Title : Hold Me
Author : Vulcandoll
Rating : PG-13
Pairing : Logan&Jean
Disclaimer : i don't own anything.
Author's Notes : a movieverse fic, my first xmen fic since i stopped reading the comics some ten years ago...it just sorta happened ;)
She wanted to say goodbye.
She wanted Xavier to know what he meant to her. She wanted to say thank you for accepting her and helping her become someone worth being.
She wanted Storm to know how important it had been for her to have a girlfriend. Someone to laugh and cry with.
She wanted Kurt to know he was safe now.
She wanted to tell Bobby and Rogue they weren't responsible for St.John leaving. She wanted to tell them not to give up hope - the world is better than what they'd seen...together they could change it.
She wanted to tell Scott she loved him, had always loved him. She wanted him to know what he'd meant to her. She needed him to know.
She needed them all to know.
She didn't want to die alone.
But she wanted to be remembered alive. No one should have to live through her death.
She wanted to let Scott in, to feel him in her mind, holding her.
She wanted to reach out to Xavier, feel protected like she had when he first found her.
She didn't want to feel their loss, their anger, their pain.
She wanted to be loved as she died.
She made a choice.
water water water
alone alone alone
hold me
hold me!
i don't want to die
i'm scared
don't leave me!
don't leave me alone!
please
hold
me
...
He saw her in his mind. Jean. His Jean, but not as he saw her - not the goddess, the firebird - he saw her as she was in the instant she died. Young and sad and scared.
hold me
He held her, he could never refuse her. He understood she didn't want Scott or Xavier to see her this way, to know how scared she was. Only Logan got to see it. Only Logan because he could take it.
Author : Vulcandoll
Rating : PG-13
Pairing : Logan&Jean
Disclaimer : i don't own anything.
Author's Notes : a movieverse fic, my first xmen fic since i stopped reading the comics some ten years ago...it just sorta happened ;)
She wanted to say goodbye.
She wanted Xavier to know what he meant to her. She wanted to say thank you for accepting her and helping her become someone worth being.
She wanted Storm to know how important it had been for her to have a girlfriend. Someone to laugh and cry with.
She wanted Kurt to know he was safe now.
She wanted to tell Bobby and Rogue they weren't responsible for St.John leaving. She wanted to tell them not to give up hope - the world is better than what they'd seen...together they could change it.
She wanted to tell Scott she loved him, had always loved him. She wanted him to know what he'd meant to her. She needed him to know.
She needed them all to know.
She didn't want to die alone.
But she wanted to be remembered alive. No one should have to live through her death.
She wanted to let Scott in, to feel him in her mind, holding her.
She wanted to reach out to Xavier, feel protected like she had when he first found her.
She didn't want to feel their loss, their anger, their pain.
She wanted to be loved as she died.
She made a choice.
water water water
alone alone alone
hold me
hold me!
i don't want to die
i'm scared
don't leave me!
don't leave me alone!
please
hold
me
...
He saw her in his mind. Jean. His Jean, but not as he saw her - not the goddess, the firebird - he saw her as she was in the instant she died. Young and sad and scared.
hold me
He held her, he could never refuse her. He understood she didn't want Scott or Xavier to see her this way, to know how scared she was. Only Logan got to see it. Only Logan because he could take it.