xblackxtearsxofxlovexandxhatex: Okay I wrote this with Kagome in mind but felt that it sounded better without her name in it. This is my first attempt at a song fic and I kinda chose an easy song to do it about I think I am going to do a few more of these song fics. I have a Fanfic in the works about Kouga's future child. I will probably have it up within a few weeks. I don't really mind if you don't rate my somg fic but I'd really appreciate it if you looked up my fan fic when I get it up... Ratings would be a pleasant surprise though, comments too!
Lots of Love,
xblackxtearsxofxlovexandxhatex
She sat in the window. She was alone; there was no one there to see her pain. She did not see what was beyond her reflection in the mirror.
I've been looking in the mirror for so long…
She didn't want to think about what lay beyond the window, the outside world. Back where she knew she should be.
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side…
She clenched her fist and brought it to her chest as if holding it together. She let out a little sob; it was barely audible even to her own ears.
All the little pieces falling, shatter…
She let another escape her lips at the fresh wave of heart brake washed over her. It wasn't fair for her to be torn the way she was. Between to different worlds, two different people.
Shards of me, too sharp to put back together…
She couldn't stand much more of it… She was broken and it hurt more than she would admit to anyone except for in the deepest part of herself.
Too small to matter… But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces…
She leaned her head against the glass. A cool and welcome barrier between her and those who would deepen the fractures in her heart.
If I try to touch her…
The glass shattered as she raised her hand to touch it. She had barely rested her fingertips on it, but still it broke, just as her heart was breaking.
And I bleed… I bleed…
She took a deep breath as she realized that the glass had cut her hand when it shattered. It didn't hurt, nothing could hurt her compared to the internal pain she was feeling.
And I breathe… I breathe no more…
She took a deep breath and slowly picked out the splinters of glass wiping the blood indifferently on her shirt.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well…
She sighed letting go of the breath she'd held… Her thoughts strayed to earlier that day and she could picture the scene in her mind…
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child…
He had been away again… He refused to admit that was where he'd gone. But she had seen the look in his eyes just before he'd run off.
Lie to me, convince me that I've been sick forever…
He had lied to protect her feelings though it had done little in the long run. She still knew, she still felt the pain…
And all of this will make sense when I get better… But I know the difference… Between myself and my reflection…
He had only assured her that it wasn't her, that she was just over reacting. He promised that he wouldn't go after her again… she knew better than to believe him.
I just can't help but to wonder… Which of us do you love…
She knew who it was he wanted, she was just the replacement… a look alike to make the in between better. It hurt that he only wanted her when she wasn't around to remind him of the real thing…
So I bleed… I bleed…
She closed her eyes trying to rid her mind of the thought of the two of them together…
And I breathe… I breathe no…
She took a deep breath holding in the sob. If only he loved her like his rival did. If only she loved someone else…
Bleed… I bleed…
But she couldn't rid herself of her feelings as much as she sometimes wished she could…
And I breathe…I breathe… I breathe… I breathe…
'No…' she thought after a moment of imagining her life without him, without loving him, 'I would not trade his love with the pain for an eternity without either…' His love made her who she was…No matter who he loved…
no more…