. Somehow it was different. Somehow she woke up and decided that was it. Without another word she just left. No note. No goodbye. No, its over. No nothing. She just left. I still to this day wish things had went differently. I wish she didn't leave. I wish I could possibly just maybe move on just a little bit. After 5 years as of today there was still no word, phone call, letter, nothing from her. And still after 5 VERY long years I could still only think of her.