A/N: hey guys, I'm redoing the chapters. I didn't know that that other stuff was showing, thank you for your patience :).
I remember the first time I died.
Not in the arms of my love Edward as I expected, transitioning into a vampire. No, I died a rare death, but one of great pain as I learned to cope. Heart break.
It all started when I went to visit Edward to surprise him with this piano charm I bought him.
Turns out I was the one who was in for a surprise.
As I walked up the stairs I heard music coming form his room, nothing unusual though. I opened his door only to see him naked and screwing his so called "cousin" Tanya. It was in those seconds of shock that I learned that time meant nothing.
It was nothing more than just a word. The years put in to a relationship, meant nothing. And apparently to him, neither did I.
I came out of my state of shock to see him already dressed and pleading with me to stay. But there was nothing left there for me. So I did the only thing I could think of.
Run.
I knew he'd let me go because he had nothing he could say that I wanted to hear. As I flew down the stairs, for once not tripping his family pleads with me to stay. Saying he just needed the release and not to leave him and that I was being irrational. Only Rosalie remained quiet with a sneer on her face. These people, were not my family is they were just Ok with what Edward did to me.
The next morning, Charlie told me they left during the night. Me being the naive teen that I was, had to see for myself not believing they would just screw me over and abandon me.
Just my luck it started to pour down raining, but I hopped in to my rust bucket truck and left as quick as I could. I was pushing my truck to its limits as I bawled my eyes out at what my life had become, cheated on by my "soulmate" and abandoned by my "family", it wasn't until it was too late that I saw that I had drifted off the road.
The last thing I remembered was the sound of broken glass, and the numbness.
That should've been my final death. But Fate just loves to screw me over. I woke up, who knows how much later, broken and bloodied. But that wasn't what caught my attention, it was the coldness I felt around my wrist strapping me down to a metallic table.
"Well well well, what do you have here, did little Edward get tired of his pet" it was in that moment I knew death wouldn't be been kinder than anything Victoria would do.
I tried to lift my head but I knew instantly something was wrong with it. Victoria came next to me and whispered "I want you to die a thousands deaths for what happened to my mate, so I will bring you to the brink of death and never let you get the satisfaction of death. I will make your regret the day you were born."
From that day on for the next 10 years of my life, Victoria and her newborns beat, starved, and raped me. All until one careless bloodthirsty newborn accidentally injected his venom during his daily feeding that Victoria allowed. This continued for a week until he unknowingly changed me a little at a time into a vampire. I remember those glorious hours I would have without the torture, when the venom would take over and slowly change me.
I woke up for the very last time, strong and vengeful. In my haze of anger I killed all the newborns until I finally find the redhead I was looking for.
I grabbed her by the neck and whispered "I too wish for you to die a thousand deaths, but I am not as patient, so one will have to do" and with that I snapped her neck. And for the first time in what I came to find out was ten years, I allowed myself to feel pain. I let out a roar as the grief and anger took over.
The next day was a blur. I remember leaving to find Charlie only to find out he died the day of the car crash when Victoria had tortured and killed him, only to show that she would break me in every way possible. In that moment and calm overtook me.
I would never let my walls down, and I would never let anybody in again.
And if I ever saw him again, I'd kill Edward.