They informed me that we didn't have any missions today. It is so great to know that. Lately every time finished a mission they always have to choose another one. They said I shouldn't complain about it since I usually complain about my rent. I understand that, but now I have so much jewels that could cover more than three years worth of rent. I just think they want to go on missions since the S-class exam thing is coming up again. Obviously Erza doesn't mind that the two want to do this and Wendy wouldn't care at all as long as she's with us and were safe. It isn't actually that troublesome for me, it's just that I'm so tired since we like literally have one hour in between mission to eat and pack for the next.

Anyways, here I am alone at my apartment working on this new idea for a novel. I know I have a different story but the idea of this just wouldn't stop popping up in my head. This idea is about this one guy who falls in love with this girl but he knows she doesn't feel the same way. He makes countless efforts to show this girl that he loves her so much. The girl gives the boy a chance and ends up falling for him. During the time the girl falls for him the boy sees the real her and falls out of love. Now the girl is the one who tries to make him stay. In the end I can't help but give the story a happy one, so they become a couple.

I'm trying to come up with how the guy is for this story. I gave up and just thought of the only person, who I think I like, maybe love, but changed a bit of his characteristics. He is a sweet and gentle person who doesn't really like showing his soft side to those he isn't close with. He seems unapproachable and cold when you see him but in fact he's just a good and kind man. He is tall, handsome no doubt, and has the right amount of muscle to make him look strong, but not too much to make him seem bulky or something like Elfman. I couldn't think of a name for this guy. I was stuck on two choices James or Derek. James seemed like a formal name but Derek was a bit too casual. I just decided on combining the names and ended up with Jerek.

I can't help but blush and feel my heart pounding as I think of him. I don't know why and when this thing started, but one thing I'm sure of is that I do feel happy and at peace when I'm around him. Talking to him and just being together makes me all I don't know giddy maybe. I sound crazy, don't I? Happy would probably be giving strange looks and telling Natsu that I'm silly or something. But hey, I can't help it. No one can stop liking a person at a snap of their fingers. I guess these things are coming out now because I can't really express myself when there's something or someone making me hold back.

It's already late, eleven thirty to be exact. I can't believe I took that long just to come up with this guy's character. Or maybe, I wasn't really writing his character, more like fantasizing about whom I got the inspiration of. I leave my new project on my desk and stretch my arms and back for a bit. I begin to head off my closet to change in my pyjamas with a tingly feeling in my heart each step of the way. As I crawl into bed, I can't help but smile at the fantasies that I thought of a while back. I start to drift off to sleep, but get a strange feeling something is going to happen soon. A image of the new character I came up with flashed before my eyes as I closed them. I just brushed it off and let myself get the well deserved rest I so desired.

As I woke up this morning, it seems as though it would be a great day. I did my morning routine of showering and pampering myself, since today just had that special vibe going. I prepared a simple breakfast and ate up. I check everything, keys purse whip and such, before heading out to the guild. At the foot of my door right outside was a beautiful pink rose. A small note was attached to it. It read: Please give me a chance to show you how I feel. A small rush of heat went up to my face as I read the note. The short message ended with a small heart and the letter J at the end. I thought of every person I met that had a name starting with the letter J. A few came into mind like Jet and Jellal, but I knew that was impossible since Jet had started to crush on Levy again and Jellal was no doubt in love with Erza. I just took the rose and brought it with me, thinking that maybe someone at the guild had an idea.

I entered the guild hearing the same I do when I come to the guild. Member greeting me good morning, laughing, shouting and things crashing into the wall or something else. I found my friends at a table smiling and chatting with one another. I joined them after greet each of them a good morning. As I sat down beside Erza, they noticed the rose and started asking a bunch of questions. I told them what I know and asked them if any of them knew a person with the name starting with the letter J other than Jet and Jellal. Levy joked about it maybe being that guy from the weekly sorcerer, Jason. Natsu starting laughing almost to the point where you would think he was about to die. It was annoying at first but I couldn't help but join him since it was a funny idea. Everyone started laughing and making jokes about it except Gray. I stopped and observed him a bit; it was as though he was mad about something. I'm guessing that he was just not in the mood and to let him be. He looked at me and I was shocked a bit, his eyes widened seeing as though I caught him looking at me and turned a around quickly. I blushed and looked down, trying to steady my heart beat and my breathing. I looked back at him and notice that he had gone a bit red. I was surprised to say the least, but it might have been something else, like he was embarrassed, and not what I wished was the reason behind it.

The day went by fast. I went back home and was as usual visited by my team mates who stayed and had dinner. I can't help but notice that Gray seemed to be still a bit bothered what I think is the cause of his mood a while ago. I kept silent about it while the others where here. They started to leave one by one, Gray being the last. Before he left I pulled him back in and asked what was wrong. Like always he told me that I was nothing even though I knew it wasn't. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him telling him if he ever wanted to talk, I would be there for him. He hugged be back pulling me closure by the waist and letting his head fall onto my shoulder. I savoured the moment, hoping it could last. I let go and wished Gray a safe trip back. His mood seemed to have lightened up since he smiled and waved back as he left. The moment we shared then made me so ecstatic that I begin acting like some sort of fan girl.

I began getting ready for bed again. Right before I pulled the blanket over my body, I heard a soft sound coming from somewhere. I got out of bed and search for the source of the music. I went closer to my window since it got louder and I started to hear a man's voice. A figure of a person standing at the bottom of my window could be seen. He had a lacrima playing the song while he sang. He noticed me looking at him, a genuine smile started to form on his face. He sang louder with more passion. I stood there watching him perform, wondering why this was happening. He stopped singing and looked start into my eyes and spoke. He said: Lucy, my love. Give me the opportunity to show the love I have for you. He looked at me with hopeful eyes, waiting for my answer. Stuttering a bit, I backed up slowly as I began to realize who he was. I closed my window shut in a panic, hearing his plea for me to give him a chance before his footstep as he walked away. I leaned on my bed sitting on the floor. I held my chest hoping that it would stop my erratic breathing. The same question was repeating over and over in my mind. How is Jerek alive?