This is my first Doctor Who fanfic and first fic in English. I guess my vocabulary must suck...but anyway, I have managed to explain clearly enough how I see the doctor.
Disclaimer: No, the British own Doctor Who while I live across the continent.
Please R&R.
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There are rules to follow when you are with the doctor.
If he tells you to run, you don't ask why and you run.
If he tells you to stay, you don't stay and you follow.
If he says everything is alright and it does seem so, nothing is gonna be alright.
On the contrary, if he says it when the world you know is about to shatter to pieces, I guarantee you that everything, everything you know will be just fine.
The doctor never kills so you gotta kill the way out for him and take his blame.
And don't you dare assume that the doctor is a kind and compassionate man just because he does not kill—you remember he is not even human; you don't understand his moral system.
If he says he loves you (normally he can't—is not supposed—well, simply too afraid to say it, but anyway), he is not in his right mind.
If he promises you something, even if he does want to keep the promise, he never can.
Most importantly, you need to recognize those moments:
When the doctor tells you to wait for him, when he says he is not going to abandon you, when he steps into his box looking like a dashing hero, smiles in his infamous wicked way, HE IS NOT COMING BACK. That is the moment he knows for sure he has got you. So he is leaving for good but still manages to keep you.
I know you don't believe me now and you will keep waiting then. So you might want to spare that long time thinking really hard about this question: why the doctor is brilliant? For me—that is, for all his companions who has kept this pass-it-on journal at some point in time—it is because while he does have every single right to hate every one of us, while he does have the power to decide the fate of every single species in the whole time and universe, while he has realised he had become the law himself, he remains a coward.
You will understand him. You will agree with me.